My Name is Isabella Marie Swan.
I like everyone else had friends.
I like everyone else had family
And I like everyone else had love.
But like everything else in my short 18 years of life, has been taken away from me because of a lie.
School. God I hate school. It's a joke. A crack. To show people like myelf that your not welcome. You're never welcome. School is for popular and normal people who actually had friends , hope, and dreams. NOT me. I exited my orange beat up truck and kept my head down the whole entire way inside the school while pulling at the sleeves of my long-sleeved hooded shirt, trying to ignore the whisper going around me. about me. I just kept my head down and stared at my dirty converses.
"They can't break me down." I thought to myself. Not more than they already have-
SLAP!
Ok. Maybe I was wrong. A foot came out and tripped me. Making me fall on my knees.
"Get out of my way Swan."
I knew that voice. That voice belonged to my ex - best friend Rosalise. with her was my other friend jessica stanley. It was hard to believe that we used to be friends just a few months ago..
*FLASHBACK April 5th 2010*
"Rosalise! God your SO obessed!"
We were all staying the night over my house and we were talking about no one other than Emmett McCarty. Rose Crush for the whole entire Junior Year. She was determined to know more stuff about him so she can win him. Rose swears shes in love. And when she found out that he moved right next door to me, we had an immediate sleep over. We were doing what we usually do when we stayed at my house but this time was different. Staring at a muscular naked body different.
"Yeah I know I'm obessed! God I cant wait to ask him tomorrow! You did tell him didn't you Bella?"
END FLASHBACK
"Day dreaming about the friends you used to have?" Jessica snarled at me.
I looked up once more to see beside them a new bitch in their "HATE BELLA" Group. It was Tanya Denali. I use to hate her last year and so did "they". But i guess since they kicked me out of their group , "they" needed some one new. Tanya started to laugh and then decided to kick me in my back. Making the other two bitches to laugh also. I felt my eyes start to water and my stomach cramp up like it always do when i know im about to cry. with my back turned to the three, I picked myself up and started running anywhere and everywhere ignoring the names that was yelled at me. Before i knew it I realized i was in the bathroom running into the handicapped stall.
Life should not be this way. Sometimes i feel like my life is a bad dream and it is impossible to wake up. I sighed and slid down the handicapped bathroom stall and bit my lip to keep from crying. I HATE my life! I hate it! I leaned over more to the side of the stall wall and reached into my pocket to pull out my trusty razor blade. I kissed it before drawing it across my wrist watching as the blood so dark and wet drip from the fresh cut down my pale arm. Moaning a little , the pain felt wonderful. Who says Pain cant solve anything?
The bell for homeroom rang and it made me jump. Did i mention that i hate first day of school? I remember that junior year with rosalise and jessica that we promised how we were going to rule the school and have the hottest boyfriends. now that i think of it We also said that we were going to be friends forever. You lose friends and promises break. I got out of the stall and walked over to the bathroom sink, grabbed a paper towel and placed it over the cut. After I placed it over the cut i pulled down my long sleeve. Couldnt let anyone see what I've done. If they did...I cant even think about it. Unfourtnetly this is my life and cutting myself , releasing the pressure is the only way to go.
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