From: Jenn www.geocities.com/muldersmamma
Title: Understand
Summary: Reyes' view on Mulder and Scully's relationship.
Rating: PG
Comments are appreciated at muldersmamma@hotmail.com. Please R/R, I appreciate feedback.
Spoilers: wow, uhm, lots…Small Potatoes, Triangle, Emily, Never Again, Momento Mori, Per Manum, This Is Not
Happening, DeadAlive…
Distribution: That's awesome! I would love the exposure! Drop me a line and let me know where it's going :-)
Disclaimer: They aren't mine. I don't make any profit from this story yadda yadda yadda….
Timeline: Recent…after Trust No 1, I guess….I started this before that ep, when there was a lot of doubt about the
true nature of Mulder and Scully's relationship!
LOOKING IN
-By Jenn
I didn't really know what to expect when Doggett asked me to accompany him on
this quest with the X-Files. I can't even imagine what he felt like when
Kersh gave him the news that he would be the new man on the X-Files a while
back…I guess it's been more than a year now for him now. And when I stepped
in, I felt like I was replacing Scully, a feeling I have desperately tried to
shake.
I knew what the X-Files was long before I landed on them. I heard the
reputations of Spooky Mulder, and his Ice Queen partner. I knew it was the
laughing stock of the Bureau...even down at a field office in New Orleans.
Imagine my surprise when I became the partner in crime. I had to step in
after years of just the two of them running the division. And I never could
have foreseen the bond that two people that work together ever had.
"Monica? Are you all right?" John Doggett stands before me at the door to the
office. "You look a little out of it. Is something wrong?"
"No, I was just looking over an old X-File, one that may help us with this
case that we're working on now, and I just got to thinking…" I glanced down at
the open red file folder in front of me.
"What about?"
"Don't worry about it. It was just kind of a random thought. Nothing too
important anyway," I set down the pen I had in my hand. "Have you come up
with anything new?"
He sighed, hesitant. "I'm…stuck, to put in bluntly. As much as I hate to say
it, I don't know where to go from here." He paused for a moment. "I'm going
to visit Agent Scully at the Academy. Are you comin?"
"You go, I think I'm going to stay here, I know there's something that will
help us in one of these files. I just can't find it."
He looked at me strangely for a moment. "Are you sure you are okay? That's
not like you. To stick around and sift through paper work."
"Don't worry about it John, I'm fine. Make sure you give me a call if Scully
can help you out."
He nodded. I watched him leave as soon as he had appeared.
This "black oil" I have heard so much about has resurfaced again. A woman in
Michigan reportedly became infected with this virus. The local PD said that
the incident had been cleared up, and it was an isolated case of some foreign
African disease, but a few too many things just don't add up.
I closed the open folder in front of me and pushed it away with the rest…a
stack of about 50 so far.
My eyes lingered down the files, my mind flying over all the cases still fresh
in my mind. I can't imagine what this would have been like for 7 years. With
the same person, with same questions coming up over and over again, and never
truly being answered. I suppose it could have been so much worse if these two
didn't connect the way they did. I could see when they were together, how
much the literally completed the other. I can almost imagine the cases by
reading the case reports.
By reading the files, I got to see what their lives consisted of, essentially.
Their lives consisted of little else but their work together.
I professional as I try to be, I can't stop from imagining what all these
cases actually would have been like. The fun they seemed like they had…and to
see so many of these things…that no one else gets to see.
I smile as I remember the file where a man could change is form...and then
changed into Mulder and tried to hit on Scully.
Or how majestic actually watching the Queen Anne appear from the mist would
have been. Actually getting the chance to explore it as they did.
I can see how much Mulder meant to Scully when they began to learn about
Emily. I just know he was her rock through tha…and how desperately she needed
him to be it.
Some people say there is a perfect match out there for everyone. How lucky
these two were to find each other when they did…so young…so right. The
pairing was meant as a catalyst to sink Mulder…but they could never have
fathomed what they started when they put these two together.
I personally cannot see how either of them could be with anyone else. And it
took them so damn long to realize it. Or maybe…they just always knew…?
To be perfectly honest, I felt tears in my eyes when Scully got her tattoo. I
know that experience was to make Mulder sit up and pay attention. She wanted
him to see her as a woman. I guess maybe in one of her weaker moments. He
was too much of a gentleman, and didn't want to tip his hand to allow her to
feel any less significant.
I flip through some more files, trying to figure out when they actually knew
what their partnership had become.
If I had to pick on moment, it would be when Scully found out the horrible
reality of her cancer. The idea of his life without her petrified Mulder. He
was desperate to do anything and everything he could. He was always bothered
that it was his fault, and he needed to set it right.
For Scully, I found it harder to pinpoint her epiphanous moment. I still
think the strong woman that she is, she tried to deny it, even to herself…out
of fear it would make her vulnerable. It would…change her, somehow.
She definitely was able to admit it to herself when she asked him to help her
with the fertility treatment. She couldn't picture anyone else the father of
her child, and I think she had come to terms with it, within her own heart.
She could not ignore any feelings any longer, and she knew it.
I saw how much it pained her when he was gone..abducted. And when we found
his desicated corpse out on that land, the desperation and pain and suffering
I witnessed, and sensed, literally broke my heart.
And when he returned…I don't think there is any other way to describe that
other than "miraculous." Her prayers cried out became answered…in a process
which also cemented her faith, in my opinion.
These files…are almost a story. Each file when put in order is a chapter of
their lives. Because their lives were nothing else.
I just wish that I was able to write the final chapter. It just can't end
this way…with Mulder gone again, and both of them with so much pain, and so
much love to share with the other. Scully now so desperately, and visibly
needing him…
"Monica?"
I snapped to attention.
"John. What are you doing back so soon?"
He looked at me suspiciously, and spoke carefully.
"I ran into Scully upstairs. She was speaking with the Assistant Director."
"Was she of any help?"
"Well, I didn't get the chance to talk with her about it. Monica…you better
get up there, before she leaves."
I was a little confused. "What are you talking about? Before who leaves?"
"Scully. She's going to be with Mulder."
"…What?"
I could not believe what I was hearing.
"She can't go." I grabbed my phone, and pushed past Agent Doggett down the
hallway.
"There's nothing you can do, I already talked to her. She's got her mind
set."
The elevator doors opened before me.
"Something's going on. Something about this just doesn't make any sense. Why
John? Why now? I have to talk to her."
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END
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Yeah. So, that's all. Corny, I agree.
I know she (Reyes) most likely doesn't think like that, but I think I'm just
trying to get my own thoughts out.
Reflect, now after the announcement that the show is coming to an end.
Oh well. Review. I'm ready for the flames :)
Title: Understand
Summary: Reyes' view on Mulder and Scully's relationship.
Rating: PG
Comments are appreciated at muldersmamma@hotmail.com. Please R/R, I appreciate feedback.
Spoilers: wow, uhm, lots…Small Potatoes, Triangle, Emily, Never Again, Momento Mori, Per Manum, This Is Not
Happening, DeadAlive…
Distribution: That's awesome! I would love the exposure! Drop me a line and let me know where it's going :-)
Disclaimer: They aren't mine. I don't make any profit from this story yadda yadda yadda….
Timeline: Recent…after Trust No 1, I guess….I started this before that ep, when there was a lot of doubt about the
true nature of Mulder and Scully's relationship!
LOOKING IN
-By Jenn
I didn't really know what to expect when Doggett asked me to accompany him on
this quest with the X-Files. I can't even imagine what he felt like when
Kersh gave him the news that he would be the new man on the X-Files a while
back…I guess it's been more than a year now for him now. And when I stepped
in, I felt like I was replacing Scully, a feeling I have desperately tried to
shake.
I knew what the X-Files was long before I landed on them. I heard the
reputations of Spooky Mulder, and his Ice Queen partner. I knew it was the
laughing stock of the Bureau...even down at a field office in New Orleans.
Imagine my surprise when I became the partner in crime. I had to step in
after years of just the two of them running the division. And I never could
have foreseen the bond that two people that work together ever had.
"Monica? Are you all right?" John Doggett stands before me at the door to the
office. "You look a little out of it. Is something wrong?"
"No, I was just looking over an old X-File, one that may help us with this
case that we're working on now, and I just got to thinking…" I glanced down at
the open red file folder in front of me.
"What about?"
"Don't worry about it. It was just kind of a random thought. Nothing too
important anyway," I set down the pen I had in my hand. "Have you come up
with anything new?"
He sighed, hesitant. "I'm…stuck, to put in bluntly. As much as I hate to say
it, I don't know where to go from here." He paused for a moment. "I'm going
to visit Agent Scully at the Academy. Are you comin?"
"You go, I think I'm going to stay here, I know there's something that will
help us in one of these files. I just can't find it."
He looked at me strangely for a moment. "Are you sure you are okay? That's
not like you. To stick around and sift through paper work."
"Don't worry about it John, I'm fine. Make sure you give me a call if Scully
can help you out."
He nodded. I watched him leave as soon as he had appeared.
This "black oil" I have heard so much about has resurfaced again. A woman in
Michigan reportedly became infected with this virus. The local PD said that
the incident had been cleared up, and it was an isolated case of some foreign
African disease, but a few too many things just don't add up.
I closed the open folder in front of me and pushed it away with the rest…a
stack of about 50 so far.
My eyes lingered down the files, my mind flying over all the cases still fresh
in my mind. I can't imagine what this would have been like for 7 years. With
the same person, with same questions coming up over and over again, and never
truly being answered. I suppose it could have been so much worse if these two
didn't connect the way they did. I could see when they were together, how
much the literally completed the other. I can almost imagine the cases by
reading the case reports.
By reading the files, I got to see what their lives consisted of, essentially.
Their lives consisted of little else but their work together.
I professional as I try to be, I can't stop from imagining what all these
cases actually would have been like. The fun they seemed like they had…and to
see so many of these things…that no one else gets to see.
I smile as I remember the file where a man could change is form...and then
changed into Mulder and tried to hit on Scully.
Or how majestic actually watching the Queen Anne appear from the mist would
have been. Actually getting the chance to explore it as they did.
I can see how much Mulder meant to Scully when they began to learn about
Emily. I just know he was her rock through tha…and how desperately she needed
him to be it.
Some people say there is a perfect match out there for everyone. How lucky
these two were to find each other when they did…so young…so right. The
pairing was meant as a catalyst to sink Mulder…but they could never have
fathomed what they started when they put these two together.
I personally cannot see how either of them could be with anyone else. And it
took them so damn long to realize it. Or maybe…they just always knew…?
To be perfectly honest, I felt tears in my eyes when Scully got her tattoo. I
know that experience was to make Mulder sit up and pay attention. She wanted
him to see her as a woman. I guess maybe in one of her weaker moments. He
was too much of a gentleman, and didn't want to tip his hand to allow her to
feel any less significant.
I flip through some more files, trying to figure out when they actually knew
what their partnership had become.
If I had to pick on moment, it would be when Scully found out the horrible
reality of her cancer. The idea of his life without her petrified Mulder. He
was desperate to do anything and everything he could. He was always bothered
that it was his fault, and he needed to set it right.
For Scully, I found it harder to pinpoint her epiphanous moment. I still
think the strong woman that she is, she tried to deny it, even to herself…out
of fear it would make her vulnerable. It would…change her, somehow.
She definitely was able to admit it to herself when she asked him to help her
with the fertility treatment. She couldn't picture anyone else the father of
her child, and I think she had come to terms with it, within her own heart.
She could not ignore any feelings any longer, and she knew it.
I saw how much it pained her when he was gone..abducted. And when we found
his desicated corpse out on that land, the desperation and pain and suffering
I witnessed, and sensed, literally broke my heart.
And when he returned…I don't think there is any other way to describe that
other than "miraculous." Her prayers cried out became answered…in a process
which also cemented her faith, in my opinion.
These files…are almost a story. Each file when put in order is a chapter of
their lives. Because their lives were nothing else.
I just wish that I was able to write the final chapter. It just can't end
this way…with Mulder gone again, and both of them with so much pain, and so
much love to share with the other. Scully now so desperately, and visibly
needing him…
"Monica?"
I snapped to attention.
"John. What are you doing back so soon?"
He looked at me suspiciously, and spoke carefully.
"I ran into Scully upstairs. She was speaking with the Assistant Director."
"Was she of any help?"
"Well, I didn't get the chance to talk with her about it. Monica…you better
get up there, before she leaves."
I was a little confused. "What are you talking about? Before who leaves?"
"Scully. She's going to be with Mulder."
"…What?"
I could not believe what I was hearing.
"She can't go." I grabbed my phone, and pushed past Agent Doggett down the
hallway.
"There's nothing you can do, I already talked to her. She's got her mind
set."
The elevator doors opened before me.
"Something's going on. Something about this just doesn't make any sense. Why
John? Why now? I have to talk to her."
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END
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Yeah. So, that's all. Corny, I agree.
I know she (Reyes) most likely doesn't think like that, but I think I'm just
trying to get my own thoughts out.
Reflect, now after the announcement that the show is coming to an end.
Oh well. Review. I'm ready for the flames :)