This is just something little that I want to write about. It's going to be a short story, so don't expect a lot of chapters. This story is based on some things that were going around me, so there are a lot of emotions that have been collecting inside me for some time and the best way to get them out of me is to write about them.

Expect love, occasional lust, angst and drama.

Story is about college girl Bella who ever since high school couldn't find a man who she was very interested into. For the first time after a long period she thinks that this man might be the one who she wants to have a relationship with. Is he really a guy who she wants?

Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer, I don't own a single thing. I just write about her characters on my way.

Hope you'll like it.

BPOV

I always thought that going to college means that we are mature enough to start our own life, without Mom and Dad, go to college and become something or someone. College is time for studying and starting some job or career, but it's also meeting new friends, making new contacts, having relationships, having a lot of wild sex, going to the parties and drinking a lot. And that all depends on what are you majoring in. Maybe not.

But for me, college time is very serious time. I study and make sure to finish year in time, so I would have an extra month for vacation. I live alone in a great apartment that is really close to college. I met a lot of great people but I don't party like hell. Somehow it is not appealing to me. Some call me weird, but I guess that after a thousand of parties that I've been having during high school, I feel kind of tired. But that didn't stop me from meeting new people and having friends.

We go out occasionally and we always have a good time, but I always feel like something is missing. Or someone. A guy. A friend. A boyfriend. That's right, i was always alone, boyfriend less. So you could imagine how it felt for me when I had to hear my two best friends talking and talking about their perfect boyfriends and their mind blowing sex that they have been having.

Don't get me wrong I love my friends, I mean how could I not. I've known Rosalie and Alice whole my life. We were all born in Forks, Washington and ever since we first met we became inseparable. We did everything together. Even enrolled on the same university.

So here I am, on my last year, in the middle of the first semester, sitting in the café with my friends, discussing boys and tests that were about to come.

"I talked to Emmett last night." Rosalie sighed. "Actually it wasn't a talk, it was a fight. I don't think I can do this anymore. I think I'm gonna leave him. He doesn't let me live anymore." She exhaled her smoke, crossed her legs and lowered her eyes down.

Rosalie is beautiful, gorgeous, with longs blond hair and a perfect model body. Always in designer clothes and shoes, manicured nails and perfect make up on her face. When I was around her, no one ever paid any attention to me because of her. But I didn't mind because I knew I was a plane Jane and plus Rosalie was my best friend and I didn't have any reason to envy her.

"Wait, you guys fought again? What the hell is wrong with you two? I know you can't leave now UW, the year has started, but why is he still not here, he is on our year too!" Alice said. She was sitting across from me and Rose, a book for her class in one hand and coffee in other. Alice was short but very energetic. She had short black hair that went in all directions and she as well was dressed in designer clothes from head to toe. We called her our pixie. And we were the only ones allowed.

"Rose I told you before. Emmett is playing with fire without even realizing it. You can't let him do this to you anymore. You barely go out and you've been odd lately. These fights that you guys have are killing you. I don't live with you two but I know that you don't sleep at night because of him." I said looking concerned at Rosalie.

"And since when did you become an expert in relationships, huh? You haven't had a boyfriend in years and not to mention the last time you had some sex!" Rosalie yelled at me.

Her comment took me aback and for a moment I didn't know what to do except stare at her and wander what the fuck was that for.

"Well excuse me Rosalie for meaning well and looking after you. I don't say that Emmett is a bad guy. I'm saying that this stage of your relationship is very bad. You are sad. And I may not be a relationship expert but I am not blind." I raised my voice a little. I don't usually yell but this time I had to make a point.

Rosalie sighed again and looked at me. "I'm sorry Bella, you're right. This is so fucking stupid." She let out a long breath. "He is coming here tomorrow so I'll talk to him when I see him. I guess I don't make my point enough when we talk over the phone." She rolled her eyes.

"Honey you've got to relax. I mean look at me and Jazzy. He studies history, I study fashion and we barely see each other, but we are doing fine. Sure we fight sometimes but that's what make up sex is for." Alice beamed.

"Alice it's easy for you to say. Jasper is always with you, ever since high school. You two are different, your relationship is different. You're all bossy and demanding and he… he is ok with what you say. I don't get it but that's who you are. You can't compare and tell me to relax." Rosalie finished her cigar and took the box to put it in her bag.

Right in that moment the rest of our gang showed up. My stomach was all in knots when I saw his beautiful form slowly approaching us. My mouth became dry, so I took a sip of my water and took my phone and started playing with it, so I would look busy to others. Suddenly I felt very nervious.

"Hey girls, what's up? Skipping classes again? You naughty girls." Sam chuckled. Sam was very good friend of ours, we met him the first day when we came here to UW. He always knew how to make us laugh.

The rest of the group slowly set all around us, so that at the moment there was ten of us sitting in the place that was mean for four persons. Yeah, we always do that.

"Nah, just having a free period." I said still not daring to look at him, although I felt his presence.

"You mean they have a free period," He pointed at Rose and Alice, "you are just with them. Because your class has just ended. I'm just telling because the last time I checked we were having classes together." He chuckled.

"Yeah well… that's what I said." I winked at him.

"Hey Edward, when's Emmett coming?" Ben asked. He was sitting next to me, that was right across from him. Edward. The guy of my dreams. A man who set my body on fire. A guy who I didn't dare to even look at. He was so beautiful. He had a body of a Greek God, perfect sculptured body and an angelic face. His beautiful bronze messy hair with soft locks and piercing green eyes made you drown so deep and made you forget about everything.

"Umm… I'm not sure. He said he had some stuff to do before he gets back here." Ahh that voice. So smooth like velvet. I would never get tired of hearing it. Edward was sitting with his arms on his knees, bended at his elbows, his head down and his hands in his hair. He look tired, but even like that he look mouthwatering to me.

In that moment he looked at Ben then at me. He held my gaze for a moment and then let go. We weren't best of friends but we had a nice friendship. In the second semester of my third year he started showing some interests in me and ever since then I couldn't stop thinking about him. He was flirting with me but at first I thought that he was just joking with me, but later I saw that he was serious. Edward Cullen, every girls wet dream was interested in me.

But when I realized that, it was late because the year was over. And I didn't see him again until the fourth year started. We stayed somehow in touch during the spring break and once he even invited me for some drinks but that never happened. After all why would someone like him be interested in someone like me. It made no sense.

"Hey Bella, we were all talking about going out this Friday, wonna come with us? You can bring some hot friend of yours, you know for me?" Ben chuckled. He was really a good guy, I liked being in his presence. He was handsome, with short black hair and blue eyes. He was wearing glasses but they looked hot on him. They made his personality and that didn't stop him from having girls all around him. Yeah, I was in a group full of gigolos. Ahh my luck.

"Yeah Bella you should come. We should all go. We could go first to some restaurant and then to some club. I'll do the reservations. It'll be cool, plus Emmett will be with us. I know that Mom is sick of having him at home." Edward chuckled.

"Sure I'll go. Rose and Alice as well. I'll see what I can do for you Ben. What kind of girl are you looking for?" I smiled at him.

"Dunno", he shrugged his shoulders, "It depends on my mood for the night. Some hot and interesting chick so I could have fun with her. You choose, you'll know her when you see her." He winked.

We spent the next couple of hours talking and laughing and making deals for the Friday night. I wanted to go out with them and I looked forward for having to spend more time with Edward.

"Oh Edward, oh my God I am so happy to see you here. Come on make some room so I could sit next to my Edward!"

Jessica. That bitch.

What do you think is going to happen next? Will they get to go out? Leave me some love.

*IMPORTANT* Story "Mending two broken hearts" is put ON HOLD until December. Simply now I can't write about it.

I will add some more outtakes for "Choosing between love and lust". Don't ask me when, it will be when I feel like it.

Ok, so will anyone read this? If you do please tell me what you think and if you like it.

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