WHOA. My First Real FanFic Story. Motivation? I new found obsession for The Maximum Ride novels and utter admiration of Nudge and Iggy as a couple. I've noticed the lack of stories for them two as romance, and decided out of boredom I'd contribute. Its my first, so critisim is very much welcome I guess. Summary I practically Nudge realizing she loves Iggy, but its not that easy. She's going to have to find herself, and try things out, before she realizes whats best and if the pain is worth it. (:

Disclaimer: I take no credit for the creation of these characters, though the writing is right fully mine and I refuse to give credit.(:

Me No Owny. You No Suey. Get It? Got It? GEWD. 3

CHAPTER ONE : Stuck

I'm stuck, somewhat confused, and a little torn. Why? 'Cause I can't quite put my finger on when this started, or how for that matter. When I began getting these feelings, the rush of flying figures turning my insides and tickling my bones. The drumming beats of my heart always ran faster when he was close. It was never like this, he was my brother. Maybe not by blood but by spirit, but its not like ignoring all the side effects was a possibility. Not at all.

My attempts to forget everything that was happening, for my mind to overrule my heart. But I just couldn't help the fact that his smile painted me red. Bright and perfect, slanted a bit, and so sincere. Even on my darkest days, half smiles from him could light it all up. Not to mention eyes, his eyes, like the ocean, calm and never ending. Holding a world pool of emotions he never seemed to reveal. But hes like my brother, as Max would say. He probably doesn't even see me like that, not that he could see at all.

I guess thats what really adds to it. Being in love, I mean liking, a blind guy. I mean, they can't even see you, yet they can love you. Thats how you know, its not cause your beautiful or 'hot' but because whats inside. I loved everything about Iggy, the face he made where his eyebrow slants low and he half smiles. When he knows hes right, when he stretches his words as he lies. Everything. But it wasn't real, it wouldn't be, it couldn't be, its not. He could never love 'little Nudge'.

"Errm, Nudge is that you?" A voice called out, feet tapping on the stairs making their way to the kitchen. I quickly snapped out of my trance, and wore a look of utter boredom.

"Oh, hey Iggy, yea its me." I replied. He smiled, that smile I adored oh so deeply sending shivers down my backside.

"Ok, well I'm kinda' bored hmm. I might go somewhere with Ella today." He said, reaching into the cabinet for any trace of food he could find. his hands searching about.

Ella. Ella? Max's sister, she seemed nice. I would of been quite the fan if I hadn't notice her obsession with my Iggy. My Iggy...that has a ring to it. ANYWAY. He'd be going out, with Ella? Did he like her? Not that I care, I mean, shes very pretty. Though, he can't see her. God, he likes her and he can't see her! Wait, who said he liked her? They're just, going out, for fun, as friends, yea yea yea thats it.

"Earth to Nudge." Iggy let out, loosely bopping his fingers in her face, "Is anybody in there"

I quickly jumped from my chattering conscience, and stared at him. "Ella. Oh, were are you going...?" I asked curiously, hoping he wouldn't respond with "Moonlight dinner then walk on the beach."

"Not sure, I'll have to ask her. Hey, you wanna' come?" Iggy asked me with such a genuine voice, almost anxious. But I COULD NOT seem desperate. As much as I longed to dance around and scream DUH! I knew it would only make me less attractive. Not that an 17 year old would be attracted to a 14 year old.

"Now Iggs, I wouldn't want to be a third wheel" I simply replied, wondering if I had ruined any chance of spending time with him. But even if I did get time with the blue eyed blind pyro, I did not want Ella there.

He shrugged his shoulders and showed a sign of disappointment when he left the kitchen, "Suit yourself." He choked out as he left. A part of me died, had I let him down? DID HE WANT ME THERE! God, maybe he did. Maybe he couldn't stand having to be with Ella all by himself so she could suck him into her black whole of love that he doesn't want because he loves me! Not that I would want him too, just a hunch. Just looking out for a friend...

Well there it goes Dolls. Love It, Hate It, REVIEW IT. 3

It wasn't much I'm sure, but more to come I hope. TahTah For Now Loves.

~*Paint_Em_Red*~