This was just something I threw together last second. Oneshot. R&R please
All I ever wanted to do was love him. It took me 4 times to figure out that he was the guy for me. 4 times over a year span. 4 times of passion and fights. I was the one who ended it the last time; I was the one who threw it all away. I sat on my bed thinking it over when Collins called me.
"Mimi, do you still like Roger?" stupid question, I love Roger.
"I like him still yes." I wasn't about to tell him that I still loved Roger though.
"Well he said he still loves you." Then Collins hung up knowing I would want to be left alone to think about it.
Collins words cut me deep and I didn't know weather or not he was telling the truth. But one day I decided to give it a shot. So I walked up to Roger.
"Hey why are you being an ass to me. All I'm trying to do is be nice…concerting." He looked at me.
"It's hard to be your friend." His words were like knives stabbing at me.
"Why?"
"Last time you really hurt me, more than you can ever imagine." His eyes were filled with hurt. This made me feel like shit.
"I'll be back in a minute" Then I walked across the street where angel was waiting for me. I ran into her arms crying.
"It's okay honey." She stroked my hair. I thanked her and walked back across the street.
"Roger, why is it hard to be friends with me? I mean if you still love me then…"
"Its hard because you left me when I needed you the most. I love you Mimi but I can't do this again its just to painful." He stood up and grabbed my hands. "I do love you, but this will not work again."
"Why not? I've changed and you know that." I was fighting back the tears. I looked at him and nodded my head. I couldn't even say okay it was that bad. I walked away after he gave me a hug.
"What's wrong?" I told Collins the story, and he nodded from time to time and waited until I was finished to speak.
"Honey you know that he is an asshole, if he was always that way what makes you think that he has changed?" He said.
"I don't know, I just can't let go that easily."
"I understand that but the best thing you can do right now is just forget him." He sighed again.
"I know but you don't understand I can't do that right now it just hurts and I don't know what to do about it. I've never been that hurt in my life. I just bared my heart and soul and what did he do? He said he couldn't do it again because he doesn't want to get hurt. How lame is that?" I knew I was getting worked up about it but the truth was I really did love him but I didn't know how to tell him that. It was just to difficult for me to process.
"Mimi I really do understand this but the best thing you can do is let go. That's all there is to do right now. Just let it go its in the past."
"I know this but it..I ..just cant deal with it right now." I got up and walked away.
Life sucks