A one-shot from Kyle's perspective.
A Question to Stan
Do you know that I silently watch you?
Whenever we're at school, I watch you.
Whenever you walk home, I watch you.
Whenever you go out, I watch you, but then I find that I can't anymore when I suddenly realize, you're not mine to watch.
Don't you know that my heart breaks into a million shattered pieces whenever I see you? No, of course you don't. You can't comprehend my feelings anymore, for their not yours to understand. You have no care to understand. Why would you?
I know it's unintentional, I know that you might never know until I come out and tell you someday, but you're slowly killing me inside. Every time I wake up in the morning, my heart floods with wretchedness at having to complete the day silently watching over you-- like I do most days now.
Everyday, when I come home from school, I stare within the glassy clearness of my mirror, mutely wishing that my hair wasn't red and that it was as black as a raven's feathers, as black as the night itself so that you would finally realize that…I'm there too.
Sadly, the world doesn't work that way-- it wouldn't stop for one second to even consider my deserted heart.
It hurts me so much now to watch you listlessly across the cafeteria room, your eyes wide and bright with merriment while that mass of black hair sits next to you, laughing along as if they knew you. At one time, I knew more than that. I knew more than they could ever know.
Abandonment is something that no one should face, especially with a broken heart to accompany it. The pain is excruciating, the swell of tears frustrating and numbing.
But I guess it can't be helped, Stan. Nothing can be helped now, for you have already made your decision; you had made it long ago.
For a countless number of times, I have watched your hand entangle with hers, watched how your fingers laced together until they became a tangled heap of peach colored digits. And all the while, I kept on wondering-- why couldn't it be me instead of Wendy?
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I like writing one-shots, you can easily get them done.