This story starts from when Rufus gets home to the loft, after totally giving Lily THE LOOK when he turned up at her apartment and she was wearing THAT BLACK DRESS. He Is a guy so I cant blame him, and plus Lily was looking (in the TRUE words of Rufus) "whoahhhhh"
Rufus placed his keys on the side as he and Jenny entered the Loft, he could hear his son moving around in his bedroom, and he was aware that Jenny was mumbling something to him about her work, and usually he would feel bad for not paying attention to his kids but tonight was different. He had a blinding headache, couldnt focus on the simplest of things, and all he could think of was Lily and how amazing she has looked that night, infact he was finding it hard to erase the images of that dress out of his head! Rufus rubbed him temples and closed his eyes as the noises around him started to make his head throb
Jenny - " Dadddddd?" Jenny asked, suddenly irritated by the fact he was, and had been ignoring her since they left the upper east side
Rufus - " Um?" he asked, squinting his eyes at her
Jenny - " Why are you looking at me like that?"
Rufus - " I have a headache" he said walking towards the kitchen pulling out his welcome back kotter mug, filling it with water and popping some asprin in a few swift motions
Jenny - " Since when did you start getting headaches?"
Rufus - " Um maybe around the time my only daughter started causing me grief"
Jenny - " You had those grey hairs long before I started cutting school dad" she said grinning at him before picking up one of her fashion magazines from the side of the counter " You've been really quite and weird since we left Lily's, are you ok?"
Rufus - " Yeah of corse I am, It's just been a tiring day thats all, I'm sure a goods night sleep will sort me out"
Jenny - " Your tired? You spent the day watching me and a room full of people working like crazy, how can you be tired?" she asked laughing at him, Rufus gave her a half hearted smile before rubbing his temples again "It was kinda cool that Lily had my dress on, I mean I know I made that for Serena to wear but Lily always wears amazing clothes and she loved my dress, thats gotta be a good thing right?" she asked, not giving Rufus time to answer before she started talking again very fast, "Besides she looked amazing...In my dress...Myyyyy dress, and If someone like Lily loves my designs then who knows who else will, plus word of mouth is very important, all Lily would have to do is tell a few people at some event she's at about my designs, plus when Serena wears It the press will see her...as they always do of corse, and then those pictures could reach someone...like someone important... what do you think dad?... dadddddd?"
Rufus looked up at jennys questioning face, he was unsure what she was enquiring about but he did remember hearing her mention Lily looking great in her dress, infact that was the moment his mind had wandered...
Rufus - " Yeah Lily looked fantastic"
Jenny - " I was actually asking what you thought about my designs being out there, but It's nice for any kind of response of you I guess"
Rufus - " I'm sorry honey I'm just really tired, ummmm I'm going to have a lie down, work of this headache, then tomorrow I want to hear all about it ok?
Jenny - " sure dad, see you In the morning" she said, looking confused at her father as he left the room
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Lily gave herself one last look In the mirror, running her hands down the side of her dress before slowly starting to unzip it. She stopped In her tracks as she heard the sound of the elevator open, she quickly zipped her dress back up and made her way out of the room, feeling a strange sense of dejavoo at the sight of Rufus
Lily -"Rufus, what are you doing here? Did Jenny forget something?" She asked quickly and directly, trying to mask the excitement in her voice of seeing him
Rufus - " Thats what I told the door man downstairs at least" he muttered, smiling at her nervously
The room fell silent as they locked eyes
Lily - " Rufus...What are you doing here?" she reapted with a playfull tone this time, placing his hands on her hips raising her eyes at him
Rufus - " Honestly? I'm not sure"
They fell into silence again as Rufus walked over to lily, she took her arms from her hips and folded them across her chest asif defending herself from Rufus
Lily - " Do you want a drink? Bart has about 6 different types of whiskey and that brand of scotch we use to drink, Premium liquor"
Rufus - " I dont want a drink Lily" he said taking another step closer to her, causing Lily to take a step back to create some distance between them
Lily - " Then what do you want?" She asked camly, sighing as Rufus looked away unable to give her an answer "Your going to have to help me Rufus" she said coldly starting to get annoyed
Rufus - " Help you with what?"
Lily - " You turn up tonight at my apartment unannounced with your daughter, you leave, then around 30 minutes later you turn up again with no explanation whatsoever, for the last time Rufus" she paused sighing heavily "What are you doing here?"
Rufus - "Maybe I umm ... I"
Lily - "You should leave" She commanded
Rufus - "I know I should"
The room fell into silence once again as Rufus gave her an intense glare, Lily trying hard not to fall into the deep pools of his eyes yet again, they both knew that they should not be having this conversation, or even sharing a moment like this again, but no matter how hard they tried to fight It they found themselves stood across from each other In the most vulnerable way
Rufus- " I was at home" he started, closing his eyes and rubbing his temples again "And all I could think of was you Lily, after seeing you tonight In that dress, how amazing you looked It drove me crazy... Yoooouuuu continue to drive me crazy" he said, attempting a small smirk at her, Lily looking shocked at his honest declaration "I couldnt get YOU or that dress out of my head, from the moment I left this building I just wanted to turn around and leave Jenny somwhere and come back here to be with you"
Lily - "Leave Jenny somewhere?" She asked pouting at him "Thats hardly responsible is it?"
Rufus - " Maybe I'm sick of always trying to do the right thing" he said, causing Lily to break eye contact with him walking towards the kitchen, she quickly poured herself and Rufus a drink, downing her whiskey In one swift gulp before turning to Rufus again
Lily - "So you decided to turn back?" she asked passing him his drink
Rufus - " I had too"
Lily - " And now that your here?" she asked curiously, watching him as he finished his drink placing his glass down on the table
Rufus- " Now that Im here ... I dont think I can bring myself to leave"
lily walked away, breathing heavily running her hands through her hair, she turned to look at him quickly pleading with her eyes
Lily - "Rufus you have to leave, I mean it...GO NOW" she shouted the last part, feeling very desperate In this moment
Rufus - "Lily" he said walking up to her, emotion etched all over his face
Lily - "what Rufus?"
Tears formed in her eyes, she shook her head back trying to stop Rufus from seeing how close she was to crying, as she raised her hands to rub the tears from her eyes, Rufus grabbed her forcefully, holding onto her arms so she couldnt move away from him
Rufus - "Tell me to leave" Lily starts to mutter the words, Rufus pulling her closer to him so that they are almost touching "Just tell me to leave, look me In the eye and say It like you mean it, and I will head out this door and you never have to see me again" Lily shook her head violently as he said this
Lily - "I dont want that Rufus, I dont want to not have you in my life ... I cant do that"
Rufus - " I cant bear to see you with Bart, I cant pretend that It dosent kill me to not be able to touch you, or pretend that Im fully satisfied with us being friends Lily. I dont know, you might be, but Im not... because everytime I saw you I would feel like I was losing you again"
Lily - " Rufus please..." she pleaded as rufus ran his hands up her arms resting them on her face, he stroked her cheeks gently resting his forhead on hers "I cant do this"
Rufus - " You can do anything you want Lily"
Lily - "I cant"
Rufus - " Are you telling me you dont want this?" he asked cupping her chin in his hand lifting her face to stare at him
Lily - " I didnt say that, I just think..."
Rufus - " You know what our problem is Lil, we over think, we need to be spontaneous, let fate decide"
Lily - " fate? You think all of this is fate?" She asked laughing sarcastically at him
Rufus - " 20 years Lily, 20 years and I feel the same now as I did then, running into each other any chance we get, constantly finding reasons to be close to each other...Why fight this?"
Rufus moved his lips closer to her kissing her lips gently, lily cried out in response crumbling underneath him. He started leaving quick kisses on her face,
letting his hands run down her side resting them on her hips pulling her closer to him. The heat picked up quickly as Lily grabbed the back of his head allowing her to intensify the kiss, she brought her leg up wrapping it around his body as Rufus wrapped his arms around her frame. Their passionate kisses turned into short intense ones as they locked eyes and smiled at each other, Rufus let his eyes travel down her body... at how her body looked In THAT DRESS
Lily - "Like what you see?" she asked seductively
Rufus - " You know I do, theres only one thing I would like to see more" he commented, biting his lip staring down at the slit at the front of her dress. He kissed her with force, he slowly took his hands to the top of her dress starting to lower the fabric exposing her naked flesh. He took his eyes away from Lily and once again let them rest on her body, he sighed heavily as he let her dress fall of her shoulders, gradually lowering it so that her breasts were almost exposed to him, Lily grabbed his hands helping him pull her dress down, he bit his lip as the fabric was about to fall completely of her slim frame.
Rufus was suddenly pulled from his thoughts as he heard the voice of his daughter appear around him
Jenny - "Dad...Dad?" Jenny shouted, causing the image of Lily to disapear and Rufus to awake from his dream, Rufus jerked up, confused at where he was, It took him a few moments to realise where he was, and to register that his fantasty experience with Lily was EXECTLY that... a fantasy.
Jenny - " Dad, I was just checking to see If you were alright, you were mumbling like crazy, where you having a dream?"
Rufus laughed gently, running his hands through his hair, shifting up on the bed smiling at his daughter
Rufus - "One hell of a dream"
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