I unfortunately do not own glee

I put the packet of tablets down and looked in what everyone perceived was my jewelry box. Really it was filled with different types of tablets, none of them were prescribed. Weight loss tablets, tablets to get me high and one to bring me down, ones that will help me sleep and ones that will stop me feeling sick when I've starved myself too long. I was medicated Up to my eyeballs and no-one knew, I was broken beyond repair, and no-one saw. I stood in front of my mirror with my matching green bra and panties and could cry at the sight of myself, I was fat, ugly. I walked into the bathroom and stepped onto the scales, the same weight as yesterday, the same fat, disgusting person. I grabbed some more tablets and shoved them in my mouth and slid onto the cold floor of my bathroom, tears sliding down my face, my hair getting dyed by the mascara running down my face. I looked up and caught sight of my green eyes and the cheerios uniform that hung above my head, before I pulled my knees Up to my chest and put my head into my hands and cried myself to sleep. Again.

I skipped into the bathroom as I unzipped my cheerios uniform and pulled it off me, throwing it over the side of the bath as I went to stand on the scales, seeing the number I frowned slightly, I'd only eaten clear gummy bears that day because you can see through them so I knew they didn't have any calories, otherwise I would have seen them, and I thought that sex was suppose to burn calories, or at lest that's what I heard Quinn saying once. So shouldn't I have lost weight compared to yesterday? I mean that's all me and San had been doing since we got back from school. Oh well, I though and skipped back out of the bathroom bending down to stroke Lord Tubbington on my way out. I jumped on my bed and pulled my cell phone out from the lining of my panties and tapped out a quick txt and sent it to San.

I thought you said sex would make me loose weight? I just weighed myself and I'm still the same, what did I do wrong? :( xxxx

My phone buzzed just after I put it down, I picked it up and flipped it open

It does! We will just have to go at it longer tomorrow for it to work :) xxxxx

Oh , OK I smiled to myself and closed my phone, then I picked out some pajamas with teddy bears on and got into bed

I was exhausted. I had been with Britt since we got back from school and we had cheerios practice for 3 hours instead of 2 today because coach Sylvester doesn't think we are working hard enough. I hadn't eaten in the last two days and I was feeling it now. I was tired and weak and I had a headache like a mother... Not to mention the spot that I got! I was not happy about that, but still I can just blast it with my 4 different spot treatments later. I better have lost something in the last two days, this all better be worth it I thought as I walked towards my bathroom. I felt slightly nervous as I stepped up to my scales, I hated seeing the numbers , knowing I wasn't fat but feeling huge at the same time. I closed my eyes as I stepped on and opened them just as the scale had settled, I had that timed to a T. 'Yes!' I whispered as I saw that I had lost 2 Pounds in the last two days. I whipped out my phone and txt my diet buddies

Hell yeasss biotches guess who lost 2 pounds in the last two days , oh yeah ;) xxx

I stirred and wiped the mascara out of my blurred vision, not caring if it streaked into my blond hair as I sleepily reached out to pull my phone out of my discarded jeans on the floor. I opened a text from San that set me of crying again. Why was it so easy for everyone else?

My pillow vibrated and I automatically pulled my phone out, being careful not to wake Lord Tubbington as I moved. I read the text and typed out a quick congrats before putting my phone back and falling asleep again.