Faded memories

I do not own Percy Jackson and the Olympians and so was the Heroes of Olympus series

Chapter 1: Memories and the Decision

Percy POV

Here I am sitting next to the bank of the River of Lethe watching dark river churned through a gorge of volcanic rock while contemplating what had I been doing here in the first place.

Many things happen and fortunately I manage to survive together with my friends. When I was twelve I discovered that I was a half-blood and was being accused as the lightning thief. If you come to think of it, it was kind of a funny because they accused me of stealing the lightning bolt when I myself didn't have a clue that the gods where real and existing.

Then I continued my thoughts onto my adventures. Saving Grover and finding the missing Golden Fleece on an island in the sea of monsters together with Tyson, Annabeth and Clarisse. That was one of the best memories that I had because it cause us to bring Thalia back to life. Then again bringing my cousin back to life gave us another problem but we solve it anyway.

Thalia remembering my favorite cousin brings back the memories of our quest to save the goddess of the moon. That was a very tragic quest, yeah we fulfilled the quest yet we gain too much casualties. On the quest to save Lady Artemis we lost two of our friends Zoe the lieutenant of the hunters and so was the daughter of Atlas, Zoe didn't trust men from the beginning but then before she died she told me that I was different from Hercules and she was glad that I carry the sword that she had made and I believe she considered me as a friend before she died. Then Bianca we lost Bianca Di Angelo Nico's older sister, thinking of her again makes me feel guilty. It was my fault that she had died but then again she told me or maybe Nico that it was her choice and it wasn't my fault that she died.

When Bianca died, Nico hated me and he seeks a way to bring her back to life and we encountered him on Annabeth's quest at the Daedalus labyrinth. That quest is also a tragic one, we lost some campers, friends and we almost lost our camp too.

Then after that we fought the battle in Manhattan to defend Olympus against Kronos, where we lost a lot of our friends discover betrayals, redemption and sacrifices. We lost a lot but we also gain a lot we defended our city, our home, we gain the respect of our parents and get them to acknowledge us and their future children's.

I smiled at that thought. I never thought that I would survive the second titan war but here I am sitting on the bank of the River of Lethe thinking of my past and all the good and bad things that happen to me and also the reason why I'm here right now.

I continue my train of thoughts, when Hera stole my memories and send me to the wolf house, meeting hazel and frank on camp Jupiter, our journey to Alaska to free the god of death Thanatos. Hazel and Frank fought the giant name Alcyoneus and when we came back to the new Rome he fought Polybotes.

Spoilers alert!

On the next day the Argo II came, carrying Annabeth, Leo, Piper and Jason, at first the Meeting was getting good but then a big misunderstanding begun when Leo got possessed by an eidolon and attach the roman camp. Then Annabeth, Leo, Piper, Jason, Frank, Hazel, Coach Hedge and I were force to travel to Rome, where we encountered the titan Phorcys and his sister Keto at Georgia aquarium in Atlanta. Then we encountered the Shrimpzilla that Keto sends after us, then Hercules but come to think of it I never really had the chance to talk to him because Jason and Piper where the ones who were chosen by our group to talk to Hercules to allow them to pass the Mediterranean. Then we meet and fought the golden boy my half-brother Chrysaor son of Poseidon and Medusa and the brother of the Pegasus. Then we arrive at Rome where Annabeth do her own quest to follow the Mark of Athena, and Hazel, Frank and Leo to search for Nico and Piper, Jason and I faced the nymphs underground were we almost drowned but Piper had this idea of us using the cornucopia and create a clean water which cause the nymphs to be free from the grounds of Rome. Then we faced the twin giants Otis and Ephialtes the bane of Dionysius or Bacchus what so ever.. uhmm whats more? Hmm oh yeah we found Nico there and then we defeated the giants with the help of Leo, Frank, Hazel, Coach Hedge and our Argo II and also Bacchus. Then we looked for Annatbeth and then we secure the Athena Parthenos but Annabeth and I had fallen into the Tratarus.

End of Spoiler alert!

Then after that Annabeth and I had to travel down in Tartarus to look for the doors of Death and close it in the inside while our other friend close the door on the outside. Tartarus was really a dangerous place and I swear I never ever want to go back down on it. Once we had closed the doors of death, Hades and the other gods help Annabeth and I to get out of Tartarus. We defeated the other giants and Huazaahhhh! we save the world again.

I smiled again thinking of our adventures and quest that saved the world. Then my thoughts drifted onto Annabeth my ex-girlfriend. After the giant war Annabeth and I became inseparable because of the nightmares that she constantly had the cause was our travel inside the Tartarus she beg Chiron to allow her to sleep with me in my cabin at first the Chiron didn't allow it but because Annabeth hadn't gain any sleep after the giant war he consulted the gods and the gods took pity on us and allow Annabeth to stay with me in my cabin together with a warning from Athena to not touch her daughter in any way a hormonial mind could think of which I gladly agreed to.

Annabeth nightmares gradually subside and she came back to her normal demigod life. But then that's when my world turns upside down. The conflict between the Romans and the Greeks are now gone but we still feel that we didn't belong in the other camp and decided to stay in our side of the camp and so was the Romans. After we graduated high school Annabeth decided to confront me about something and I still remember everything that we had talked about.

Flash back

I was walking Annabeth back at her dormitory, holding her hand enjoying the comfortable silence that we share then when we came to our destination she turn around and faced me slipping her hand out of mine in the process. Her face was deadly serious her gray eyes are getting a little darker that it was before, her lips were on a tin line. I was totally confused on the change of the atmosphere, a chill run down my spine, I felt the hairs on my neck standing and my hands are getting sweaty.

Annabeth makes me nervous the way she looked at me with determination makes me think that something was about to happen. I wasn't feeling comfortable in her intense stare and I was determined to lighten up the mood but the only thing that I can blurt out was a

"Uhh.."

Then Annabeth started to talk "Percy we had to discuss something"

Then I said "What is it?"

She bit the lower lip as if she was thinking hard if she should continue what she was about to say or just forget it but then a flash of determination was there again on her gray orbs then she said "do you remember that after the war against the giants I had my constant nightmares of our time inside the tartarus?"

Then I said "does it come back I thought they were finally gone? "

She shook her head and said "No, the nightmares are already gone but I realize something Percy"

Confusion was already shown in my face then I asked her "what is it then?"

Her hands are trembling but her eyes still shows her determination "Percy I realized that after the war I became so dependent on you"

I was more confused now so I asked her "Is there something wrong with that Annabeth?"

Then she yelled at me "Yes there is!" I was taken aback by the outburst so I step back and as she me see stepping away from her she bit her lower lip then said "Sorry it's just that I don't want it" I just nodded my head then she sighed and continued "I don't want to be dependent on you Percy it just wasn't me!" she waved her hand as in an exaggerated way then said "I need to bring myself back Percy"

And I being me just nodded my head then she said "Percy can you do me a favor?"

Me having no clue at all said "yeah sure"

She smiled but her eyes are misty then she said "Percy lets break up" after she said those words my world shattered but I pulled all the courage that I had then said my voice trembling "Why?"

She then said "I need my old self back Percy but I can never get my old self back if I'm with you, If were together"

I swallowed hard trying not to cry but my voice failed me while I say "Why do we have to break up if you need space I can give you space we didn't need to break up Annabeth please"

Annabeth was crying now she shakes her head "No Percy please I need these, I need to bring myself back this isn't me!, I'm not this weak I need to bring myself back, I need these, we need these Percy"

Seeing her cry breaks my heart did I really change her to a person that she wasn't, was it my fault that she became this fragile this vulnerable by lips are trembling but she needs this and I had to give it to her because I love her so I nodded and said "okay Annabeth if that's what you want"

But then after I said those words a flash of regret shown in her eyes then I said "I should leave now" I try to force a smile but I can't so I just turn around and run to my mom's house.

End of flash back

It's been a month since our break-up, she never contacted me since then. I tried to distract myself so hard I tried to do some sports heck I even tried to read books and that's really something to say if you were a demigod with dyslexia and ADHD but I failed. It really hurts to not see her or talk to her it was like a half of me was gone. I never had gotten a sleep since then because every time I try I always end's up having a nightmare.

And I'm so sick of it my nightmares are not helping at all, I always dream of those who had died and sacrificed their lives on the two wars and then the tortures, the fights and pain of facing the monsters so here I am standing on the bank of the River of Lethe my one way trip to a peaceful life away from the nightmares and heart ache of my break up with Annabeth.

I smiled bitterly as I walk in the middle of the river still not allowing myself to get wet then the last words before allowing myself to sink and get wet was "Annabeth you really are my mortal anchor and without you I am broken, I hope you forgive me because I need this just as much as you need to be away from me" then the darkness overcomes me.

A/N oh I know you guys hate me for not updating the what you've been missing but really I had finished the chapter fifteen of it but when I had read the mark of Athena book I was kind of a thrown off and disappointed on my work so I deleted it I'm trying to start the chapter fifteen again but then this story just pops on my head and I really have to write it so yeah how was it? Oh and sorry for the spoilers part.