A/N I have a friend that is so seriously depressed that she has been cutting herself with a razor. She is getting help because I told the school counselor...but its not helping her. The cuts are getting deeper and she is starving herself. this has made me look at life differently and has made me more appreciative of what a great life I have. So I have included some real life situations in this part. It may be a little depressing towards the middle..but its something that people deal with every day of their lives and I felt it needed to be addressed. This series has nothing to do with my other series....it just has the same characters. This is set in their 5th year at Hogwarts. Don't worry...its not ALL Serious...its also funny and mushy at parts lol.Oh and one more thing. Angel, a new character that will be introduced, is based on my friend that I just wrote about. She is my angel...hence the name...
She walked in and saw a girl sitting there, a razor in her hand, tears streaming down her cheeks, and blood pouring out of self inflicted gashes on her arms.
Lily recognized the girl as Angel Hart...she bunked with Lily at Hogwarts...they had never been good friends...but they talked sometimes.
Angel looked up, terrified, and she hid her arms and flushed the razor down the toilet.
"Please don't tell no-one. Please!" she whispered desperatly.
"Angel, why?" Lily asked in alarm.
"It makes me feel better. It takes away my pain." Angel said softly, not bothering to clean up the blood that was dripping onto the floor.
"Oh Angel! Don't do this. How can that make you feel better? Its just hurting yourself." Lily exclaimed, tears in her eyes at the pathetic sight.
"You don't understand. No one does." Angel muttered, grabbing tissues and cleaning up her "mess."
"Please. Let me help you. You can't keep doing this!" Lily said watching the girl sadly.
"I don't need no help. It isn't like I'm gonna to die or nothing." Angel said in a low voice.
"Not yet anyway. My...my best friend in grade school did this to herself and the depression got so bad that she...killed herself. And I can't let that happen to you." Lily said, tears now running down her face like rapidly flowing streams.
Just then, Amy walked in, saw the mess, saw Angel with her bleeding arms, and she gasped in horror.
"Oh Angel!" she exclaimed. "You can't keep doing this!"
"It doesn't hurt." Angel protested weakly.
"Is there something wrong at home thats making you do this?" Amy asked her softly.
"My mum. She tells me I'm useless and I'm fat every chance she gets. Doing this is the only way I can make myself feel better. I never cut too deep anyways. So whats the big deal?" she said, growing defensive.
"The big deal is. People kill themselves all the time...the depression gets so bad. It takes over and they die." Lily sobbed thinking of her best friend that had died.
"I'm not gonna die so don't worry about it." Angel said softly, stopping the bleeding by putting bandages on them.
"Thats exactly what she said. I was stupid enough to believe her, and in the end...everything I had said didn't matter. She did it anyway." Lily said sadly.
"I'm getting better though! I only do it once a week now. I used to do it every day." Angel protested, worried that they would go and tell someone.
"Angel..." Amy trailed off.
"I promise I'll stop if you don't tell no-one. Promise me?" Angel asked them pleadingly.
"Ok, but we're gonna stick around and help you out ok?" Amy said firmly.
"Ok, I think I can handle two new friends." Angel said with a weak grin.
I How could someone do that to themselves? I can't even begin to imagine...I Lily thought, looking at Angel.
Angel was a pretty girl with beautiful long, layered chocolate brown hair that curled right at the ends. She had beautiful brown eyes and long eyelashes that framed them. She had the perfect complexion and she was thin...so why was she doing this? She had tons of friends and had never had any trouble getting a boyfriend.
I They can't even begin to imagine what I'm going through. I'm ugly, I'm fat, and thats all I ever hear from my mum. Why do all of my friends say that I am pretty and thin? If my mom says so so much...then it has to be true.I Angel thought, looking down at her cuts.
"Angel, I'm going to fix these for you...you can't let these leave scars." Amy said softly.
Then she performed a charm that healed all of the cuts she had made, and you couldn't even tell that they had been there.
"Thanks...Amy?" Angel said, not sure if Amy was her name.
"Yep, I'm Amy and thats Lily." Amy replied with a smile.
"We're going to head back to our compartment...do you want to come sit with us?" Lily asked the girl.
"Sure." Angel said and she stood up and followed Lily to their compartment.
She sat down and began to think: I Why are they so worried? Its not like I cut myself that deep. And they always heal. So whats wrong with it?
"Hey, James, this is Angel Hart....she's in my dorm and she was unfortunate enough to have been woken up early by you on SEVERAL occassions last year." Amy said with a grin, presenting her to the group.
"Hey Angel." James said with a smile.
"Hiya Angel." Sirius grinned at her. "Man she's a hot one." he said a little too loudly.
"'ello Angel." Remus said softly.
"Hi everyone." Angel said with a grin. One of her many FORCED grins.
Lily plopped down on James' lap and told Angel to sit down on the chair that Lily had just gotten up from.
So Angel walked over and made her self comfortable. She dangled her legs over the side of the chairs and leaned her head back on the other arm rest.
"I wish we had a radio or something to listen to." Angel said in a bored voice.
"I know! I wish cd players worked in Hogwarts...I would have brought mine." Lily sighed.
Angel and Lily looked up and saw that the others were looking at them strangely.
"A cd player is a contraption that you put a disk into and it plays music." Lily explained.
But, seeing the STILL confused look on their faces, Angel and Lily burst into giggles.
(A/N some of you might not know that when you are depressed, the littlest thing can make you happy, and the littlest thing can make you sad. So thats why she went from sad to giggly so quickly. Its just how it goes.)
Finally, they pulled up into the Hogsmeade Station and they were able to get onto the carriages that took them to Hogwarts.
When they got there, Lily, Angel, and Amy all walked up to the Gryffindor girls' dorms and began to put away their things.
"It really stunk that I couldn't use magic over the summer because I live with muggles." Lily complained.
"Oh, I know! I had to do MUGGLE cleaning." Amy said, wincing as if even the THOUGHT of muggle cleaning made her hurt.
"I had to do painting with my HANDS." Angel put in.
They all giggled at the stupidity of the conversation.
"So, Angel, what did you do this summer?" Lily asked, changing the subject.
Suddenly, Angel's expression grew dark and she became silent.
"I did a lot of work that a daughter shouldn't have to do, and I was constantly being told that I was ugly and that I am fat and that I'm worthless. So all in all I had a great summer. How about you?" she said bitterly.
"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to make you angry." Lily said softly.
"It's not your fault. I just hate my life and I wish I could end it right now." Angel replied in a dull voice.
"Don't say that! Thats whats making you...cut yourself. You can't think like that ok? Please TRY and help yourself." Amy pleaded.
"Whats the use? Just when I start to feel better, I have to go back with my mother for the holidays and it starts all over again. I just don't know if I want to be here anymore." Angel said in a choked whisper.
"What does your mother do?" Lily asked tentatively.
"She hits me and tells me how stupid, fat, ugly, and worthless I am every chance she gets. She gets drunk all the time and I have to clean up her "messes." What do I have going for me? Who would really care if I died?" Angel asked, looking up at Lily.
"We would care." Lily and Amy said at the same time.
"I know YOU would but...I just wish I had a mum or a da who really loved me. My entire life sucks and all the friends I have had have left because they found out about my mum." Angel said as the tears she had been holding back poured out.
Just then, bubbly Virginia (Gin) Belmont walked in. She had frizzy blonde hair and light brown eyes, a fair complexion...and she was quite pretty. She was quite a tomboy and was friends with everyone.
" 'Ello everyone. 'Ow are yous doin?" she asked in her broken english accent.
"Just fine and you?" Amy said quickly pasting a smile on her face.
"I'm doin jus' peachy. I already threw a couple o' dung bombs in tha Slyth'rins dorms." she replied with a grin.
"Good work...I still need to get my first detention." Amy said with a grin.
"I 'ave a feelin' I'ma gonna get me firs' one today." Gin replied.
"I wish I could say the same." Amy stated morosely.
"Wait a minute...you two LIKE getting detentions?" Angel asked, surprised.
"O' course we do! Wats the 'hole point o' comin to 'Ogwarts if you ain't gonna play pranks on tha other 'ouses?" Gin asked, as if she was horrified as the very idea.
"To Learn?" Angel asked nervously.
"To learn? I tink we need to show you the finer points o' 'Ogwarts, eh Amy?" Gin said with a grin.
"Oh yeah." Amy grinned.
Angel and Lily laughed.
" 'Ave you bin cryin'?" Gin asked, seeing the tear streaks on Angels face.
"Yeh. I have but thanks for cheering me up a bit." Angel said, wiping at her face.
"Gin has that affect on EVERYONE...except of course the Slytherins." Lily said with a laugh.
"Well wat can I say? I can't 'elp it!" Gin said, positively beaming.
"Who thinks we should go down and eat?" Amy asked as her stomach growled.
"Good Idear Amy!" Gin yelled as she ran down to the Great Hall to save spots for them at the Gryffindor table.
A/N i hope you liked it...I know it was a little depressing but please review!
She walked in and saw a girl sitting there, a razor in her hand, tears streaming down her cheeks, and blood pouring out of self inflicted gashes on her arms.
Lily recognized the girl as Angel Hart...she bunked with Lily at Hogwarts...they had never been good friends...but they talked sometimes.
Angel looked up, terrified, and she hid her arms and flushed the razor down the toilet.
"Please don't tell no-one. Please!" she whispered desperatly.
"Angel, why?" Lily asked in alarm.
"It makes me feel better. It takes away my pain." Angel said softly, not bothering to clean up the blood that was dripping onto the floor.
"Oh Angel! Don't do this. How can that make you feel better? Its just hurting yourself." Lily exclaimed, tears in her eyes at the pathetic sight.
"You don't understand. No one does." Angel muttered, grabbing tissues and cleaning up her "mess."
"Please. Let me help you. You can't keep doing this!" Lily said watching the girl sadly.
"I don't need no help. It isn't like I'm gonna to die or nothing." Angel said in a low voice.
"Not yet anyway. My...my best friend in grade school did this to herself and the depression got so bad that she...killed herself. And I can't let that happen to you." Lily said, tears now running down her face like rapidly flowing streams.
Just then, Amy walked in, saw the mess, saw Angel with her bleeding arms, and she gasped in horror.
"Oh Angel!" she exclaimed. "You can't keep doing this!"
"It doesn't hurt." Angel protested weakly.
"Is there something wrong at home thats making you do this?" Amy asked her softly.
"My mum. She tells me I'm useless and I'm fat every chance she gets. Doing this is the only way I can make myself feel better. I never cut too deep anyways. So whats the big deal?" she said, growing defensive.
"The big deal is. People kill themselves all the time...the depression gets so bad. It takes over and they die." Lily sobbed thinking of her best friend that had died.
"I'm not gonna die so don't worry about it." Angel said softly, stopping the bleeding by putting bandages on them.
"Thats exactly what she said. I was stupid enough to believe her, and in the end...everything I had said didn't matter. She did it anyway." Lily said sadly.
"I'm getting better though! I only do it once a week now. I used to do it every day." Angel protested, worried that they would go and tell someone.
"Angel..." Amy trailed off.
"I promise I'll stop if you don't tell no-one. Promise me?" Angel asked them pleadingly.
"Ok, but we're gonna stick around and help you out ok?" Amy said firmly.
"Ok, I think I can handle two new friends." Angel said with a weak grin.
I How could someone do that to themselves? I can't even begin to imagine...I Lily thought, looking at Angel.
Angel was a pretty girl with beautiful long, layered chocolate brown hair that curled right at the ends. She had beautiful brown eyes and long eyelashes that framed them. She had the perfect complexion and she was thin...so why was she doing this? She had tons of friends and had never had any trouble getting a boyfriend.
I They can't even begin to imagine what I'm going through. I'm ugly, I'm fat, and thats all I ever hear from my mum. Why do all of my friends say that I am pretty and thin? If my mom says so so much...then it has to be true.I Angel thought, looking down at her cuts.
"Angel, I'm going to fix these for you...you can't let these leave scars." Amy said softly.
Then she performed a charm that healed all of the cuts she had made, and you couldn't even tell that they had been there.
"Thanks...Amy?" Angel said, not sure if Amy was her name.
"Yep, I'm Amy and thats Lily." Amy replied with a smile.
"We're going to head back to our compartment...do you want to come sit with us?" Lily asked the girl.
"Sure." Angel said and she stood up and followed Lily to their compartment.
She sat down and began to think: I Why are they so worried? Its not like I cut myself that deep. And they always heal. So whats wrong with it?
"Hey, James, this is Angel Hart....she's in my dorm and she was unfortunate enough to have been woken up early by you on SEVERAL occassions last year." Amy said with a grin, presenting her to the group.
"Hey Angel." James said with a smile.
"Hiya Angel." Sirius grinned at her. "Man she's a hot one." he said a little too loudly.
"'ello Angel." Remus said softly.
"Hi everyone." Angel said with a grin. One of her many FORCED grins.
Lily plopped down on James' lap and told Angel to sit down on the chair that Lily had just gotten up from.
So Angel walked over and made her self comfortable. She dangled her legs over the side of the chairs and leaned her head back on the other arm rest.
"I wish we had a radio or something to listen to." Angel said in a bored voice.
"I know! I wish cd players worked in Hogwarts...I would have brought mine." Lily sighed.
Angel and Lily looked up and saw that the others were looking at them strangely.
"A cd player is a contraption that you put a disk into and it plays music." Lily explained.
But, seeing the STILL confused look on their faces, Angel and Lily burst into giggles.
(A/N some of you might not know that when you are depressed, the littlest thing can make you happy, and the littlest thing can make you sad. So thats why she went from sad to giggly so quickly. Its just how it goes.)
Finally, they pulled up into the Hogsmeade Station and they were able to get onto the carriages that took them to Hogwarts.
When they got there, Lily, Angel, and Amy all walked up to the Gryffindor girls' dorms and began to put away their things.
"It really stunk that I couldn't use magic over the summer because I live with muggles." Lily complained.
"Oh, I know! I had to do MUGGLE cleaning." Amy said, wincing as if even the THOUGHT of muggle cleaning made her hurt.
"I had to do painting with my HANDS." Angel put in.
They all giggled at the stupidity of the conversation.
"So, Angel, what did you do this summer?" Lily asked, changing the subject.
Suddenly, Angel's expression grew dark and she became silent.
"I did a lot of work that a daughter shouldn't have to do, and I was constantly being told that I was ugly and that I am fat and that I'm worthless. So all in all I had a great summer. How about you?" she said bitterly.
"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to make you angry." Lily said softly.
"It's not your fault. I just hate my life and I wish I could end it right now." Angel replied in a dull voice.
"Don't say that! Thats whats making you...cut yourself. You can't think like that ok? Please TRY and help yourself." Amy pleaded.
"Whats the use? Just when I start to feel better, I have to go back with my mother for the holidays and it starts all over again. I just don't know if I want to be here anymore." Angel said in a choked whisper.
"What does your mother do?" Lily asked tentatively.
"She hits me and tells me how stupid, fat, ugly, and worthless I am every chance she gets. She gets drunk all the time and I have to clean up her "messes." What do I have going for me? Who would really care if I died?" Angel asked, looking up at Lily.
"We would care." Lily and Amy said at the same time.
"I know YOU would but...I just wish I had a mum or a da who really loved me. My entire life sucks and all the friends I have had have left because they found out about my mum." Angel said as the tears she had been holding back poured out.
Just then, bubbly Virginia (Gin) Belmont walked in. She had frizzy blonde hair and light brown eyes, a fair complexion...and she was quite pretty. She was quite a tomboy and was friends with everyone.
" 'Ello everyone. 'Ow are yous doin?" she asked in her broken english accent.
"Just fine and you?" Amy said quickly pasting a smile on her face.
"I'm doin jus' peachy. I already threw a couple o' dung bombs in tha Slyth'rins dorms." she replied with a grin.
"Good work...I still need to get my first detention." Amy said with a grin.
"I 'ave a feelin' I'ma gonna get me firs' one today." Gin replied.
"I wish I could say the same." Amy stated morosely.
"Wait a minute...you two LIKE getting detentions?" Angel asked, surprised.
"O' course we do! Wats the 'hole point o' comin to 'Ogwarts if you ain't gonna play pranks on tha other 'ouses?" Gin asked, as if she was horrified as the very idea.
"To Learn?" Angel asked nervously.
"To learn? I tink we need to show you the finer points o' 'Ogwarts, eh Amy?" Gin said with a grin.
"Oh yeah." Amy grinned.
Angel and Lily laughed.
" 'Ave you bin cryin'?" Gin asked, seeing the tear streaks on Angels face.
"Yeh. I have but thanks for cheering me up a bit." Angel said, wiping at her face.
"Gin has that affect on EVERYONE...except of course the Slytherins." Lily said with a laugh.
"Well wat can I say? I can't 'elp it!" Gin said, positively beaming.
"Who thinks we should go down and eat?" Amy asked as her stomach growled.
"Good Idear Amy!" Gin yelled as she ran down to the Great Hall to save spots for them at the Gryffindor table.
A/N i hope you liked it...I know it was a little depressing but please review!