Your Lie in April © Arakawa Naoshi
Story © Aizawa Harumi

Warning! Kaori's POV, Future Fic, Short Fic, Mistyped, Bad Grammar, etc.

| もう一度 |
(read ; mō ichido)
-one more time-

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What do I think happiness is?

"Happiness, the one my parents and my friends have is what my happiness is." -I would reply.

Now now... How typical is that?

But still it's true. It really is indeed. Furthermore, what's so special about it they wonder.

These past years, the whole scenario unexpectedly turned out to be something else. Something more specific or else not. Whether it was meant to extend my lifetime. Whether it was meant to give somekind of seasoning to my world. I don't know. Nobody knows but God.

What I know that there was you.

I saw you. Walking on a road as the sun slowly drown by a certain hill. Thus I found the glimpse of your existence from the reflection my eyes gave, and soon the memories from past struck againts me like it's saying hello. I was happy as I could be. I was but you were not, weren't you?

Can't. I can't touch it.

Afraid, I was afraid. Afraid of you breaking into pieces. The people surrounding you were just fine. They did great until then. But it wouldn't last long I believe. The you whom I once know wasn't gone yet. I won't allow, I know you won't as well. Not yet.

I want to see it again.

I wanted to see you standing up between the crowd. Shining bright the way you were. Let the sound from the tip of your fingers resounded throughout the sky. Let it fly as it reached everyone. Your feelings. Remember, the way you are.

My lies.

The flowers kept them hidden from you in April. Unfortunately those cherry blossom's petals didn't last long as they fall to earth ; I wasn't pretty you know. I wasn't strong you know. I wasn't fine you know. I didn't love him you know.

I have loved you you know.

Beep. Beep. The surgery takes my breath away. "Don't go, don't go!" you plead.

To be able to see you lost the grasp of that sad past. To be able to see you move your time forward. To be able to stand next to you during the rehearsal with my violin play. I was happy.

"What would it mean if there isn't you?"

I burst out laughing.

"You have more than just me as the reason to keep on playing, y'know?"

Your shaking arms reach out, embracing my skinny figure with your warmth.

"I know.. Even I know.. Stupid.." My heart stops. I can hear it. You're crying.

The imaginary world you built starts to crumble. "One more time.. one more time.."

Tears stream down with nonstop. Yours, mine. "Even if that was only a lie. I still want to share the sky our music. Dangit."

I know right?

"Let's argue again."

I'm sorry.

"I'll buy you some canelé."

I'm sorry.

"C'mon let's spend the time together."

I'm sorry.

"Don't leave me behind."

"...I must go."

At least I have to keep a smile onto my face till the very last moment, no? Stop that. Really...

Sorry, Arima Kousei-kun. Also thank you for the hard work.

I'm happy so please, live for me.

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もう一度-FIN

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(A/N) Dangit Kaori.