A/N: I'm already dozing off, as it's 2:20 in the morning, and I just did a lot more fiction work than I'm used to doing in a day. But I've had this idea for a long time, and I didn't want it to die on the table, as I am not good with the story-defibrillators. And I'm writing this from Akito's point of view, a first for me.
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket, or make a profit from this.
As I child, he was my surrogate father. While my own Father had died when I was so young, just old enough to be completely traumatized, just old enough to need him.
Kureno.
He became so much more over the years, but as a child he was the one I could truly claim as mine. He wasn't exactly an adult himself, being only six years older than I, but he was better than my remaining parent in every single way.
When I was slightly older, turning eleven and he seventeen, I was still small enough to crawl into his lap. Some days, that was the only way I would sleep, curled up next to my favorite zodiac member.
But all things fade with time, and somewhere around the time I turned eighteen, I found myself drifting apart from Kureno, despite how physically close I kept him. I was losing him, I was sure, and with his curse already broken I knew that would be the end.
I slept with Kureno because I thought it would bring him back to me. Instead, it was like a doorstop being pulled from the door, it only furthered the distance and brought the end nearer. Everything started to break down from there.
When I stabbed him... I was blind with rage, and I couldn't see straight, let alone think straight. I hate myself for that still, though Kureno states that he's forgiven me, and Shigure tells me not to blame myself.
Some things, I don't think I can ever forgive myself for. With age comes wisdom, I'm told, but with that wisdom comes the aching feeling that I'm a horrible person and even though I was God I can never repent.
Sometimes, I can't even stand myself. Some days, it's just terrible.
A/N: It's short, but I kind of like it. I used to role-play Akito a lot, and nobody else wanted to be her, ever, so I felt like I came to an understanding with her. And everyone said I played the mean girls best. Anyway, leave me a review if you will, I love hearing from my readers, and if anyone's interested, next time I want to do this, Rin and Haru are up next, I believe.