10.11.2010
I hope that Mello's okay he hasn't come home since yesterday, I wonder where he's gone. I hope he hasn't got into trouble with one of Mafia associates. I'm worried...
19.05.2007
I saw a man with blond hair today and nearly broke down in the middle of the underground, but I didn't, I just resolved to write, as though writing might ease the pain...it doesn't...
05.12.2004
Why did he leave? Doesn't he understand what that would do to me? Doesn't he care? Of course he doesn't care otherwise he wouldn't have left, who would care for me anyway? I'm useless, all I do is play video games all day. It's my fault I should have told him...
13.12.2010
I'm so happy! I've never been so happy before, it's a wonderful feeling when the one you love confirms that the feeling is mutual. Mello told me he loved me, it's the happiest day of my existence, I now have a reason for living. I love Mello.
08.01.1996
My psychologist told me to write this, his said that it would help me overcome emotional barriers or something. I'm not really sure of it's purpose I mean I thought it might be weird for a boy to have a diary but he assured me that it's normal. I still don't trust him or anyone really…how can I trust this place it's just so…unnatural. I only came here a few weeks ago but I don't like it. I hope I don't have to do this everyday…
06.01.2010
Mello told me about his plan, and it was genius and would solve all our problems. So why do I feel he's leaving something out? Maybe I'm to paranoid, I don't know.
03.11.2010
I was reunited with Mello today, he's changed a lot, but it's not really a bad thing. I still love him with all my heart, I just hope someday I'll be brave enough to confess to him but I know I won't so I'll just resolve to give him anything he wants, maybe it would count?
11.11.2010
He still hasn't come back, I'm going to look for him, I hope he's alright, I love you Mello.
15.11.2010
I hated watching him suffer, stressing over the kira case and Near, I could tell it was slowly eating him from the inside. I wish there were some way I could help.
12.11.2010
I cried for the first time when I carried his body out of that building, he was barely conscious but I could tell he was in pain. Why couldn't I bear that pain instead of him? Why were the gods this cruel. I could see he would have a scar on the left side of his face and I cried some more. That night I prayed for Mello.
26.01.2010
I shot the smoke bomb and drove quickly before the bodyguards could catch up, but they did and then I was surrounded. I still tried to bluff my way out, knowing it was pointless. As I went down, cigarette still in mouth, my only thought was of Mello. I love you I silently whispered to him as everything became black. I always have and always will...
14.02.1996
I met this boy called Mello today, he seemed nice, maybe we could be friends?