Does it even matter?
It's obvious. You never even liked me to begin with.
It's always been "AINU-BAKA! You're in my way! Get outta here!" or other scathing remarks.
You've always belittled me. Always hated me. Never even looking back, never looking at me.
But still I wait. Still I sit patiently, like the cold freezing snow that falls and waits.
But its obvious. You will never come.
You will never care.
You will never even know.
……
Your heart may still contain vestiges of darkness…but what does it matter?
To me, it means nothing.
You are still the Ren I love.
The Ren I fell in love with, the Ren I still love, and probably will until I die.
Even if you don't even look.
Even if you choose someone else.
Even if darkness envelopes you again.
Even if you kill me.
I do, still, and will love you Ren.
But, you'll never know this.
Never know how.
Or why.
I need you too much Ren, too much that it hurts.
Maybe Lyserg is the person you really love. Or someone else. But no matter.
I'll wait patiently. Even until I die…