He's denied it, and he's always denied it well, that much he could say for sure. The large stack of several pornographic magazines he's accumulated over the years ever since he realized he was attracted to girls was proof enough. He' s filled his head with visions of nude women, but men... It didn't even cross his mind before now. Of course, the years of a teenager, male or female, is a very confusing road that may tarnish old opportunities and start other ones anew, especially during high school. Whether it be about career, friendships, sexuality, or anything of the sort.
Though the first time Earnest Jones had ever thought about it was after he flipped through the pages of one of his magazines to find his favorite centerfold. He marveled at her beauty, though mainly it was because of her humongous breasts, looking like they were about to spill out of her tight black bra any second, and her shaved warmth peering past the little thong that seemed to be merely a string in her crotch. As Earnest looked over her body eagerly, something had changed. The once buxom beauty he had lusted over for weeks had now seemed dull in his eyes. Her body seemed so less... satisfying now a days. Remaining calm, Earnest picked up another magazine and flipped through the pages of each girl, yet the outcome was the same. Even after he looked through the ones he had bought recently, it just wasn't enough to get him going. Earnest began to panic a little. He had never lost interest in these girls before, so why was now any different? He silently contemplated his thoughts about that question. He remembers the images of these women fondly. Buxom, leggy, gorgeous... yet it didn't excite him like he used to. Earnest's fear rose. Was he actually growing bored and dissatisfied with the beautiful women he had fantasized about ever since age thirteen?! He didn't know what to do. He thought more about the issue. If he didn't like the bodies of the women he once craved, what did excite him now? He never liked small breasts. No, those will never due in his eyes. Animal and human hybrids, (mostly known as anthros,) were completely out of the question. Earnest didn't even want to think about hentai...
So if he was bored with the old, and didn't even want to think about the new, what should he do? After pondering more about it, a sudden thought came into his head...
What if... I like boys?
Earnest shook his head. "No!" he argued with himself, "That couldn't be! ...Could it?" He thought more about it. Specifically, he thought about the guys at school. He was never attracted to Trent. Not now, not ever. Doesn't he have a boyfriend anyways? That one jock... Who was he? Earnest brushed off the thought for now, and proceeded his intense thinking. He and Vance have never talked to each other ever in their lives, though Earnest did know that he had a strange obsession with his own hair through a few seconds of overhearing a conversation between the cheerleaders, to which they shooed him away once they realized that he was staring at them. And though Vance was decent looking, he didn't really spark Earnest's interest. Gord would probably think of himself as too high-and-mighty for Earnest since his family had more money then Earnest's family did. Cornelius is kind of cute and has always been nice to him, but Earnest saw him as a friend, and a friend only. Then he thought about Jimmy. Jimmy's always been a jerk, and never seemed to care for anyone except for himself and his friends, Zoe and Peter. He didn't seem in any way homosexual or bisexual until he started making out with every girl and every boy on campus. Earnest remembered seeing Jimmy kiss Cornelius just last week after classes were over. And though to Earnest he wasn't that all attracted to him, he was rather decent looking, even with his shaved head, short stature and odd twenty-four hour squint. Earnest thought that he wouldn't even have to try to get Jimmy to kiss him, just ask and he would receive...
Earnest gave himself a mental slap in the face. He knew he wasn't looking for a partner in a relationship! Just something to get him going again. He thought of Jimmy as someone who could be an experiment, though. Since James was so keen on whoring around with every girl and guy, maybe he could just give him a kiss to find out how he really felt about guys. If he doesn't like them, then that's that. But if he does... Earnest didn't have the slightest clue what he would do. Would he start fantasizing about different boys like he did the centerfolds? Would he try to develop a relationship with a guy? Should he try fantasizing about them now instead of doing this? ...No, he decided, This might actually clarify it better. So he left through the observatory doors and went to go find a boy. Not just Jimmy, God knows what he's caught from kissing everyone in Bullworth, let alone any form of sexual activity that's gone on behind the closed door of his dorm room. He just needed to find someone to experiment with. Someone to just kiss him and get this over with.