Nobody out there
Summary: Anna is alone, no longer can her friends hear her when she cries. Yoh can't come to her aid… forever she is lost and death seems like the only way out. Yoh&Anna
Anna stares out the window, she looks up the dark skies where no star was shining, it was just a dark void where you could fall into an eternity of sorrow. 'Even the stars are hiding from me…' she whispers. She fumbles the blue beads between her fingers.
Go ahead, Anna! I'll follow.
A voice echoed in her thoughts. She sighed deeply and buried her face in her hands. She could hear Tamao cooking dinner for her in the kitchen, Tamao couldn't help her. Ever since the incident Tamao had been trying to bring Anna out of her sorrow but she had given up. Anna was too 'dangerous', Tamao was afraid that she might hurt her again. Hao gave up on Anna as well, it seems that nothing could bring her to the old Anna that she once was.
The sound of the kitchen utensils stopped, as it was followed by soft padded footsteps to the mouth of her room. There was a faint clatter and the footsteps faded away. Anna's grip on the beads tightened, she cursed softly at everyone who tried to help her. They were all fools, pretending that they cared but abandoned her anyway. Ren and Jun returned to China with their families and so did Horohoro and Pirka who returned to the mountains up North. The four (as Anna could faintly remember) tried to comfort her but she coldly turned them away.
The sounds of sirens blared in her ears as she began to fall into unconsciousness.
She clenched her teeth and tried to forget the harrowing memories and tried to recall other things.
She screamed at Morty and threw him out of the house, and threatened him that she'd kill him if he were to return, and that was the last she ever saw of Yoh's friend. She forced Amidamaru to the spirit world but she let Tamao stay, for she was the only one who was stubborn enough to persist on helping. But even her gentle words couldn't break through.
Anna raised her head and looked at the small picture frame at the very far corner of the room. The picture was of them, happily celebrating for no reason at all. They were all gathered in the dining room, Lyserg was there, Chocolove, Ryu, Hao… everyone whom she knew and somewhat cared for. She and Yoh stood at the very center, she remembered smiling for the photograph. It was the only picture she had of Yoh… and this was given to her as a birthday present from him.
Anna stood up and walked to the picture, dragging the beads behind. Her black dress swayed softly as she approached. Her heart sank, everyone's face was beaming with joy… even hers. Yoh's face… she had to squint to see it clearly, she was beginning to forget what he looked like.
She fell down on her knees as tears endlessly streamed down her eyes. She held the beads in her hands and tore them apart and threw it at the small frame, shattering it into pieces as it fell on the ground. Screaming in pure anger and crying in sorrow, she cursed at the world. She blamed herself.
A sharp pain pierced her abdomen, her knees buckled and she fell to the ground in pain. She let out a muffled cry as she bit her lip to stop herself from alerting Tamao. She could taste her own blood as her teeth dug deeply into her lip. She can't alert Tamao… it would hurt her more.
Anna held a small knife in her hands. She closed her eyes to stop the tears from escaping. With one swift jerk she thrust the knife into her. 'Death is freedom'. She thought. 'Wait for me.' She twisted the knife and not an anguished cry left her lips. She held it in, no one was to hear her and only are they to see her when she has left the mortal world.
She slowly removed the knife from her abdomen and she stared blankly into her own pool of blood by her feet. She watched the pool spread beneath her, but her legs have weakened that she fell to the floor with a heavy thud. She moved her bloodied hands near her face and smiled, 'Wait for me.' She whispered again as she closed her eyes and waited to die.
Anna opened her eyes and coughed blood. She ran her hand down her abdomen to feel the scar that she gave herself months before. She hated Horohoro for that, he shouldn't have saved her. She was almost free… now she has lost everything. Everyone either gave up on her or she pushed them away.
She stood up and looked at the scattered beads and glass that lay aimlessly on the ground. She saw the picture of them, all so happy. She stepped on it angrily with her bare feet, she cut herself on the glass. Her anger drowned it away, her blood smeared on the picture that was now unrecognizable.
Thunder echoed in the distance, and rain began to fall as heavy drops. She could hear nothing but the sounds of crashing waves in her mind.
I don't know if I ever said this to you, Anna, but…
'What, Yoh?' Anna cried. She looked outside, the black night sky was occasionally illuminated by the lightning that streaked across blindingly. She ran out the room, stepping on the food that Tamao caringly laid out her room. Anna kicked it away as she ran outside to the pouring rain.
The thunder was deafening and the lightning was blinding. Anna stood there, soaking wet. Her eyes filled with sorrow as the wind howled angrily around her. 'Tell me, Yoh!' she screamed at the sky. She was answered by the echoing thunder at a far distance. She knelt on the muddy grass, her clothes covered in filth and she began to shiver. 'Help me, Yoh…' she mumbled, 'Forgive me… it was my fault…' she sobbed.
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(A/n) hahah… do you want to know what happened to Yoh, and why Anna's so suicidal? Well review on… I want to know if someone is interested to read on… a few chapters are left, I'm not planning to make this a novel. I just love stories full of angst… and drama… So… I'm done with Hao (MORTAL GOD) and I'm continuing with Anna (NOBODY OUT THERE)… when I'm done with Anna I'll go to Yoh (I Already have a story all I need to do is finish Anna's before I could write it out.)
I'm still continuing the CSI and Bahamas for those who read them… but I'll be doing it rather slowly.
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