I take slow deep breaths, one after the other, willing myself, willing my heartbeat to calm down.
I try and focus on my friend who's doing a speech to the class. I focus on his dyed fringe, his pink lips, the way he holds his palm cards, the way his earring catches the light and reflects it onto the wall in front of him. I focus on the way his bright eyes dart back and forth from the teacher to the pretty words on his page. I focus on his posture, his slightly wonky tie, the stain on his white school shirt; surely from the chocolate milk he had at recess.
His complex and logical words are a definite mismatch for his appearance.
A bell sounds and he finishes the sentence, smooth like silk. The class applauds; like it does for every student, except his words, touching on the themes of the reality of racism where worth applauding. He sits down on the same table as me, I try and give a smile but I don't know if I managed, my anxiety taking control over my body. He notices my effort and flashes a dimple.
My name is written next on the board.
Breathe
He gives me a thumbs up and another dimple
Breathe
I stand up from my seat
Breathe
I look up from my speech before I begin one last time, almost fleetingly. Dan's eyes catch mine as I take a last deep breath.
Okay, I tell myself. Focus.
A/N: hello the first one shot of my fanfic friday's. Sorry if its a bit rough and raw; if i have to much time to think about what im writing i usually wont post it. Idk i dislike speeches 100% ..and now so does phil haha. also about infamous...i will update it in the next 2 weeks i've just been super busy with school and english speeches...
r& r x