Hello darlings :)

This is my first time that I post anything! I'll came up with this idea this morning and thought it would be an idea to just write it down :)

So since english isn't my first language I'm sorry for all the mistakes you will find there :)

Big thanks to my beta Sophie (aka captainfckingmagic on tumblr) and my dear dear friend Vicky (aka xLadyInBluex ) you should definitely read her story :)

I was starring at the light that came from the fireplace in front of me.

Elena was talking to me but I couldn't hear it.

All I was hearing were his screams.

Screams of pain.

Screams of defeat.

Screams of lost hope.

And if I didn't stop thinking about them it would drive me insane.

How could this happen?

Why did no one help him?

Why did I not help him?

I looked at Elena, who just called my name, and felt a strange hate coming up.

I wanted to tear her apart.

She took everything from me and yet she didn't even know it.

I shook my head, giving her a sign that I didn't want to talk right now.

I didn't want to know how they were going to find this cure.

How Jeremy's mark got now complete.

I secretly hoped that this cure would tear them all apart!

Like they did with my soul when they killed him.

I barely noticed Elena getting up and leaving the huge living room of the Salvatores' house.

I pulled my knees to my body, putting my arms around so my head was resting on them and felt myself going back to the night that changed my life.

My head was resting on his chest while my fingers were doing small circles on his chest.

I felt his fingers doing the same on my bare back.

"You can still change your mind, you know?" he said softly, continuing his actions on my back.

"I would love to have you as a vampire, be with you for until the end of times, but I know what you will lose!"

I sighed and smiled lightly.

"Don't tell me that you care, Kol." I answered before putting a soft kiss on his chest.

"Well as much as it pains me to admit it, I can't deny it anymore: I really care.

I never thought of something like that before I met you. Fuck it, before I met you I never even considered to actually care for any human being."

His tone was getting a bit stronger, even rougher.

I sat up a bit, so I could look at his face.

In the soft light he almost looked like an angel

No one would believe that he was able to kill in an instant without even blinking.

"I want to be a vampire. And I want you to turn me. I want to be with you and I know what I'm giving up for that."

I brought my lips to his

His hand cupped my cheek and he smiled lightly.

The devil's smile.

"Then so be it. I will turn you tomorrow night." he said as his hand travelled from my cheek to my neck, pulling me to him to kiss me passionately.

I didn't notice the tears that were running down my cheeks.

I felt my heart beating in my chest but every heartbeat felt like it was breaking a little more

I never wanted to be dead more than in this moment.'

"He loved you."

I turned around to see Rebekah standing right behind me.

I gave her a questioning look and she just smiled calmly and looked down on her feet before looking at me again.

"I never believed Kol would love anyone. And believe me I know my brother. He wasn't capable of love, at least not until he met you." she started and laughed.

"The most surprising is that you're human. He hated humans; they were just a piece of meat, something to play with. I don't know what you did to him."

She still had a little smile on her face.

"What makes you think he loved me?" I finally managed to say, my voice filled with sadness.

But I never got an answer to that.

Rebekah just laughed while leaving me alone with my lost memories.

"Invite me in", Kol demanded at the doorframe of my house.

"Forget it. I will never invite an original in my home." I answered. I tried to put all the hate I had in me in my eyes

Kol smiled.

I felt a cold shiver running down my back.

"Don't worry. One day you will invite me in." he just said and left me there, confused.

I was lying on my bed.

I couldn't stand to be with the others anymore.

All I saw there was that they were happy.

Happy to finally have a proper chance to find the cure.

Only Rebekah was looking at me with a slightly different look.

I smiled.

They could say a lot about the original family.

They could say a lot about Rebekah but I knew that I could trust her more than I could ever trust any of the others.

She wouldn't say anything to them.

She would take my feelings with her for the rest of her life, as long as it may be.

My eyes fell on the chair which was near my bed and my smile faded away.

I opened my eyes in horror.

My room was dark and I couldn't see a thing but I felt a presence.

"Kol? Is that you?" I asked into the dark, and I swear I could feel his devilish smile.

"Of course. Who else could it be?" he asked amused.

Relieved, I laid down again.

"I just wanted to make sure that you're here." I whispered.

"I'm always here and you know it." he said and I felt him get up from the chair near my bed.

I heard some footsteps and the next second he was sitting on my bed, his hand cupping my cheek.

"I will always be here. I will always protect you. Now sleep." he murmured and I closed my eyes.

The last thing that I remember before falling asleep is that I knew that my heart was lost.

I knew that I was in love with an original, and not the worst of them.

I was in love with Kol Mikaelson.

And as scary as it was, I knew that he was somehow in love with me.

I swallowed my tears away.

I wouldn't cry.

He wouldn't want to see me weep because that would mean that I was weak.

I took my eyes away from the chair and turned the light off.

Everything was dark now.

I closed my eyes and felt my heart break a bit more.

I allowed myself to go back into the moment where everything was perfect, even if it would mean losing myself completely.

I felt his lips on my neck, kissing and sucking at my aorta.

My eyes were closed and I moaned when he started to scratch at it with his teeth.

My fingers were digging in his back, brushing his skin.

He then thrusted into me and I let out a mild scream of pleasure and surprise.

I didn't even know I was that aroused before he started to go in and out of me with ease.

He brought himself up a bit so he could look into my face.

"Open your eyes." he said. I did as he asked.

I looked at his face while he kept pushing me more and more to the edge.

My fingers were playing with his messy hair and I pulled his face to mine so I could kiss him.

Our tongues were fighting for dominance and I felt his breath in my mouth.

He was sinking into me with so much force that I was sure he was bruising me but I didn't care.

All that mattered was that we were one now.

His mouth was on my breast now, sucking and licking my hard peak.

I brought my head a bit up so I could kiss his neck.

I loved how his skin tasted.

He moaned and pulled at my long, brown hair so my head fell back and my neck was fully exposed to him.

He bent down and put his lips on my neck, kissing and sucking the skin there before I felt his fangs digging into my skin.

It was a strange sensation. A mixture of quiet pain and absolute pleasure which brought me over the edge and I exploded in my orgasm.

While I was coming down on earth I felt him reaching his climax and licking the blood off my neck.

He was resting upon me, kissing every inch of my face before his lips stopped at my ear.

"Now you're mine. Forever." he whispered and brought his lips to mine, leaving me exalted after a passionate embrace.

Yes I was now his…forever.

I opened my eyes.

My heart was beating faster.

The sun was shining into my room and I slowly got up.

I went to the mirror and looked at my neck.

It was completely healed and I closed my eyes, not able to hold back the tears.

My gaze fell on the pictures that were standing next the mirror.

One showed me with my parents and the other one was showing me with Elena, Bonnie and Caroline in our cheerleader outfits.

It was the moment I realized I would never be able to forgive them.

I would never forgive them that they ruined my life.

I would never forgive them that they killed the love of my life.

I would never forgive them that they killed Kol Mikaelson.

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