Don't cry to me If you loved me You would be here with me You want me Come find me Make up your mind

Derek felt the last long swig of his double scotch burn down his throat as he reminisced and thought of what an arse he has been to everyone, especially Meredith and to himself, he still felt as though he was.

On the other side of town, a tear stained Meredith was trying to come to grips with what the love of her life had done that had such a massive heart-ranching decision not just on her behalf but on the side of one of her closest friends.

A Day, 10 hours and 5 minutes earlier

Knock, Knock

Izzie got up from watching Bewitched to answer the door, to her surprise it was Derek Shepherd, he had obviously been drinking.

MEEEEEEEEEREDITH I I m S S Sooorry Derek slurred out pushing past Izzie

Doctor Shep Derek cut off Izzie

Mereee pllleeaasee f for forgive me I ve been a total fucking asshole and Derek slurred once again

DEREK I m Izzie Stevens not Meredith Izzie stated

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIzzie heeeeeeyyyyy Derek giggled

Um hi Izzie said getting slightly annoyed

You want me you ve always wanted me, but you never said anything be because of my sweet ass Meredith she does have a gooooood ass ya know Derek said all of a sudden taking Izzie aback.

Before she knew it, there were shot-glasses and tequila bottles out and playing strip poker.

That Morning Izzie woke up feeling a gut reaction and not knowing what she had done, suddenly she heard a key in the door and realising she had not put the blind down the previous night, she looked over to find none other than Derek Shepherd laying next to her, in her bed fast asleep.

Shit shit shit Izzie thought

IZZIE, I M HOME Meredith voice rang out from downstairs

Izzie quickly got dressed and ran down,

Hey Mer Izzie greeted her friend

What s wrong with you? Meredith asked

Nothing I m fine why would anything be wrong with me?

You have a look, Meredith stated

Of ? Izzie asked sceptically

Meredith laughed

I don t know just like to keep you on your toes, I guess Meredith smiled

Okay then Izzie half smiled, half glad Meredith didn t guess what had gone on the previous night while she was on call.

I m going to have a shower ok don t turn any taps on Meredith yell out to Izzie from half way up the stairs, just as she finished her sentence, she caught Derek out the corner of her eye coming out of Izzie s room looking worse for wear.

Hey Baby Meredith spoke as she began to reach him

Hey yourself Derek said as he wrapped his arms around her waist

What are you doing in Izzie s room? she asked him with uncertainty in her voice

I came over to get a shirt I left here, and she said it was in there after she done the washing he fake smiled at her

Bullshit BULLSHIT Derek, I did the last load of laundry and there were none of your clothes here Meredith replied knowing that he was going to hurt her again.

. . .

Meredith jolted up and touched her cheeks, tears were streaming down, she looked to her side & sure enough Derek eyes were flickering as they slowly opened.

"Mer, babe, what's wrong?" Derek said sleepily

"Nothing. . .it was all a dream. . .go back to sleep & I'll tell you in the morning...ok?" she smiled

& with that, she slithered back down into the bed with Derek's arm wrapped around her & deep down she knew that dream would never come true.