Hello.This takes place a while after Storm In the Room. Comments are appreciated!warning! Sad! (me trying to be dark and brooding)

Stevens POV:

It was a cold and dreary night, I was out on the porch. I have been thinking lately, especially since I've had the encounter with my mom, Rose. I'm not entirely sure what to call her. I think Mom is just too personal for someone you've never met. Rose just sounds too insensitive towards the others, and dad.

I still haven't told anyone about what happened that night. I suppose Garnet might know but she might not. I won't bring it up.

Also, I have been having bad dreams since the encounter with Mom/Rose. It was a very simple dream. It starts off with me standing in darkness. It was cold but bearable. After a few minutes of nothing, my dream self always walks into this lighter area of black. It takes a long time and as I get nearer to the light, I fall into a dark pit. It is almost an endless fall, all the while it's getting colder and darker.Then, I hit a surface with terrifying speed and my neck snaps with a loud crack.I felt no pain. My body was still and I watch myself. I was deathly still. My body was mangled. Blood smeared the stones.

That was the whole dream. Nothing more, nothing less. It has been happening for a month now. And every single time I wake, I wake up screaming.

Pearl hasn't been watching me sleep lately. She was only there to wake me up from my internal torment once. She must've given up on me. I think all of them have. I've been selfish lately. I don't blame them.

Connie is really the only one who can cheer me up these days. But even she can't keep the dreams away.

A breeze gave me goosebumps along my arm and back.I looked out to the dark horizon. The sun was starting to rise.

I need to get back to bed! The gems might ask me why I'm up. I don't want to tell them about my consistent nightmares.

So I walk back into the house. As I turn around, I see Garnet in the doorframe.

"Agh!",I Yelped in surprise. I thought I was the only one up.

"Didn't mean to scare you Steven. Sorry about that.",She said. But she didn't move out of the way. she stood in the doorframe, still.

"S'okay. I didn't know you were there",I mentioned. I open the door and she is still unmoving. "Uh, Garnet. Can I come in?"

"No. Not until you tell me why your always up so early. I have noticed your behavior lately. What's up?",she looked down directly at me.

"I just have been getting up earlier. That's all"

I have never been able to lie convincingly.

"Steven, I know about the dreams"

"oh...I'm sorry, I don't want to talk about them tonight. Please?"

"I get it. But if you need someone to talk to, I'm here." Garnet reluctantly stepped into the house and out of Stevens way.

"okay",I said dismissively.

I walked into the house and went to my bed. I was hoping that Garnet would take that as a hint that I wanted to be alone. Sometimes it takes a while for any of the gems to realize that.

I got in the covers and pretended to start dozing off. I waited for what seemed hours, but was probably only a few minutes for Garnet to leave and go into the temple door. I heard the door shut and I sat up. I wish there was I place I could be to myself. A place that I can relax in and be at peace. No such place seemed to exist at the moment.

I felt a tingling and warm sensation on my belly button. It was my gem. I wasn't surprised but I wasn't glad either. Roses room isn't exactly a happy place for me.

I can't resist the temptation to go into the room though and soon enough I was hesitating by the temple door. Inside the room there was bright pink clouds everywhere and in the house there was only darkness. The bright room seemed to be the better option. Maybe it would lighten me up.

I walked inside and soon the dark door opening to the house closed. I jumped at the noise.

"Umm, room?", I feely stupid talking to clouds like I always do."can you do something to make me happy again?"

A dark cloud near me forms into a large shape and eventually into a large woman. I never forgot this form. It was my mother. I waited for her to finish forming and when she came to be she was looking at me unsmiling.

"um, hello again. air don't know why the room showed you again. You don't exactly make me ha-"

I was cut off by my fall. The room Rose pushed me off of a cloud. I fell.

"ahhhh!", It seemed an eternity. I screamed until my lungs burned me of oxygen. I tried to picture where I was and why I couldn't float. It was my stupid emotions! They are always getting in the way.

As I was falling I thought. Why would the room would push me over the ledge. Was death the only way I can be happy? It didn't seem like a logical way to free myself of this internal depression.

Of course, nothing had been able to cheer me up. Maybe this is the only way I can be happy. If my gloom doesn't end soon I would be useless in the world anyways. I just feel like I'm not ready to die yet.

So I think, I concentrate on all the good things life has to bring. I can't think of anything. Nothing in life is worth anything anymore.

I gave up. I gave in to the dark. Soon after I saw the ground of the burning room rush up to me at a terrifying speed.

I hit my head on the cobblestone below. My neck instantly broke. I felt no pain. My body was mangled but still. blood smeared the stones below.

I was free from the dark. Everyone was free from me.