by quelirain
He's sitting there, in the dark.
I watch him.
He knows I'm here, but his silence is to be expected. He is a man of action, not of words, and some things never change. But those things don't matter to him. For him, infinity is a theory, not a measure of the depth of his soul. And because of that, because he's—locked—locked into the temporal—into the mundane, the normal, the average—when I know he is so much more than that—
Because of that, he cannot accept the absolution I represent. The forgiveness of sins. Old made new, dirty made clean, blood-slicked hands washed white, pure once more by the one thing that can save him.
Love.
He knows the truth of what I offer him; he understands what I mean when I whisper in his ear late at night the words "Forever" and "Always." Eternity dances in front of his eyes, wiggling seductively, tempting, promising, telling him he's earned it, he deserves this happiness, although he has killed. Yet not even that can convince him.
What did they take from him? Was it the same thing they took from me? From all of us? For we were Adam, we were Abel, we were Isaac, Joseph... stolen by our fathers, our brothers, and destroyed upon the altar; children, betrayed by those who should have protected us, sacrificed to their warrior God—their God that never comforted us, never tucked us in at night, but made us self-reliant at any cost.
What does it cost him to stay in that corner, his face turned to the juncture of two walls, needing to express and not being able to? Eternally frozen...
It's too hot in here for him. Always has been. Always will be.
I offer him love.
He cannot accept it.
It is a question of justice.
~owari~
AN: The biblical references are as follows:
Adam: the first man; God later casts him and his wife out of
the Garden of Eden for eating the fruit of the Tree of Life.
Abel: Adam's youngest son, killed by his brother Cain.
Isaac: Abraham's only son. God asks Abraham to sacrifice his
son.
Joseph: The youngest of Israel's (formerly known as Jacob) children.
His brothers sell him into Egyptian slavery.
Thanks for reading. R&R!! queli.