Prologue
Today is a sunny day, I'm always happy to sit out in the garden and begin to draw, yes, that's exactly what I do today, painting in the park that is not far from my house. With nimble hands I start sketching what I want, a mother who is breastfeeding her child, I loved my mother, that's why I'm so happy to paint a figure that is always being warm mother to her child.
The wind that blows, and the sound of small children who are playing in the field to further improve the imagination, they sound more distant and more agile fingers finger paint sketches in my imagination at this time in a picture book that is always brought wherever I go, because I always paint in all spare time. When my drawings get close to perfect, I'm getting lost in my world, and I do not want nobody make me stop such perfection.
"Sorry ladies" as if a voice call, but I could not get out of my world, the voices so far.
"Haloooooo" the voice again, and sounds increasingly impatient.
I relent, finally I stop my hand, and force myself out for a while from my almost perfect world. I also look towards the voice, and it turns out he is Edward Cullen, a senior in college, he is known for problems, problems with teachers, problems with women, Edward Cullen = problem. I look at the messy hair, the girls always say it's called sex hair, I do not know what is the related , but what I know, his hair is a mess that makes him physically very very cool, not too sharp jaw and powerful cheeks forming a handsome face it is more manly, powerful, but sexy, straight nose like a medieval nobleman, his thin lips but full of tempting the girls to kiss it long enough, I used to think how do it those lips feel, but it does not happen, even though sometimes I can not help but think about it. And one more thing that makes Edward more than any other man, green eyed zamrud, beautiful eyes, I've heard from a friend dating Edward when they're engaging in sex the girl will not be able to divert his eyes from the eyes of Edward, because that eyes look as if they put a spell on you to worship him, and Edward Cullen has always been to hold the securities to the women who stared at him, including myself who is currently looking at Edward as Robert Pattinson is passing in front of me. But there's one thing I believe, I do recognize Edward Cullen, but it seems like he does not recognize me, and he does not know me, not when he is always surrounded by blonde women who have large breasts and wide hips, which always use tight clothes and use mini skirt as if to allow Edward explore inside that skirt.
"Haloooooo, lady, are you with me?" Ask Edward again, then I realize I've been staring at Edward like a dumb ass, because I am embarrassed I just nod quickly and immediately drop my head.
"This way, young lady ... I ... "It seems he really does not recognize me, he is looking for the address Boulevard Medical clinic." I know the place is around this park, but I can't see that there is a nearby clinic ".Edward said as he looks around
Edward looking for the clinic? What is the matter with him? Come on, surely it's not my problem, while Edward is still looking around, I tear the paper that I draw a picture before and I describe the road map to the clinic behind the picture, and immediately give it to Edward. Edward take it confusely because he does not know what I mean, I want to talk to him, but I seem to lose my voice. When he tries to digest the floor plan that I immediately move away leaving Edward Cullen, when I move away I heard a voice of Edward Cullen calling me, but I just want to go home and go back to my little perfect world, the meeting today with Edward Cullen makes my little world secant tippy and I had to calm it back soon, because there can be no one else who may enter and disturb the perfection of my world.
The benefit of having home near the park is, you can go whenever you want and can come back anytime you want, because the garden can be a distance of about 7-10 minutes from my house. And when I get home I watch TV while trying to re-paint, but unfortunately I could not concentrate at all and I couldn't enter my imagination world today, because the only I could think about is my meeting that has just happened in the park with Edward. I've just noticed Edward Cullen from a far, with all the bad reputation that I should not have a hope can be friends with him.
I was a child without problems and Edward was always full of problems. Mom will not like it when I make friends with people like that. But Edward seemed to always have the magic that can attract women to him, I was never approached him, I just always watch Edward Cullen from a far, admiring him from afar, not just physical arguably above average, but also how full of laughter cheerful, I like to look at him when he was laughing, full of zest for life, things that seemed lost when I was 14 years old, and Edward had never realized I always notice him, I wish I could paint, portray all the passion of his life through every line of his face is perfect .
When I looked at Edward from afar, I always said he was very handsome, but after today I looked at him closely, I realized, that Edward was not only extremely handsome, but he was like an angel, pale white skin and a very handsome face that made him looks like an angel ... ..., as if I was in need of an angel now, because when alone like this I always felt something watching me, I'm afraid, I always keep my self in my little perfect world because it will could hurt me, whereas this world, real world is a word full of people who are hurting me and got me stuck in a life-long trauma.
The sound of creaking doors makes me realize from my own mind, and that's when I see a hand knob door open, someone entered my house, I have goose bumps immediately, a sense of security is suddenly gone, a sense of danger wrap my body, and memories that go back to mind, the person that enter my room, force me to open my shirt, I refuse, but he is more vicious and even pull force to rip my shirt.
"Bella" a voice sounds worried and stops me from the horrible memories, sounds Renne, my mother, it turns out she is opening the door knob, with a worried face she immediately comes up with the frantic "What is it dear?"
Renee is so worried, my fears would just be seen clearly at my face , I quickly shake my head, I know Renne will not believe that I'm okay, I have to look for other reasons
"I had met with senior campus" I said quickly trying to calm myself
"My God, it is the man, did he try to touch you ... ... .. "Renne looks so panic
"I'm fine mom, he just asked me the way"
"Isabella Swan you can not fool your own mother for this, something happened to you before, what it has to do with him?" He was ... ..., the man's face back to haunt me, the face of the devil who ruined my life when I was 14 years ..., And without consciousness, my body starts shaking, I start sobbing and lay weak in the arms of Renne.
"That was when mom opened the door, I suddenly remembered when he entered my room, then ... Then ... .." and I lose my voice and continue with sobbing voice, although the danger is gone, this pain has not go yet, he nonetheless left his mark that was disgusting to me.
"Bella, Bella ... .. "Renne wept with me " Forgive me " Renne, too, cries with me, I do not want to make Renne cry, she was the best mother I have and the only family I have now, I want to calm her, but I can not, because despite all trauma that occurs open fault, not Renne who hurts me, but still my in deep inside my heart, I want to blame Renne, because if she was not acquainted with him, my life will not be destroyed like this, and if just my life is not destroyed, maybe I can be a normal girl and be acquainted with Edward Cullen could even date him, but it did not happen, because I was destined to live without dreams like that anymore.