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Prolog: Nightmare

Scott: 14

John: 12

Virgil: 10

Gordon: 8

Lilly: 6

Alan: 4

Lilly POV

I got off the lift with my older brothers Scott, John and my little Brother Alan with our mom. We head towards the mountain and began to ski down the icy snow. My two of my older brothers Virgil and Gordon were with my dad snow tubing. I heard a rumble from behind me. The boys were head of mom and me. We were half way down the mountain when we stopped to regroup and saw the snow rushing at us.

"Scott, John you boys hold on to Alan and don't let go no matter what, don't worry your father will find us. Lilly hold on to me tightly now I know it is going to be hard but don't let honey we'll be all right" mom yelled as the snow began to reach us.

"Yes mom we'll hold Alan right Johnny" Scott yelled and John nodded as the snow engulfed mom and me.

I was tumbling and fighting to hold on to mom's jacket my hands slipped and I was thrown away from her. Every thing hurt I tried to move but the snow was too heavy. I heard voices and one sounded like my dad, and the others my brothers. I was shaking and falling a sleep. I wanted my mommy and daddy now.

The next thing I remember was waking up in a hospital bed next to Scotty, Johnny, and Allie.

"Daddy?" I croaked.

"Yea I'm right here baby" dad answered softly

"Where's mommy? I want mommy!" I pleaded with tears in my eyes as I began to get up.

"Lilly mommy's gone to be angel. She didn't want to leave all here babies here but she didn't have a choice baby girl, but she is always hear in your heart and she is always watching you." dad said as he laid me back down and started to cry while hugging me.

At mommy's funeral Johnny, Allie and me stood by our selves with grandma. Daddy has been a lot working since mommy died daddy doesn't spend much time with us. Mainly Johnny, Allie, and me, But Scott and Grandma take good care of us.

"Grandma, why doesn't Daddy love Johnny, Allie and me like Scott, Virgil and Gordon," I asked as she tucking me in.

"Oh baby he does love you all the same, it is just hard for daddy right now." Grandma answered as she kissed my head and walked out the door.

Grandma POV.

I walked out of Lilly's room only to be met by Scott's grim face. He was only fourteen and he was doing my son's job.

"Grandma, she is only six and she is picking up on it, Alan can tell too and John he spends most of his nights on the roof now. They are just kids we all are, but Lilly has been having nightmares. When they happen John and I try to calm her down and get her wake up. Grandma this is the worse part she thinks dad blames her for mom's death." Scott told me.

"We should try and tell your father before it gets worse," I told him as we neared Jeff's office. "Son can we come in for a moment?"

"Sure mother" Jeff answered.

"Now son I am worried about your children. I know you miss her, but your children need you as well. Lilly thinks you blame her for Lucy's death, because you avoid her, Alan and John. Alan is four years old and he too thinks you hate him so he runs and runs. Lilly won't stop writing for any one. John spends his nights on the roof." I told him anger dripping from my voice.

"Mom, I can't even… Damn it" Jeff started but then just cried.

I walked out of the room to check on my grandkids only to notice Lilly's and Alan's doors wide open and neither of them in their rooms. I checked with John on the roof and they weren't there.

"Grandma do you think they would go in to the jungle after dad and Scott told them not to." Virgil asked me as Scott came rushing in to the room.

"I can't find them any where grandma. I don't know where else to look." Scott said as tears started to form in his eyes.

"I think I know but, we will need your father to help us. Come on we need to stay together." I said as we reached the door.

"Yes mother," my son said

"Lilly and Alan are missing," I told barely keeping my voice calm.

"They'll come around, they always do," he said as thought to convince himself not me.

"Jefferson Tracy what has gotten into you, two of your children are missing and you just sit there. I told Lilly she was wrong, but maybe I was. I never expected this from you I raised you better" I yelled as I left the room and my son to find my grandchildren.

"John can you watch the little ones, I think Virgil my have had a point when he asked if they would go into the jungle. When I get back we are all going to have a little talk," I told them.

Scott and I headed for the jungle calling out their names as we went. Before we got to far in I heard a little voice.

"Lilly, you can't I need you, we all need you." Alan pleaded.

"It is not the same Allie, because we need dad too, but he won't come near us. When I am round he looks so sad, so I figure if I go dad will be happy again." Lilly cried as Scott reached them.

"Gotcha. You are not going anywhere Lilly." Scott said as he picked them both up. And we headed back to the house.

"Now you children listen to me. I know it is hard and it seems like you see less and less of your father, but things will get better he loved your mother so much. Right now his priorities are messed up. We still have each other and that is important. Raise your hand if Lilly was gone would you Miss and need her," I asked and all the hands went up. "See Lilly Alan was right." and she smiled through her tears.