Gibbs/Ziva fic: Never there

Romance/Hurt/Comfort

T Rating

I WATCHED THE FINALE! OH MY GOD! I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE FRANKS WAS ALIVE! THAT WRETCHED WOMAN IS AT GIBBS SNR'S PLACE! I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY LEFT IT THERE…

I laughed though when Tony and Ziva had to go get him and they were like, 'we are not leaving without Gibbs' then the door opened and he was there I was like 'Oh that was easy' HAHA XD

And that stupid lawyer! It's all her fault this happened! I knew I didn't like her for a reason! Well, my theory has gone and flown out the window… Oh well… No wonder Gibbs invented Rule 13!

And the whole memories of Franks and Shannon, that actually had me going…

Anyway, I thought I'd make this because I thought Ziva looked pretty upset that both Gibbs and Tony weren't there… and she looked so pretty… XD… so here's my take on it…

Set after the Ceremony.

Also this fic is kinda personal to me as I was at my Holy Communion and the sperm donor that happens to be half of who I am didn't show after he swore he would, I was a Daddy's girl back then too, so it meant so much to me for him to come… but he didn't… so channelling all my energies from then to Ziva now XD

I might do a three part thing; I know it's not finished yet, so watch this space XD XD XD

Summary: Ziva is upset that Gibbs wasn't with her during her Citizenship Ceremony, what can he do to make it up to her?

Walking down the basement stairs, Ziva saw Gibbs sanding his boat. He was still in his suit and it was dust covered, he had obviously been sanding for a while. Ziva stood at the bottom and he looked up and immediately, he wished he hadn't. It almost broke his heart there and then to see the disappointment in her eyes. Her jaw was loose and her posture was relaxed, too relaxed. Gibbs put the sander down.

'' Oh, do not stop on my account.'' said Ziva, putting her hands up. Gibbs looked down at the dust covered floor, unable to look at her for the guilt he was feeling. Ziva scoffed.

'' You cannot even look at me.'' said Ziva, a lump forming in her throat, Gibbs looked at her.

'' I'm sor-''

'' No, do not, I do not wish to hear it.'' interrupted Ziva, tears in her eyes. Gibbs set his jaw and watched as Ziva tried to find the words she wanted to say.

'' I know you have been through so much these past few days, with Mexico, the Drug Cartel, Abby, Vance, your family, Franks… but Gibbs, you promised. You promised me you would be there.'' Gibbs felt his heart break when he saw a tear fall down Ziva's cheek, which soon disappeared as she brush it away.

'' I would have, but Hart cam-''

'' She is worth your time, but I am not?'' asked Ziva, her voice wobbling. Gibbs deflated. Ziva screwed up her face and walked over to the stairs.

'' Of all the things you could have missed, you missed the most important thing to me. I worked so hard to be an American… to be like you and you weren't there, like you should have been. It was the first thing I have ever done for myself without having to worry what Eli would think or without worrying how useful it would be in making me an asset. It was for me.'' Gibbs looked at her.

'' Ziver-''

'' You know Eli was never there for me, not even when he promised he would be… Mossad always came first for him-'' Gibbs closed his eyes, he knew what was coming next and to be honest, he deserved it, '' I do not wish to put you into that category Gibbs. I do not wish to put you in any category like that, but I honestly do not know-''

'' Ziver, I wouldn't have missed it on purpose-''

'' But you did! You did not forget, that stupid bitch came and took your attention, you chose her over me!'' Gibbs walked over to her and grabbed her hand and held it in his.

'' It wasn't like that Ziver, if I could turn the clock back-''

'' You would not have killed Hernandez?''

'' No I would gladly kill him again if I could, but I would have pushed past Hart and made my way to you-''

'' Why did you not? In fact, I do not care… what is done is done.'' Gibbs frowned, confused.

'' Just like that?'' Ziva looked at him.

'' Yes, just like us-'' Gibbs dropped her hands in shock they had been together for a while now and things had been going great, until now.

'' Ziver, no…'' Ziva looked at him.

'' I cannot be with a man who cannot keep a simple promise… What is it you said? Do not make a promise unless you can keep it… It seems that you cannot.'' Gibbs shook his head, he couldn't lose her not now.

'' Ziver… please. I'll make it up to you.'' Ziva looked at him.

'' How? Can you turn back time Gibbs?''

'' No, but-''

'' Jethro, I love you I really do, but-'' Ziva couldn't say anymore as Gibbs had pressed his lips to hers, silencing her. Ziva resisted but melted into it and kissed back. They broke apart.

'' That will not get you off the hook Gibbs.'' Gibbs rubbed her nose with his.

'' Dinner-''

'' You are getting there…'' Gibbs rest his forehead on hers.

'' I know it's not much but I want to treat you like the princess you are, worship you.'' Ziva kissed him gently.

'' Like I said, you are getting there. But listen to me when I say, you ever, ever break a promise you have made concerning me I am walking, and I will never look back.'' Gibbs nodded.

'' I understand, i'll always try, Ziver, for you.'' Ziva nodded and rest her head on his chest.

'' Hey.'' She looked at him.

'' You could always say the oath again.'' Ziva snorted, but smiled.

'' I think I actually might, just for you.''