I would die without him. That much was obvious. I needed him around to be my protector and hold me together. If that meant giving up my humanity so be it. I wanted to give him everything else no question so surely letting him end my life and leave me immortal, lead me into a world where I would watch the people I love, humans like dad and Jake, die would be simple enough. I wanted to be with him forever, I had never meant the word so fervently in my life but it was doing it that was the problem. I was a coward. I cringed away from needles and blood and well sharp teeth that pierced the flesh like a needle and the blood that would blossom from the opened vein should, as I was now, repel me.
Yet I wanted to become a vampire.
No, I wanted to be with Edward.
But he was a vampire and being with me as it was, was getting far too dangerous.
I knew one day he would change me and I would be with him forever.
Or else kill me.