DISCALIMER: I own nothing of twilight or the characters involed, just playing with them!

A/N I hope you enjoy this story, be kind if you dont but constuctive gestures are welcome! this chapter contains a little lemon juice not to sour not to sweet!. mature audiences only. lol

Chapter One

Why me?

I sat there as the tension built in my body, instantly feeling as though my muscles would snap from being so tight. Edward took his hand out of mine and placed it around my waist trying to get me to relax.

"Six MONTHS" I screamed, as my outrage could no longer be silenced.

"That's the deal bells" Charlie exclaimed as he relaxed back into his recliner.

My eyes' darted to Edward, and then back to my father "dad you can't be serious!" I said in a tone that was much more controlled. Edward held me tight to his side, as though he was trying to keep me firmly seated on the couch.

"I will agree to give you my blessing for this wedding if you wait six months" Charlie said his eyes were narrowed as he looked at Edward.

My thoughts raced threw my head Graduation was only four months away and I remembered Carlisle's promise after graduation, then the Volturi!, would they come before the six months was up?, I shook my head trying to collect myself.

I knew Edward was going to be no help here, he relished at the thought of me being kept this fragile human another six months, but still I looked at Edward for some sort of an answer that would help with this situation, of which he offered none. He just looked at me with those compassion fill eye's which made my heart race like a horse on the final stretch at the derby,

"Three months" I countered as I turned back to face Charlie with in a pleading tone,

Charlie just pursed his lips together "six months" he said again in a non emotional voice,

I huffed "ok four months"

Charlie leaned forward slowly in his chair as if to be as clear in his decision as possible, "six months Bella."

Edward moved his arm from my waist to my shoulder and whispered in my ear "Bella, it will be fine, it's not that long" Edwards words held no relief for me. I gritted my teeth and stood up abruptly!

"Fine six months" I said and stormed to the front door fumbling with the doorknob as if it was locked. "DAMB DOOR" I exclaimed, kicking it with my foot, at that instant Edward was behind me, he reached around my ridged body, his breath on my cheek, as intoxicating as it ever was. He carefully turned the knob and opened the door,

I took off in a dead sprint down the block "Bella" Edward called after me, but I didn't stop I got to the edge of the block and took the trail at the edge of the forest, I knew he was behind me there was no way to outrun him, he had mentioned that to me before, I weaved my way threw the path huffing out words that… to a sane person would have made me seem otherwise.. I stopped leaning against a large spruce

"Six months! Six months, does he know what can happen in six months! No he doesn't, because he doesn't know anything. He is doing this on purpose! He is trying to drive us apart! But… But I won't let him; I muttered he can't do this to me."

The tears started to overflow in my eyes. I could feel Edwards eye's on me, then felt his hand smooth across my cheek from behind, as if to comfort me, his finger were cool and smooth like silk.

I spun around burying my face in his cold hard chest, He wrapped his arms around me holding me tightly, letting me sob unrelenting tears.

"Bella" he said in a voice so smooth it was almost like a song," he is not trying to hurt you, he is being a father… trying to protect his only daughter, he loves you Bella"

I began to push away from him, but his arms wound tighter around me.

"Bella" Edward sighed, "please my love, please try to understand where Charlie is coming from. He just wants to be sure this is what you want"

I looked up to his face as his grip loosened "I already know what I want Edward, you forever" I spoke with total confidence.

"And you have me Forever and longer" he exclaimed, then pressed his icy lips harshly against mine,

My mind swirled in several different directions in that instant. I forgot about every problem I ever had, all I could think about was Edward. I wrapped my arms around his neck and clutched his hair holding him tight to me, my body sandwiched between his body and the coarse bark of the tree, his coolness sent a shiver down my spine, his kiss was more intense then I had ever felt before.

He lifted me effortlessly under my arms, as I wrapped my legs around his waist, our lips never parted. All of a sudden I noticed his breathing had picked up, his mouth left mine and wandered my cheek, my ear, my neck, my collarbone, back up to my jaw line, his hand was caressing the back of my neck and my breathing became heated and labored, My legs falling from his waist and dangling as if I were a puppet on a string.

I let out a soft moan as his lips found there way back to mine. The tree pressed hard against my back like I was part of it, an extension of it.

But that did not break my focus on Edward, There was a glare in his eye's I had never seen before, a longing to match my own. His kiss was fierce and strong and full of so much passion it would put Shakespeare to shame, his hands moved from my neck to my shoulders his grip tighter then ever.

He ran his fingers slowly from my shoulders to my forearms strongly massaging my skin with his fingers… Then we both heard it like a branch that had been broke by a furious wind "SNAP!" a pain exploded up my right shoulder, and engulfed my mind.

Edward released me in an instant; I let out a cry and clutched my arm.

"OH GOD… BELLA!" Edward shouted,

I slide down the side of the tree scraping my back on the way down now on my knees,

"BELLA!" he gasped, Immediately scooping me up in his arms, He began running through the forest moving so fast everything was a blur, the pain was so intense I couldn't think of anything else but the searing pain, I tried to speak, to tell Edward I was fine but we were moving so fast that the rush of air in my face was making it hard to breath let alone talk, the next thing I heard was Edward calling out Carlisle's name

"Carlisle!..."

My eyes were squeezed shut tightly as if that would some how lessen the pain.

"I THINK I DISLOCATED HER SHOULDER OR MAYBE BROKE A BONE! I DIDN'T MEAN TO!... OH GOD CARLISLE! I HURT HER" Edwards's voice sounded Panicked and exasperated, full of fear and agony.

"Bring her upstairs Edward" Carlisle spoke quickly.

I felt the rush of air again as I was taken to the second floor. The burning in my shoulder had not lessened at all; Edward laid me on his bed so gently. It felt as if I softly floated there, Edward backed away as if he had just been scolded for doing something bad by his mother. I wanted him near me, I reached out my hand and he winced at me, the look on his face was one of terror, and anguish. He looked like someone had taken a baseball bat to his mid torso.

"Edward" I pleaded with my hand, he slowly took a step forward his eye's so full of pain, I could hardly stand to look at him, at that moment Carlisle moved his hand along my shoulder and down my arm examining the damage. The skin began to take on a bluish purple tint; I knew what that meant from years of experience with broken bones.

I let out a large gasp! as he rounded the top of my arm, Edward was at my side at that instant holding my hand and smoothing his fingers along my face.

"Bella I am so sorry please… please forgive me, oh god Bella" Edward pleaded and pressed his head against mine, the pain in his voice was almost more then I could bare.

"Edward!" I said loudly "it's ok! I'm going to be fine..." Trying to sound as confident as I could, in an attempt to ease his guilt.

Carlisle spoke swiftly "we need to get her to the hospital, it is broke, and I need an ex-ray so I can properly set the bone"

Edward winced again at the words Carlisle had just spoken. I suddenly felt another sting in my arm I looked over to my shoulder as Carlisle was removing a needle.

"There Bella, that should help with the pain" Carlisle gave me loving smile.

"Thank you Carlisle" I said as I tried to rise to a sitting position, I was finding it more difficult then I had expected with the pain dulling in my shoulder.

Edward reached his hand around my waist and helped me to sit on the edge of the bed, I noticed a strange difference in the way her was holding me as thought I was made of paper thin glass. I raised my good hand to his face and traced his rigid cheek bone, then smoothing the wrinkle between his furrowed eyes.

I leaned forward to kiss him, it only took him less then a second to throw himself against the wall furthest from me, the wall seemed to groan at the force at which his body slammed into it.

"Edward!" I spoke with confusion and worry that anyone could notice was apparent on my face.

"No Bella, never again" his words were barely audible as he stared out the window next to him

"What do you mean Edward?" my voice becoming frantic.

"Nothing, never mind" he said as he looked up at me and frowned.

Carlisle entered the room again, but I had never noticed he even left, as my whole attention had been on Edward.

"Are you ready Bella, I pulled the car around front?" he asked then looked to Edward

"Are you coming son?" Carlisle asked

Edward was by my side in an instant once again scooping me up gently, he was being so gentle, as not to jostle my arm, it was like we were floating instead of walking, and then a thought had just flashed into my mind, suddenly my whole body tightened. Edward must have noticed this reaction because he immediately looked down.

"What's wrong Bella!?" Edward froze at the bottom of the stairs.

His eye's still so intense and full of guilt and remorse that I had no chance of convincing him that what had happened to my arm was an accident, not even his fault really, I knew what I was doing, I knew how strong he was and what my chances of getting hurt were, and was more then happy to pay that price. But the pain in his face made my heart ache at what I had done.

"Nothing "I replied

"I just don't know what I'm going to tell Charlie?" I explained as Edward continued to the car.

I felt his body stiffen beneath mine; I could see his jaw tighten.

"Maybe you could tell him your vampire fiancé, broke it because he can't control bloodthirsty behavior and he is a weak willed monster!"

Shock spread across my face as he opened the door to the back seat of the car and climbed in to holding me.

"Edward!" I spoke with stress and panic in every facet of my voice.

He stared out the window as we headed for the hospital. I stretched out my hand and place it on his cheek try to turn his face, he shuttered like I was the one who was cold to the touch, I tried to turn his face to look at his eye's, but he would not look at me, it was now his hesitation to look at me that brought tears to my eye's. I cared nothing about my arm, I just wanted his pain to go away, mine would heal eventually, I'm not sure his ever would. His greatest fear had come to pass he had hurt me.

"Edward!" my voice sounding more urgent, his face never shifted position

"Not now Bella lets tend to you" Edward voice seemed almost cold,

Now it was I who felt like a child curling myself into a tighter ball in his arms. We were at the hospital in mutes, Edward exited the car still holding me this time at a distance not close to him like he normally held me, and it set a pang of fear to my heart.

"Why was he acting like this?" I thought to myself, as he carried me more swiftly toward the entrance.

We entered the Emergency room doors the smell hit me like Charlie's cooking not pleasant at all.

I hated the smell of hospitals, the smell of rubbing alcohol, new plastic, and Lysol made my nose burn.

We walked directly to the tech lab and Edward laid me on the table trying to touch as little of me as possible, another blow to my heart.

He backed away to let Carlisle by, so he could get me into a position to take a good picture of my shoulder. My eye's never left Edward, he leaned against the wall with his arms folded, and his fist in tight balls, his knuckles white from the amount of pressure was exerting into his fist. I was startled when the machine exerted a loud clicking noise.

"All done...Well with this part" Carlisle stated and gave a warm comforting smile.

Once again I tried to sit up still having trouble, but this time instead of Edward helping me up it was Carlisle who was helping me. Edward was still standing against the wall, his head tilted up and his eye's were closed, his face had an expression I had never seen before, as if he was battling a war inside him self.

"Edward…" I called my voice beginning to crack.

He is eye's opened slowly and lowered his head to finally look at me, his eye's were cold but then softened as he noticed my reaction to his look, He walked over to me slowly. He gently caressed my hair as Carlisle slipped the x-ray film over the lighted screen to examine the damage to my arm

"It's a clean break should be no problem to set" Carlisle's voice was as soothing as Edwards hands had been.

I watched as Edward tightly closed, his eye's it reminded me of the first time I walked into biology class when I first moved to forks. His expression almost frightening, I frowned trying to understand his behavior, I reached for his hand. For a brief second saw a fear filled expression cross his eye's as if my touch would break him. I drew back my hand and turned my gaze from him.

"What had I done to him" I thought to myself I had never seen him in this much pain, with out a second thought he again lifted me so gently, I seemed to hover over his arms never really touching them. He laid me onto another table with the same gentle effort, Then backed away to lean against the far wall.

I wanted him next to me, to hold me, to feel as I had just an hour earlier before…., before I ripped away the very pride and trust he had in himself, when it came to me and his restraint. I now wondered if he was feeling as though I could never trust him again. I had done that to him, I and my selfish lust for him had destroyed the very creature I loved, I had to fix this, and I would fix it!

"Carlisle can you Take Bella home" Edward asked in a low calm voice, so low that I almost couldn't hear.

"Carlisle nodded".

Before I could protest Edward was gone... I heard tires screeching in the parking lot, and then the sound faded quickly into the distance. It took no time at all for Carlisle to set and tightly wrap my shoulder. I couldn't speak, I just sat there silent, still in shock at his sudden departure.

"He just needs some time Bella" Carlisle held my chin in his hands, so that he was looking into my eyes when he said it," he will be back" Carlisle said with a warming grin. But his eyes told a different story.

My stomach wrenched when he said the words ~he will be back~ …. I nodded approvingly.

"Lets get you home" Carlisle gestured

"What am I going to tell Charlie?" I asked my mind completely blank of thought.

"Well as accident prone as you are Bella, this should not be to difficult" he said with a soft laugh,

"That's true" I said with a hint of a smile, "I will just tell him I fell out of a tree I was climbing, he will believe that wouldn't be the first time" I exclaimed! Carlisle chuckled again.

As we rounded the corner to my house a sense of dread crossed my body, as I wasn't looking forward to the barrage of questions Charlie was going to have for me.

"Bella would you like me to come in with you to talk to Charlie" Carlisle said with a apprehensive tone, then smiled.

"No I got this, not the first time I have come home bandaged" I murmured quietly, giving Carlisle a soft smile, to assure him I was going to be fine.

He gently laid his hand on mine, and spoke "Edward has always been to hard on himself, this shall pass I promise, he will be himself in no time" he tried to put so much assurance in his words I wasn't sure he was talking to me anymore, I nodded and quickly got out of the car and head to the door.

"Here goes nothing" I thought to myself as I turned the knob now regretting my behavior towards Charlie earlier, I took a deep breath and opened the door and took a step in I could hear the TV on in the front room, as I entered the front room Charlie jumped to his feet.

"What the hell Happened Bella!" He shrieked, walking over to me so quickly reminded me of Edwards speed.

"I'm fine dad" trying to sound as convincing as possible, "I just fell from a spruce while trying to get a better look at the reservoir near Edwards house, stupid really! I don't know what I was thinking I lost my grip and fell that's all..."

"Where the hell was Edward when this happened!" he shouted "so much for his vow of keeping you safe!" he huffed

I felt my face grow hot as the blood gathered in my cheeks "Dad don't you dare go there! Edward would die before he LET anything happen to me, besides I wasn't with him, I told him I needed time to cool of so I took a walk.

Charlie took a step back, as if to get a full profiling glance, he raised one eyebrow.

"So what wrong with your arm" His tone lightened

"Clean Break" I said "lucky I guess"

"Lucky huh, Bella that's one thing you have never been" Charlie snickered under his breath,

"Well at least it wasn't your neck, I take it you will be staying out of trees from now on?" He said with a smirk

"Are you in any pain?" Charlie asked as he stroked my face, it made me long for Edward.

"No dad, Carlisle doped me up pretty good..." which was true, then shook my jacket pocket so Charlie could here the pill bottle shake in my pocket.

"I'm all stocked up if I need it" I said with a playful tone.

Charlie kissed my forehead "I'm going to have to get you full body armor if you are going to survive in this world he laughed"

I could feel my anger and resentment building at his mocking of my ability to remain upright on my own, I bit my tongue so I wouldn't give a retort to his teasing.

"Um dad I'm beat I'm going to head to bed" praying that Edward would be there waiting for as he usually was at night.

"But it's only 6:30" Charlie chided

"I know but with all this medication Carlisle said would make me drowsy and I am" I muttered hoping he could not see how anxious I was to get up stairs.

"Ok Night Bells call me if you need anything" he kissed my head one more time went back to his recliner.

I raced up stairs as fast as I could and opened the door to my room, but it was empty. My heart sank in my chest, I walked to the window and only then did I notice that Edwards car was gone from when we had first got here to talk to Charlie about the engagement, a look of confusion crossed my face. If Carlisle had his car which he brought me home in what car was Edward using when he left? I know it was his driving I heard squeal out of the parking lot, did he steal a car?" I thought trying to put the pieces together.

" wouldn't be the first time" remembering Phoenix

Then it dawned on me, Alice must have saw what happened in one of her visions and come to the hospital. Edward must have read her thoughts as she neared and ran out to meet her, they must have known Charlie would wonder how we got to the hospital so he came a retrieved his car, but where was he now, my arms ached to hold him, to have him hold me.

I walked to the edge of my bed and sat staring out the window; I must have been sitting there for what felt like hours, my mind shooting over all the events of the day. When I looked to the clock it read 9:16 pm, still no Edward, I began to shake with worry, I curled up into a ball on my bed and began to cry. I don't remember the point at which I dozed of to sleep.

But there he stood in my dream as perfect as ever, his chiseled frame like that of a European statue, his eyes brightest gold I had ever seen. I ran to wrap my arms around him but to my horror, the closer I got to him the further away he became. He wasn't running from me thought he just seemed to be pulled by an invisible force. He reached for me with a bright smile beckoning me to him.

Again I tried to touch him with no success, then he began to fade from my vision like smoke from a fire that had been dowsed by water "NO" I screamed "EDWARD STAY PLEASE I'M SORRY!" My heart began racing, as I ran through the darkness feeling my hands out for any sign of him, but there was nothing, nothing but black cold night.

I let out a blood curdling scream as I sat up in my bed, my head was drenched with sweat next thing I knew Charlie was hurdling him self through my door his eye's filled with terror as he franticly look around the room expecting to see some intruder threatening my life.

"BELLA!" he gasped the blood had drained from him face.

He saw me sitting at the head of my bed with my arm wrapped around my knees, my face wet with tears, he hurried to my bed and wrapped his arms around me like he used to when I was little, and had had a nightmare. My sobs were unleashed onto his shoulder; my body began to shake as though I was having some sort of fit.

"What is it Bella, what happened?" Charlie asked as he rocked me back and forth in his arms. I couldn't speak; all I could do was cry. When I didn't answer he just stayed with me rocking me and petting the back of my hair. It felt so nice just to be held, but I hated myself for wishing that is was Edward and not Charlie that was holding me so tightly, I straightened up from his arms and apologized for making such a fuss.

"It was just a bad dream dad, I'm sorry I frightened you" I said in a cracked voice

"Do you want to talk about it, might help Bells" Charlie asked in a sympathetic tone

"No dad, I'm fine really" my voice no longer cracking, I leaned away from Charlie, and I laid my head on my pillow, turned to my left side and pulled the covers to the top of my neck.

"Night dad, thanks again" this time using a sleepy tone, although I wasn't the least bit interested in going back to sleep, I didn't want to dream… ever again.

"Night Bella" he shot me a small grin, then shut my door behind him.

I glanced over at my clock, and to my surprise it only read 11:07 pm. A dream that I thought lasted hours lasted only half that. I laid there in the dark thinking of all the ways I could have done some things so different.

My heart began to ache again, I closed my eyes tightly just trying to imagine Edwards arms around me, as the minutes ticked by, they seemed to be punishing me by ticking slower and slower so that the seconds dragged on for minutes, all I could see was Edwards horror struck facial expression, I searched my memories for scene with his smiling face.

The darkness seemed almost inescapable the out of the corner of my eye I saw a subtle movement in the corner of the room.

I sat straight up scanning every inch of my room, as best I could in the dark.

"Did I frighten you love" Edwards voice was as low as a whisper.

There he was standing in the farthest and darkest corner of my room, my first instinct was to run to him and wrap my arm tightly around him, but I resisted thinking of his reaction to my touch earlier that day.

"Edward…" I said as my heart began to pound loud in my ears, I wasn't even sure I had said his name aloud.

He took a step forward into the moonlight from the window, I saw the silhouette of his body, and it made my heart do a summersault in my chest.

"Yes, it's me love" Edwards silky voice sounded almost ruff and horse, like he had spent the last few hours screaming at the top of his lungs.

"I'm sorry I left as I did so quickly, I just needed…" he pause as if restraining himself from saying something he didn't want to.

"I needed to think about some things" his voice more gentle now, a tone I finally recognized.

My body stiffed at once, an odd sense of Déjà vu washed over me, my eyes tightened and he knew immediately what I was thinking

"No Bella wait…" Edward started.

"You promised, you promised me! Never again you said, but your going to aren't you" I hissed.

I jumped to my feet and headed for my closet, the fiery searing pain from my arm was pin prick, compared to the almost fatal pain that was being afflicted to my heart.

"Bella what are you doing?" Edward said as he shot up next to me.

"I'm not giving you the chance this time, I'm leaving! You want to be rid of me so bad, I will be the one to leave for you, the only one I have here is Charlie and he has lived here long before I got here, and he will be fine. But you have brothers and sisters and a mother and father, I will not put them through that again, I saw how it affected them when you left before,… no it wont be my fault this time! I have hurt enough people already I can't handle the weight of it Edward"

I continued to grab things from my closet not really caring what I was grabbing and shoving it into my duffle bag, I turned from my closet to go to my nightstand where I had left my truck keys, but Edward was blocking my way, I did not look at him. I knew if I did it would be all over, all the strength I had gathered to do this would vanish.

I tried to push him out of my way, it was like trying to move a brick wall with your bare hands, I tried to skip around him but he blocked me at every move.

"Edward, stop it!" I muttered in an angry tone.

"Bella…" Edward moaned.

"Edward MOVE!" I said more stern my patience was nearly gone, in a moment I would scream for Charlie.

"No Bella you're not going anywhere!" Edward voice sounded angered by my defiance,

We stood motionless in the middle of my room, he placed is hand on my cheek then cupped my chin, he raised my face to look at his, his eyes were dark and there was a purplish color to his skin under his eyes.

"I'm not leaving either Bella" he said with a simple grin that still made me weak in the knees.

He grabbed the duffle bag from my hand and tossed it gracefully back in to the closet, his eyes never leaving mine.

With one swift motion he swept me up in his arms and laid me back in my bed, he pulled the covers over me and laid himself gently next to me, putting one arm beneath my head. I curled into him, no words could escape my lips, and I softly began to cry. I never wanted this night to end; he began to stoke my face humming my lullaby. Finally I was able to really sleep, no words, no anger, no separation, just peace it was beautiful, he was here, he was not leaving. I threw out all the doubt on whether he was telling me the truth. I was simply living for this moment, a perfect moment, he was in my arms.

A/N i hope you enjoyed reading as much as i enjoyed writing let me know by a review! much more to come!