"Don't blackout, love. We're getting there quickly…"

"Hello… Hello, sir…"

"Keep mumbling, girl. Stay awake."

"The chandelier full of lights…"

"That's it, love. Keep singing…"

"The web of spider just wait to down…"

"Tracer! The HQ gonna blow! There's a detonator under the cliff. You should-"

"Captain? Captain! Said something…"

"Sound of the falling skies has…"

"Shit! Hold on, love! We're going…"

[sounds of rubble falling down to those bodies]

"Wake up, my friend."

Sound of An Omnic waking me up. It's a male Omnic. Something like a Buddhist monk that I once killed 3 years ago…

"You just dying on training again. I'm glad to see you still in one body again."

"I'm sorry, Master Zenyatta…"

"I'm not your master, yet your servant. I'm just an omnic who want to bring the peace and wisdom to you. Remember?" said him, as he whisks a tea for me.

"My apologies. Sometimes my ego wants to leave and died in that way."

"It's caused you can't leave your mistake. Your ego said that it's not you. But you just ignore it and made it worsened."

I drink my tea, while the winds blowing my wet body. Zenyatta looks sympathy to me.

"I thought leaving me in the lake was a good idea."

"That's not your fault, Amelie. The Disturbed Mind does." Said him, He whisking the green tea when I drink the warm tea. "Worse Past and a Good Times memories will make a person become suffered, because you feel comfortable with them. There many side effect in your life if you still use this mindset."

"Example?"

"Someone who pretend to be a hero by vanishing the innocent and heroes for the better future. They invested by their past, bad memories and evil deed after they dumped from their society. People like that are not valuable. They need a peace to bring it back to right path."

"What's a peace for you?" Said me, questioning the meaning of his peace on his statement.

"Peace is when you got the flower between the crowds and bring it to the safest place, whatever its cost."

"Does it sounds wrong, Zenyatta?"

For 5 seconds, he just still.

"It depends your thought. Your inner mind. You must find it. This definition can be changed if you know what's the peace is." Said him as he give me a small cup of Green Tea, again. For my mind and health, he said.

I heard the voice of Zenyatta is really different when he said that. It get heavier that my soul touched me when I heard that quote.

"I know what you feel, Zenyatta. No matter how the people find it, there's no serene in the peace."

"I know, my friend. Mondatta said it to me before I left. Finding what the real peace is." Said him. "We know that world is cruel. But Peace always been the safer result. They forgot that peace is not arrive with calm. The One forgot to make it."

"Yeah, the One. Nirvana is only way you achieve the calm and peace in one place."

"Indeed, my friend. Indeed." Said him.

Then, I just drink his tea again. A bit cold, like the weather.

"I just want you know, you helping me to be a good woman again. Thanks for that, Zenyatta."

It's a time the Villain saved by Heroes. Not killed by them for honor. I remember when I conflicted with my other-self to kill or save a hero called Tracer. I was tried to kill her, but ended to save her, sacrificed many thing that could be impossible to think. I found out that I was locked in the cage of alienation and wicked thing when I was a Widowmaker, the deadly assassin of Talon. I see her dominating my body and becoming me. Sound nasty, but, I saw my body served many men, back when I'm not myself. Killing many good men and women, tortured the innocent and vanishing the hero I once met before, Commandant Ana Amari.

But one day, In Gibraltar Watchpoint, I found myself unwatchable and beat my other self. And decide to save that 'little girl', before the rubbles fall to me and bringing me to the Death. But death said no to me, left a note to clear my mind and kill my other-self. The news said that we found alive on the shore and the Overwatch decide to capture me in coma condition, without any resistance.

Then, Life bring me back to its game. 2 days later, Angela Ziegler, the head field-doctor from Mercy Foundation, saved me. She said that I'm so lucky to still alive and turning to a human again, the mind manipulator device actually attached on my neck and another in my heart. Then, she told me about my condition. I got a mild amnesia, it took 2-3 weeks to reassemble the memories after using the Mind Manipulator device. She also said that, could be the false memories will be reattached again in my mind, because I using that device about 2 years. I get my memories back when she told me a story about me.

She telling me about me, Amelie Guillard. A Shy Little Girl who become a Great Ballerina and Shooting Range Champion on her life. She had a great family, Mr. Joseph Guillard and Mrs. Seydoux Madeleine, great wealth, great friends, great talent and great ambitions.

"Amelie, Let's be honest. Did you ever remember how skillful are you back when you're both a Shooting athlete and Ballerina?"

"I…I…"

"Don't push yourself to remind, it'll hurt you sometime if you still doing it."

"Okay, doctor." Said me. "I once got a good role on The Black Swan in Zurich. And people said that my faithful movement and flavored expression are strengthen the nuances of the show. And, uh, this show also lead me met someone like you. Discussing about health or else. I don't know who she is, but she precisely like you…"

"Really? I don't said you really met me in Zurich?" said her, curiously.

"You said that 'The only good exercise to get a good shape for you is only a small amount of squats or running in the morning light'. Then you give me something like an advice for me because...Is it right?"

"Go on, I'll listening…"

"Because you said that you know me since I married with someone, right?" Ask me. "You seem familiar, actually…"

She's smiling at me and tell me that I'll be normal in a week than she predicted.

I regain my memories from her, my old friend and only friend in rehabilitation. She told me that I was married before I become an evil of myself. He's Gerald LaCroix, the greatest spy and also an espionage master. I thought I was fine with that memories.

But one day, I feel my body and my soul feel not good. I still feel tried to console with my body, but it's refused me and starting hurting myself as a form of refusing. I went to the isolation for 2-3 days until Angela come to me and realized that I need a help, a spiritual help for me.

A month after some rehabilitation and isolation. I met an omnic monk. His name is Zenyatta. Since we met, I learn to focus the present and leave the past. And now, I learned spiritual in his monastery, Hokkaido. It's my 3rd times I've visited him.

Next day, I decide to leave the monastery, go back to my home in Paris. Actually, it's the last day I live in his monastery since Mercy recommend me to learn more meditation and focus in there, a month ago.

"I hope you'll learn more about being a good person, Amelie." Said him as he give me a medallion. A Nepal Prosperity Necklace, he said.

"Thanks for the wisdoms you give to me. I'll learn more."

"Alas, you can visit me again one day."

"I will, Zenyatta." Said me. "Namaste."

I walk to the gate and looking to him again, peaceful as always. Then a man with his cyborg body waves me and said he hoped to see you in other place. I don't know him actually, but his face remind me to someone brother.

I don't know if I can find my peace shortly. There's too many questions that I need to solve.

Like… "Do I need to kill the past, literally?"

Continued to Part 2