How much can one person change your life save you from the darkest place in life? Blair Waldorf was the girl who saved me from myself. some people would think she was the luckiest girl on the planet thinking she need no one to love her she was completely marvels with her poker face but to be honest she was far away from the lucky girl everyone thought she was.

Sometimes in life you just think about yourself and forget those around you. I only thought about me how I was going to get my next lay ,or my money what I could buy anything to forget it all .To forget my father disappointed look when he saw my purple bowties , the pain of my mother death, the new family my group of friends. Truly never stopping to look at him what he need I never once thought of anyone else and to be honest that might never change but as I look around this waiting room I notice I'm not the only one we all over looked him . Bart has the same look as always empty a look that kills as he held lily's hand. All he thought about was bass enterprise and at that time for the family he built but these passed months he over looked him to he was just like me. Lily over looked it also all she thought about was about her crazy life and Serena and me we were more in her eyes of vision she over looked him like he was nothing . Then there was Serena she came later than the rest of us she sat next to me nothing showing in her eyes not a single tear like she was ashamed when all she thought of was herself like me she was the same even thought she had more responsibility then me or Bart. I might even say more than lily she new and she swept it under the rung and she new it, we all knew it we over looked it ignore him and ran from him causing this to happen it's all are fault more than his.

"Eric Van Der woodsen family" a doctor asked

"That's us" Bart spoke up as we all stood up. It was funny how at this moment we truly look blood related we all had the same face Bart always have "your son is fine we were able to control his bleeding he was truly lucky someone found him he c..."

"Could we discuss this some were more privet" Lilly spoke up clearly she did not want this to get out at all .this meant we would be keeping this down key all of us.

"I understand Mrs. Bass, he's in room 152, you may see him he's asleep but we have him under watch " we all know what he meant by watch garbing my coat and giving Serena a small nudge to get her to move we slowly walk to his room together but before we enter the room the doctor stopped us " we will transfer him next week to the center " he said low key Bart and lily shook her there head. As we open the door we saw him Eric had been in the pent house by himself all of summer before now . It was not even one of us to find him not even a close friend or a someone from the usual house keeping it was one of the temporary maids.

" I cant be here , I can't see him like this " Serena said as she ran out of the room Eric was laying in the hospital bed with tons of that machines hooked up to him the worse part were his wrists the bandages of what we caused of what he did because of us . without a word I left to following after Serena too if she could show weakness so could I Bart and lily yelled after us but neither one of us stopped and left a breath out as we reach the elevator " I can't see him like this "so many things lie behind those words and they both knew it . "me either"

As they left the hospital each in their separate ways

1 month later

"Blair" said the nurse in the front desk

"Mrs. Smith "Blair smiled up to her it bin some months since she was last her visiting.

"It's so nice to see you again"

"O yes, my umm father came back into town '" giving her biggest fake smile she owned

"well that's good, I know we all need your help around her you always bring a smile to everyone" Blair nodded her head as she collected the folder the nurse gave her.

as she read and walked down the hall the case file of people she was allowed to visit and need someone to see them " watch it" someone said as they bump in to Blair they were in a hurry all she saw was young man on a phone going off at the person without wasting moment of his time to look or apologias

"He is an example that money can't buy you class "she said under her breath as she picked up the paper he had caused her to drop.

" No Carter I'm pretty sure she got the key still I ask ,yes I know so the usual " smirking in to his phone he got his answer he wanted " then I text you to know if she got them " without a goodbye he end his call and put his phone back in his pants pockets . As he looked at the door with the numbers 110 behind those doors was his brother well step brother, for some time he had been in her Bart and lily decide it was for his best mostly for her best he thought but who was he to judge Serena and chuck ran at the first escape they could. both of them were scared and blamed them self's, they were used to only looking out for them self's they were selfish you could not deny it but he could ignore it and try to make up for it by knocking on the door or just ignore it and leave send him text and some of his favorite candy from main or grow up . All of the sudden the door open

"Are you going to just stand there all day or knock "Eric smiled up to him. Like always Eric seemed the one to help with making a decision. "Hello to you to, Serena" Eric said looking at some one behind. " hey Eric " Serena said we all walked into the room " well this beats the 318" chuck said joking Serena sent him a killing look and Eric just laughed " O yes they have more prescription drugs her then your bathroom " at this we all broke in to laughter . " God, I missed you guys even you're fighting its bin crazy with mom and Bart they think I can break or something can't even go out of this floor ".

"we'll talk to them" Serena send me a look saying we had to do something.

"Anyway you know what tonight is right sis" chuck said changing the subject

"What are you talking about? Truly confused Serena said.

" he means it's the night before school starts , the back to school party ,your cast gets a new club member " Eric said rolling his eyes as he sat on his bed playing with Serena's phone, chuck notice he did not have one phone , TV or computer total solitude.

"Did, you forget"

"No occurs not, it might have slipped my mind

"Sure, thing sis anyway do you ..."

"Still having the pool keys , carter want to know" Eric cut in as he read one of Serena text

"Tell him he doesn't even have to ask all under control "she said to Eric as she played with the doctor equipment in the room." Serena stop that "Eric said

"What I might want to be a doctor"

"Not going to happen "chuck said laughing

" Anyway we picked the new club member"" chuck said smirking as Serena smiled also with a smirk

"I get scared when you guy have that look" Eric said

"Whatever " Serena said as she messed with his hair .

"Any way you're a freshmen this year, you sure you don't want to go "she asked him

" sure Eric your already part of the club any way you're a legacy " he said smirking. " o no I'm already in her we all know you have your on wing , I think I spend a quite night her in the crazy home ".

"hey" Serena said hitting him all Eric did was smile as Serena phone buzz looking down and letting out a sigh "mom looking for us" making eye contact

"You guys better run"

"Eric" Serena said

"What she comes her in half an hour and you have the option to run from her" he said as the started laughing .

"All right but we will be back to tell you everything tomorrow over coffee and donates for you, Begals and éclairs for chuck "as they stood by the door.