Secrets,
By Oriana Rogue
AN: nichiwa minna, I know this sounds weird, but I just had a thought, what if the tamers (03) came before the first and second series'? ken's mom does look a lot like Rika and correct me if I'm wrong, but I think that's Ken's mom's name. go figure. this is my take on what happens, but note, I haven't seen the end of 03 and I can only go on what I've seen.
please excuse my (pathetic attempt at the) use of Japanese terms
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Secrets
(Ken's mom pov)
-authors note: set during the time when ken is the digimon kaiser-
Imagine how surprised I was, cleaning Sam's things just weeks before he was killed, to find something to frighteningly familiar. Amidst all his papers and books, was something so unbelievably similar to the thing that shaped my childhood.
Renemon... my digimon... my friend...
My memory flashed back to when I was the queen of the digimon card game and the stone hearted tamer. I wonder how my Sam came across this piece of history, or maybe it was meant for Ken.
I can feel a tear slipping down my face and brush it aside,
I pushed Sam to be the perfect person I had wanted to be as a kid, I didn't even realize it until I saw the digivice. When Sam died, I without even realizing it, started to do the same to ken.
I had always hated my mother, trying to make me into her, the little model. I'm such a hypocrite, I hated my mother for the same reason the Ken probably hates me. The worst part is, it's all my fault.
I wonder who your digimon is Ken, I pray that you don't ignore your partner as I did mine. I pray that you are a better person than I was as a tamer, that you realize how much your partner means to you before it's almost too late. If I could change my life, change the past. I would have been nicer to Renemon, I would not have pushed Sam the way I did, or you Ken. I would have patched things up with my mother, that you would get to know your grandmother.
I went to check, the digivice is gone. maybe you went to the digiworld with it, maybe that where you disappeared to. Maybe that's where you and Sam used to disappear to when you were little, before you grew to resent him. That's my fault as well, that you two weren't close, that you were merely strangers who happened to live in the same house. I'm sitting at you computer Ken, looking at the screen, I searched the drive for anything concerning "Digimon" I found quite a bit, but I won't look into the files, to find them is enough. I hope your safe Ken, I hope you are happier there than you ever where here. I wish I could talk to you, tell you that I love you, that I miss you. That I could share with you my time in the Digiworld, my time with Renemon.
Renemon, I know I can't be there for him, I'm here, and can't go back there. I know that when he comes back, if he comes... no, he has to come back. He has to. Renemon, watch over him as you did me, silently, as if you weren't even there, as just a shadow. Keep him safe old friend, don't let him tire himself out, try to make sure he stays healthy, and happy. I failed as a mother... twice. I failed as a tamer, I failed as a daughter, I failed as a person.
I promise Ken, that if you come back, I'm going to try to be the mother I should have been a long time ago, I won't push you, I won't make you tell me where you were, even though I already know, if you decide to tell me, I would be glad to share with you my experiences in the digital world. I wish I could have been a better mother. Please Ken, come home.
By Oriana Rogue
AN: nichiwa minna, I know this sounds weird, but I just had a thought, what if the tamers (03) came before the first and second series'? ken's mom does look a lot like Rika and correct me if I'm wrong, but I think that's Ken's mom's name. go figure. this is my take on what happens, but note, I haven't seen the end of 03 and I can only go on what I've seen.
please excuse my (pathetic attempt at the) use of Japanese terms
on w/ the fic:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Secrets
(Ken's mom pov)
-authors note: set during the time when ken is the digimon kaiser-
Imagine how surprised I was, cleaning Sam's things just weeks before he was killed, to find something to frighteningly familiar. Amidst all his papers and books, was something so unbelievably similar to the thing that shaped my childhood.
Renemon... my digimon... my friend...
My memory flashed back to when I was the queen of the digimon card game and the stone hearted tamer. I wonder how my Sam came across this piece of history, or maybe it was meant for Ken.
I can feel a tear slipping down my face and brush it aside,
I pushed Sam to be the perfect person I had wanted to be as a kid, I didn't even realize it until I saw the digivice. When Sam died, I without even realizing it, started to do the same to ken.
I had always hated my mother, trying to make me into her, the little model. I'm such a hypocrite, I hated my mother for the same reason the Ken probably hates me. The worst part is, it's all my fault.
I wonder who your digimon is Ken, I pray that you don't ignore your partner as I did mine. I pray that you are a better person than I was as a tamer, that you realize how much your partner means to you before it's almost too late. If I could change my life, change the past. I would have been nicer to Renemon, I would not have pushed Sam the way I did, or you Ken. I would have patched things up with my mother, that you would get to know your grandmother.
I went to check, the digivice is gone. maybe you went to the digiworld with it, maybe that where you disappeared to. Maybe that's where you and Sam used to disappear to when you were little, before you grew to resent him. That's my fault as well, that you two weren't close, that you were merely strangers who happened to live in the same house. I'm sitting at you computer Ken, looking at the screen, I searched the drive for anything concerning "Digimon" I found quite a bit, but I won't look into the files, to find them is enough. I hope your safe Ken, I hope you are happier there than you ever where here. I wish I could talk to you, tell you that I love you, that I miss you. That I could share with you my time in the Digiworld, my time with Renemon.
Renemon, I know I can't be there for him, I'm here, and can't go back there. I know that when he comes back, if he comes... no, he has to come back. He has to. Renemon, watch over him as you did me, silently, as if you weren't even there, as just a shadow. Keep him safe old friend, don't let him tire himself out, try to make sure he stays healthy, and happy. I failed as a mother... twice. I failed as a tamer, I failed as a daughter, I failed as a person.
I promise Ken, that if you come back, I'm going to try to be the mother I should have been a long time ago, I won't push you, I won't make you tell me where you were, even though I already know, if you decide to tell me, I would be glad to share with you my experiences in the digital world. I wish I could have been a better mother. Please Ken, come home.