Rock
Chapter 1
Kensi was about to fall asleep when she felt it. He moved his fingers. Her head shot up from its place resting on the edge of her partner's bed. She sat up straighter on the plastic chair and froze for a second to see if he really had moved or if it was just her tired brain playing jokes on her.
There it was again. Kensi couldn't help but feel so relieved to see that Deeks was going to wake up soon. She took a deep breath and quickly inspected his covered body again, for the hundredth time since yesterday.
God, he was in a bad shape. Broken ribs, dislocated shoulder, a concussion, cuts made by a dentist's drill on the inside of his mouth and bruises all over his body. She hates seeing her funny and incredibly handsome partner like this, broken and so fragile.
She didn't know when and she certainly didn't like that it happened, but she had fallen in love with her partner. It's a risky situation because it could damage their partnership and she had thought he didn't feel the same way but yesterday was an unexpectedly good surprise.
"Kensi?"
It was so low and Kensi was so lost in thought that she almost didn't hear it, almost.
"Deeks, you're awake. Good" She said getting up from her chair and leaning in front of him so he could see her better.
"You're here" He whispered.
"Of coarse, I wouldn't be anywhere else partner." She said smiling at the phrase he uses way too much. He seemed to get that she was trying to make him smile because he did.
"Kens?"
"Yeah?"
"C-can I have some water?"
"Sure, I'll go look for some. I have to tell the nurse you woke up anyways. I'll be right back." She said while giving his hand a light squeeze before slowly making her way out of her room.
Kensi had been gone for about two minutes when a nurse entered Deeks' room.
"Mr. Deeks! Good, you're awake." The young nurse said when she stepped into the room.
"So I keep hearing" He managed to say.
"That partner of yours was really worried about you. She must be a really good friend." She said while checking on his monitors and writing on his chart.
"I'm hoping she would be more than my friend, but it's complicated." He surprised himself with his words but the nurse didn't seem that surprised at all.
"Nothing is simple Mr. Deeks" She said without a second thought and kept her attention on his chart.
"Please, call me Marty." He said hoping to change the subject.
"I'm nurse Annie, call if you need anything Marty." She said smiling and left the room. As if on cue, Kensi walked in with a bottle of water and a plastic cup. She set it on his small bed table and poured some water into the cup before handing it to him.
Deeks gladly took a sip from his cup because his throat was starting to bother him, but then again, everything was bothering him.
"How are you feeling Deeks?" Kensi asked sitting in the chair again.
"Like crap" He answered trying to sound funny but it was the truth and he saw Kensi nod and look down at her hands that were placed on her lap.
"Hey" He grabbed one of her hands and wrapped his around it. "Kens, I'm ok."
When she raised her head he noticed she looked exhausted and drained, her eyes were red and puffy, her hair was a mess and she hadn't changed at all since the day before.
"I know but Deeks, I'm so sorry I wasn't there to back you up. It was my job and..." She dropped her head again because she couldn't help the tears that were beginning to make their way down her face and she didn't want him to see her like this. She's supposed to be the strong one; he needed her to be strong.
"You were doing your job Kens. You had to go to Michelle, you saved her. I don't blame you for it. I'm actually glad you went with Michelle or we'd both be like this. Besides, you found me." He said swallowing hard at the thought of Kensi looking like this, broken and fragile.
"You remember that? I thought you were unconscious." She raising her head again, not caring he saw her like this. She is a complete mess, there is no hiding it.
"I wasn't, I was just too out of it to actually react." She just smiled weakly and wiped her tears.
"How's Sam?" Deeks suddenly asked remembering his teammate that had also been tortured by Siderov.
"He's good, better than you. Callen's with him because Michelle had to go home for a few hours." She said still wiping her cheeks.
"That's good." Deeks thought. "What's wrong with me anyways?"
"You have a few broken ribs, a dislocated right shoulder, some cuts in your mouth and a concussion" She said tucking a strand of hair behind her ear and dropping her hands on the bed. He immediately grabbed one for comfort.
"God, I am not looking forward to the next month." He said trying to light up the mood but Kensi was still dead serious.
She hadn't thought about it but she realized it was true, Deeks had one hell of a road to recovery in front of him. She got he was trying to make her smile because that's what Deeks does but she just couldn't find a way to. She had almost lost him. When Eric and Nell had called Callen with the address and a task force for reinforcement, she had never expected anything like what they found. They arrived to the warehouse just in time to hear Deeks' screams and that had made her whole body shut down for a complete minute while Callen gave instructions to the task force. When he was done, Kensi got a grip on her emotions and launched herself to the mission.
They had rescued them after all and no one from their side was dead but she will never be able to get the sounds of his screaming out of her head.
"Kens? Kensalina?"
"What? Sorry." She answered, getting pulled from her thoughts.
"You should go home Kens, you need to sleep."
"No, I'm not going anywhere." She said and Deeks saw the determination in her eyes, it will be hard to convince her but he is determined to do it. She's a mess.
"Neither am I. You need to take a shower and sleep for a few hours Kens, you look exhausted." He said making circles with his thumb on the top of her hand.
"Deeks I don't want to leave you alone, you shouldn't be alone." She answered him. She sounded like a little girl that didn't want to leave the park after a few hours.
"I will be fine, I promise. I'll probably be sleeping anyway." He tried once again.
Kensi sighed but realized that what he was saying was true. "Fine, I'll be back in the morning." She said standing up and walking up to him. She leaned down and planted a soft kiss to his cheek. He gave her another reassuring squeeze of her hand before letting go of it.
"Night, Kens" He said when she was opening the door.
"Night, Deeks" She said turning around and sending him a small smile. He watched as she made her way out of his room and down the hallway. He closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep after just a few seconds.
(Play "Stay" by Rihanna)
Kensi made it home in just a few minutes because there was no traffic. It was around eleven and she contemplated making some dinner because she had to admit that she was hungry but then decided against it.
She walked straight into the bathroom, stripped down and stepped into the shower, hot water covering every inch of her body and she was finally able to relax. She didn't cry, she didn't think she had any tears left and she was just so tired that she stuck to the shower. After five minutes she was done and stepped out, hair dripping wet but she felt a lot better. Deeks had been right, she had been in need of a shower.
She dried herself and quickly put on some underwear and an oversized t-shirt and collapsed on the bed. Sleep taking over.
Deeks felt someone come into the room but he thought it was just another nurse. When he felt that someone sit down quietly and gently grab his hand, he realized it was Kensi.
He tried to open his eyes but it will take him a few minutes because the shades were open so the sun had made its way into the room.
"You're here." He said still not able to open his eyes.
"I told you I would be back in the morning." She answered softly. "It's only eight thirty, you should keep sleeping."
He was finally able to open his eyes and meet her beautiful ones. "I would, but I'm hungry. I can't sleep when I'm hungry."
"Nurse said they'll be bringing breakfast over in half an hour."
"Great, can't wait to eat hospital food." He smiled winking at Kensi. That made her chuckle. "You seem to be on a better mood" He said smiling again.
"Yeah, I guess you were right, I just needed some rest." She answered smiling too.
"Good, because the nurse came in to check up on me at the crack of dawn and said they'll probably let me out today."
"Really?" She asked genuinely surprised. "That's great Deeks"
"Yeah, Sam too."
"I'm glad" She smiled.
"Will you take me home?" He asked shyly after a few seconds of comfortable silence.
"Yeah, of coarse. And don't worry about your apartment, Hetty sent Nell to prepare it for when you came home. It's clean and stocked with food."
"She didn't have to do that." He said, mostly to himself.
"You know how Hetty is."
"C- can you do me a favor?" Deeks asked shyly again.
"Sure, what do you need?" She asked willing to do whatever he asked.
"Will you stay with me? I have a spare room. It's just for a few days, I - I just don't think I'll be able to stay alone." He asked her and was surprised when he felt his eyes fill with unshed tears. This was hard for him, he wasn't used to needing someone to help him do everything.
It broke her heart when she saw how hard it was for him to ask for her help, she knows it's not because he doesn't trust her but because he's used to being pretty independent and seeing himself in this situation was probably overwhelming.
She had been worried about leaving Deeks alone too so she was glad he asked her to stay.
"Ok, I'll stay." She said smiling at him, reassuring him that she was there for him. He nodded, still unable to meet her eyes. She brushed her fingers gently against his forehead to push away the locks of blond hair that had made their way in front of his face and she watched as silent tears ran down his cheeks. She wiped them away and stood up leaning down on him again, this time planting a soft but lingering kiss on his forehead.