Disclaimer: Do I need to? TT…I don't own Tsubasa, Sakura or Syaoran.

Warning: Spoilers up to recent chapters.

Summary: Clone Syaoran thinks about what Sakura said to him at the beginning of the journey.

I didn't think Sakura would actually forget me when she first woke up.

"Who are you?"

The crushing words that swiftly glided past her soft pink lips, seemingly the most innocent and harmless thing in all worlds we'd seen. So naïve, so hopeless…Lost in my desperation to see her smile once again, the witch's price was but a question of my undying love.


"Who are you?"

Sakura, I thought I would be able to endure. I thought I could take it, but I can't. Sakura, I can't do it. Every time you regain another feather I wish with all my might, that maybe, just maybe the witch had missed a small glance at me among your scattered memories. Every time you wonder out loud of that mysterious person you can never see, a small part of my heart shatters into the hole you once filled.

"Who are you?"

Sakura, you are my world. You are my heart, and you are my soul. What is the purpose of my existence if you have forgotten me? I peak with joy whenever I find another feather, but for what? When all you'll see is another vision of a voiceless shadow hovering in your face. And so, let me tell you this: It was no coincidence when the real Syaoran's heart left me in Tokyo that day, because as much as I wanted to keep on loving you, I also wished to be free of this rotting curse, of you.

I was so happy.

But fate says no, and I am still stuck with the memories of the body that won't forget. Sakura. What am I to you? What am I supposed to be? Something so easily wiped from your mind by hitsuzen? I was already created with the sole purpose of serving you, to find your feathers and nothing else. Is that not enough for you? You even had to go and enslave my heart? And yet I give it to you…because I love you, and I don't care what becomes of me.

Sakura, Sakura, it's always you. Why can't you let go of me?

I just want to die, is that so much to ask? This is why I let myself become Fei-Wang's puppet, so his reckless orders will one day become my demise. But why? Why did I have to meet you again? Why did you have to step into the path of my insanity and take my place as prisoner of the grim reaper? Just to leave again, with an unfinished confession amongst the fading petals of your dying soul? The soul that you made me murder with my own two hands..

But even after that, you still hold my heart in an inescapable cage.

"I love you."

But who were you to me?

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