Now here's a fic with much ooc-ness! It centers on the point of view of a certain blond-haired guy named Draco Malfoy. I hope you know who the girl he's talking about is…
Hoping for a Chance
By Cerulean Sapphire
Here I am, looking out in the window again…maybe just out of habit…but I guess I should stop this habit of mine. It would just break my now delicate heart…I never knew it was still beating. I thought I had it gone…shunned out of my life. But I guess it was still there, still beating. It was still getting broken when torn apart.
I am still waiting at the window, looking for some signs of fluttering wings or even hoot of an owl. Or maybe even a tapping at the window. But it was hopeless. The impossible won't come.
There wouldn't be any letters for me…today. Or maybe even the next day.
I was just hoping she would write…would reply to the hundreds of letters I had sent day after day.
But then again, there wasn't an answer to any of them.
I was just hoping…hoping that even once she would read the letters I sent her and give me one chance, though I don't deserve it.
No…being miserable here for years won't do me any good…nothing.
So I stood up, hoping…
Maybe if I go out to look for her, I would—would I?
Would I have the chance to find her?
Would I have the chance to talk to her?
Would I have the chance to beg for her forgiveness?
Would I have the chance to tell her I love her?
Would I have the chance to hear her speak once more?
Would I have the chance to smell her fragrance for even one last time?
Would I have the chance to hug and comfort her?
Would God give me another damn chance to amend my wrongdoings?
Would God give me a chance to be happy—even just once?
Would God let me see her?
I just wanted to let her know what I really feel…what I felt for years but hadn't got the courage to tell…Please…let me have that one last chance for everything…
Just one last chance…
Since she was gone—out of my life, I was miserable…my life was never like this before. I was never that wretched. I even pity myself now. Please…I just wanted to tell her what I really feel…then I would be happy…I would be contented with my life…though I don't have my happiness.
Happiness…
Have I ever felt happy?
I guess not, for happiness for me is simply being with her, and it has been years since I had been happy. But I wasn't that real happy for when I'm with her, I never did anything right. I made her cry, sad, and dejected.
I just wanted her to forgive me.
But no…I wouldn't have that opportunity. I know I have been awful to her and her peers…God; I have been awful to everyone.
Since the day I have known I love her, I started to stop doing things to her, but I didn't mind her at all. I shook these feelings away, knowing it would give me a hard time. It would just break my heart—for I know my heart wanted to shout to everyone how I love her, and what I'd do just for her to forgive me…but I couldn't. I know what her reaction would be. She would be shocked, and not ever look at me straight in the eye. Her friends—they would just laugh at me…I, famous for taunting the best out of her, now deeply in love with her…What a fool I am, falling for someone who wouldn't likely love me back—she never will—because I am a stupid, terrible excuse for a man. I never was kind to her—and now look at me—I am madly in love at her yet I couldn't tell her.
God, for years I have feigned a great dislike at her, now I wanted to end this madness. For once, I wanted to be true with my self—with my feelings for her—for the one I most loved.
Please…give me another chance—to prove to her that I have changed for her and as well as for me.
God…let me have this chance…I have found my rightful pair…just give me an opportunity to work things out and everything will be fine…I promise…
Everything will be fine…
Just give me a try…
One last try to find her…
Please…
Ooh…that's the end of it! I don't know if I should continue it, so please, let me know if you like it or not! Review! Oh, and sorry, my mind's kinda joggled up so you might get confused reading this story…just review it ~_~ Thanks!