Author's Note My imagination got struck by Larxene. (Keke, c wut i did thar?)

Disclaimer I obviously don't own.

"Nobody would miss me."

That's not true...I would.

I was the epitome of self-loathing. I waltzed around like I was some important person with a legitimate place to go when in reality; I had no fucking clue what I wanted out of this life. Call it pseudo-rebellion, but I felt like I wanted to go against the grain, to be something out of the norm.

But just what the fuck was I? I was taking up space in this filth ridden world of nothing but selfish creatures whose emotions are nothing but a chemical imbalance. They didn't know anything about truly living. Then again, neither did I.

My life up to now seems to have been a lie. All those friends I thought I had - What were they to me? It was just my mind making up shit to make myself feel less lonely than I already am.

But is that really the case? No, it's not. I sit in the corner, wondering to myself what raindrops look like - The tears of a non-existent being that's supposedly way up in the sky above. I just wanted to fit in. I wanted someone to have that chemical imbalance towards me, I want someone's mind to make shit up about me so they felt less lonely.

I want someone who understands me that I can wallow in self-misery with together. I can't take this daily fucking routine. I need to get out, to experience world, to...live. Roxas is gone, he's fucking gone. He's not coming back.

They let him get swallowed up and nobody bats an eyelash. Do they not realize...

Void of a heart, and real feelings, but he made me feel. He's gone. What's left to really do with this pitiful fucking life? I have no reason to exist - He was my reason to exist. I need to be with him, I need to feel again.

I never rushed into battle before this, I knew what I was doing. I was running into my death, I was committing suicide by playing the hero. The moment I felt my imaginary life disappear from my veins, there was only one thing on my mind - I get to see Roxas again.

I remember my arm lifting, my eyes glazed over and only seeing those beautiful blue eyes I had missed so much, "He was the only one I liked."

"He made me feel...like I had a heart."

I closed my eyes tightly, desperately hoping that when I opened them, I'd see him one more time. Just one more time. Slowly, I raised the lids.

Thank you whatever fucking Deity is watching over me.

Those cerulean orbs stared down at me, tears in their eyes, "You're stupid." He said.

"No," I couldn't help but laugh, my hand reaching to caress the side of his face; a mere dream that I've been having ever since he left, "I just love you."