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Tired of Pretending
It was cold when the plane landed in Dayton; she got her luggage and walked towards the meeting area buried in her own thoughts the entire time, once there she sat down and waited, until she saw those familiar figures waving and smiling, she returned the smile but the joy didn't reach her eyes, her dads could see the fear in them, the worry, the shame, the regret and the pain. It was the first time, in the almost three years now, she´d come home, she felt stronger , she felt ready( ok that was a lie, she felt terrified)but ready or not it was time to make everything right again. The ride back to home, her dads asking her about Chicago and college her apartment , her dating life (totally nonexistent, she couldn't date another boy after having HIM), her mind was in another place , her mind was wondering what would happen once she face a certain tall brown eyed boy.
He pulled up the zip of his jacket protecting himself from the cold. The snow was everywhere and the house was quiet, Kurt was asleep, his mom and Burt too, leaving him alone in the front porch just thinking. He knew she would be there in a couple hours, all loud and pushy, nothing weird coming from Coleen that's why he got up early after tossing in bed all night , this was his time, the few moments of the day when he could just relax and let his mind to drift off ... to her. Things have been hard, he´s still hurt, but she never left his mind or his heart she's always there in everything he did, everything he listened to, all around him but then he has to get back to reality he has to get back to Coleen. Coleen was sort of a nice girl, he didn´t want to be alone but she just wasn't her. The phone rang startling him from his thoughts about a certain petite brunette.
-Hello?
-Hi Finn, is Kurt around?- Blaine's uneasy voice said from the other end.
- He's asleep, but wait I have to wake him up anyway so hang on.-
He ran upstairs and knocked on Kurt's room, he opened the door to find his brother half awake trying to sit in his bed.
-Dude, Blaine's on the phone- He handed over the phone and waited
- Hello? What is it? Wait calm down babe I can't understand a single thing- Kurt's eyes went really wide- WHAT? You've got to be kidding me…-Then he realized Finn was still in the room, leaned against the door frame. Kurt put the phone to his shoulder a minute, and Finn was able to hear Blaine going on a rant about something, he was clearly freaking out.
-You think you could give us a minute? He's really upset about something-
-Sure, is everything ok?
-Yeah, he needs to get it out of his system
-Alright, I'm going to get started on breakfast-
-Good. I'll be down on a sec to help you.
Finn disappeared from his brother's room leaving him alone so he could talk to his boyfriend, he had no idea that what they were talking about totally concerned him.
Back in his room Kurt was trying to keep his voice down but the information he just received was too much to process in silence.
-You know for sure she's back?
-I'm telling you babe, when my parents went to pick my sister up from the airport, they saw her , they told me that they saw a friend of mine, short loud brunette with two dads ? That's Rachel for sure.-
-Oh God. I have to see her, what do I do ? Should I tell him ?, I just can't believe she's here.
- Look sweetie I know you want to tell him so bad, because you know well we all know that they're dying without each other, but I really think you should wait until you see her , what if she's not ready to see Finn ?
-You're probably right love, I need to see her , I need to talk to her.-
- I get you Kurt just wait , I want to see her too. She needs time…-
- Yeah, Got to go gorgeous, talk to you later, Love you.
-Alright sexy , love you, see you soon.-
Kurt put the phone down, and sighed , he knew he real reason why Rachel left, he'd been keeping the secret all this time from everyone even Blaine. He, Mercedes and Santana were the only ones who knew the real story, all of them have had a really hard time keeping the secret, especially from Finn, when he looked so devastated that they really thought they were going to lose him. It hadn't been easy but they managed to get him by, he finally looked like he had moved on. Except for Blaine and Kurt , who always talk to him , and knew it was just an image Finn put on for everyone else, but not with them he could be himself with them, they allowed him to grieve, to cry and be mad , when everyone else even Puck, Artie and Sam who pressured him to get back into dating. But that image was crashing, when Finn started dating Coleen (or that Fugly bitch as Mercedes and Brittany like to call her) It became obvious to at least all the close friends that Finn hadn't forgot Rachel, But it was also clear for those kept in touch with Rachel, she wasn't over Finn also, as much as she tried to deny it. She was just as in love as three years ago. But she'd decided to leave and she had to pretend to be just fine without Finn, even though it killed her inside she had to convince everyone she was free and alright. But she didn't fool him or Mercedes neither Blaine believed her, they knew better. After making sure Blaine made Mercedes aware of the situation, he went downstairs to help his brother to make breakfast, while trying not to explode and tell him the truth right then and then.
Oh boy , this was going to be interesting.