Better to Have Loved, a star wars fanfic

Better To Have Loved:
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Better To Have Loved...
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If the sun went down tomorrow and it never came back
And the city went quiet and we fade to black
Well I won't have a single regret
And I wouldn't trade a thing
Cause I never knew I could feel what I feel inside of me

Bastila still missed Revan. It had been three years since he left, mysteriously picking up and leaving. To fight some menace in the Unknown. Leaving her all alone on Coruscant with the remaining Jedi.

But she never regretted a moment with him. The world could end, she could die, anything with no misgivings about their love. Something like they shared was too good to regret even a moment.

Better to have loved than never loved at all
Better to have dreamed than never taken the fall
Better to have loved you and let you in than never to have touched your skin

Nothing they had shared was worth being a 'true' Jedi for. Even falling to the dark side was better than ignorance, just to have him save her. Feeling how freeing emotions were, even if she was scorned by the Jedi after, was better than to have never touched him.

Better to have hurt and screamed and cried
Fall into the earth for a trip to the sky
Better to have loved
You

Even the pain of his leaving:

The bed they had always shared; empty. The meditation chamber; vacant. Even searching through the bond she could barely feel him. He was repressing it.

A slight ripple through the bond, and she ran in horror. There the Ebon Hawk climbed to the atmosphere, taking off, Revan at the controls, without her. A slight wave and a wordless pulse of love through the Force bond, then away he flew.

Better to have Loved:
I knew all the time I was taking a chance
When I stand there on the edge of the cliff and no one was holding my hand

"I took a chance loving you," she whispered for the trillionth time. "It was a dare but each second was worth more than the universe, just to be with you."

Well the wind blew strong and the clouds rolled in and I, I felt us lift off the ground
Yes I bared my soul and I dared to go knowing one day you might let me down

"I regret no moment we spent together," came the tear filled murmur. "I only regret the moments I spent away from you, I didn't know I was wasting our little time together."

Better to have loved than never loved at all
Better to have dreamed than never taken the fall
Better to have loved you and let you in than never to have touched your skin
Better to have hurt and screamed and cried
Fall into the earth for a trip to the sky
Better to have loved
You

Carth's strong arms restrained her sob racked body. He left her, left his friends, left the Republic. They knew the reasons but that didn't dampen the pain.

Bastila's only consolation was T3-M4, the little utility droid. She had known Revan would leave, he felt (physically and in the Force) tense. The little droid would watch out for her beloved.

I gave you everything but to have said goodbye

"I didn't even get to say goodbye," she sobbed. "Why Revan? I loved you, we were happy. I love you."

Bastila worked tirelessly to rebuild the republic, concealed herself during the purge, and in the end left for the Unknown regions to follow Revan, her Forcebonded lover.