My sweet, brave boy.
How I wish I could
hold you in my arms again,
sing you one more lullaby,
tell you I love you.
Why
Was I tortured?
Wasn't I allowed to raise you?
Wasn't I allowed to live my life?
I have
Watched you grow into an amazing man,
Seen the pain in your eyes when you see your father and I
Seen the longing you feel to have your parents..
This is a fate worse than death,
To be here,
Yet not here.
Day after day,
Year after year.
I want to
Pull you into a hug
Show you that even though I'm mentally gone,
I'm still here, and I love you…
If only there was a way…
Take this gum wrapper, my sweet
Let it convey all my feelings.
Let it show you that I'm here….
Let it be the light in the dismal darkness.
Just know I will always be here, my love.
Silently watching as you grow from a sweet scared little boy,
Into a man full of courage, virtue and bravery.
I am so proud of you,
And I hope you are proud of me, too.