Title: He Wishes Death
Disclaimer: Me no own, You no sue.
Warning: Yaoi
Note: Takes place during the second major fight between Sasuke and Naruto.
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The anger swells and now you know why the villagers always look at you the way they do. You are a monster. It's as plain as day and you feel like a fool for being blind to it for so long. You also now know how much you really hate him. Hate him because of what he's doing to Sasuke, hate him for what he's doing to your head, hate him because it all fuckin' hurts so much.
A thousand birds start to sing and you can feel the evil inside of you roar and demand to be let loose. But you don't listen; only smile and lower your hands.
"Do you really want to kill me?" you ask him, you have to know.
Sasuke hesitates and the birds stop singing. And then he answers-
"No, I don't want to kill you," his voice doesn't crack, "I need to kill you."
-and the Evil inside you cackles and you feel as if your entire being were ready to shatter, to break into a million pieces.
"Okay," you interlock your fingers behind your head and laugh despite the tears.
Sasuke smiles sadistically and you realize now that you've been cornered and you're not quite sure how you feel about that.
He hesitates again.
Your breath intermingles with his, you smell candy.
Sasuke raises his hand and the birds start to sing again.
His lips brush against your own, so softly that you wonder if you'd just imagined it.
"I'm sorry, Naruto."
A whine escapes the back of your throat and suddenly you feel his hands all over your body and his lips on your throat, nipping and sucking.
"No," the tears are faster as you slowly shake your head. "No, you're not."
You sometimes wonder how far the two of you would've gone if Kakashi hadn't shown up.
There's more pain than before and you wonder when all the wonderful things in your life had gone awry.
You dream that night of Sasuke's hands and Sasuke's tongue and Sasuke's eyes.
The pain doesn't end right away and you hate the fox's regenerative powers and his incessant will to live and how you just want to die because that's what Sasuke wants and you've never wanted to deny him anything. But then there's another blow to your head and darkness swarms across your vision.
So you dream.
Dream that same dream from the day Sasuke first dared to touch you.
You never see Sasuke's tears as he wails over your body.
You never see the Evil that he becomes or how different the future would've been if only you had kept fighting.
It's okay though, because you know that, while you drift in a dark abyss now, Sasuke will return to you and that it's only a matter of time.
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