A/N: This contains spoilers for 4x05. This was essentially written as a reaction to the promo for 4x06, so instead of having more Dybo sex, we have Bo and him talking about something that really should have been addressed a long time ago. I promise this is Doccubus.

Bo collapsed onto the sofa, she was exhausted, it had been a long day, the party, finding out there was no way for her to get out of joining the Dark. At least not until she found out who this Rainer person was, and when she did find him he would owe her a very long explanation, a very good long one, that with any luck did not end with his head chopped off.

Bo shook her head, why was she thinking like that, why was she always thinking like that? Bo sighed. She felt the couch sink under the weight of someone else; Bo shifted her head and caught sight of the familiar black hair, Kenzi.

"What's with the long face BoBo?" Bo sighed and let her head loll back against the couch. Where did she even start, finding out that she had "joined" the Dark, despite not remembering signing the papers, finding out her grandfather was the acting Ash? No, it was Lauren. As per usual it was Lauren.

"Lauren." Bo sighed and turned her head towards Kenzi. She could see her best friend suddenly sitting up, her back much more rigid then it had been a second ago.

"Did Dyson find something? Is she alright?"

"No and Yes. Dyson didn't find her, the Dark did. The Morrigan has her and apparently Lauren likes it with her." Bo sighed and shook her head. "I don't get it. I don't get why she would chose them over me, over us, over her family. I just don't get it."

"Slow down there Wondersnatch. I think you skipped to the end of the end credits. Why don't you try rewinding and tell Aunt Kenzi the story from the beginning."

"Aunt Kenzi, really?" Bo said while she laughed, before sighing again. Where did she start? The moment the Morrigan pulled her aside to talk? The moment she saw Lauren walking across the graveyard? That beautiful black dress and how it hugged her curves… Bo sighed and threw her head back against the couch cushion. Not everything was about sex! Although at times it sure as hell seemed that way.

"You know when Tamsin drank that drink and she started to choke and you pulled her aside. Well the Morrigan came up to me and pulled me away to talk, tried to convince me that the Dark wasn't all bad, that I'm just like them. Anyways she pulled me outside to talk about Vex and then told me that she wanted to prove how good a friend she was, and then boom! There was Lauren walking across a graveyard barefoot, wearing the most spectacular dress. And Kenz… in that moment I swear everything else melted away, it was like the entire world stop existing, and it was just her and I. It was like something that had been missing had righted itself, a hollow feeling was filled. She looked like an angel. I was so glad to see her; so glad to see she was safe, everything else just faded away. I swear I could hear my heart singing."

She could see Kenzi rolling her eyes. "BoBo, I love you. I will do anything for you, but please spare me the mushy details."

Bo laughed "Sorry Kenz. Anyways when she reached me, we pretty much right away went somewhere private. I… we were meant to talk, but…"

"To quote Vex "You went for the smash up clam derby" instead didn't you." Bo smiled before nodding a little.

"Yeah, yeah we did. And it was amazing. It wasn't how it usually was…" Bo looked over at Kenzi when she heard gagging noises. Bo rolled her eyes before continuing. "Anyways the Morrigan interrupted us and then asked us to go run down Vex, Lauren came along, and we were going to talk…"

"But you go interrupted again." Bo smiled and shook her head.

"Yes, by a Scavenger dressed in a dress a shade of pink that would have made Pepto Bismal go running for the hills. She got herself 'injured'" Bo said with air quotes around the word. She heard Kenzi giggle a little. "So Lauren stayed behind with her, while I went to go pay Vex a visit, he was hiding out in Dyson's apartment as it turns out, I got drugged by something that was meant for him. Spent a few hours rambling in bed about Lauren while paralyzed, got a sock shoved into my mouth, he told me a few useful things as well as his tragic backstory and then he cut his hand off, the Una Mens did something to it"

She heard Kenzi inhale sharply, "Is Vex okay?" Bo nodded. She didn't want to say it out loud but he was somewhere he would be safe.

"I took his hand back to the Morrigan and demanded to see her archivist, someone Vex told me about. It turns out that I signed a pledge to the Dark, but I don't remember doing it, my sponsor is some guy named Rainer. If I can find him then I can find out if there is someway for me to undo this."

"We'll find him BoBo, we'll find someway to undo this." Bo sighed and smiled at Kenzi.

"Thank-you. All of that bothers me, but the worst part was the conversation I had with Lauren afterwards. I asked her if she wanted to come back here, to take a bath together to wash away the dirt and deceit, to just come home with me. She asked if I meant to the light Fae. I guess there must have been a disconnect somewhere, I though that after the sex and the necklace and everything else that we might be back together, or at least on the way. But then she drops the bomb and says that she's with the dark now. They came looking for her, put her through some kind of test." She could feel Kenzi's eyes on her.

Bo took another deep breath before continuing. "She says, that with them she feels free, that she is with them on her own terms. The Light never bothered to look for her, but the Dark offered her protection. I don't understand Kenz… I don't understand why she won't let me protect her, why she won't let me fight for her…"

She heard Kenzi take a deep breath. "You offered to claim her didn't you." Bo glanced over at Kenzi's face; there was an unreadable expression on her face.

"Of course I did. I'll do anything I need to protect her, you know that. But she doesn't want me too, I don't understand, there's something wrong here. I don't get it…"

Bo could hear Kenzi sigh, before she felt a hand come to rest on her shoulder. Bo lifted her head from where it was resting on the pillow, sitting up to face her best friend. "Bo. You used to say that nobody owned Lauren, but did you hear what you just said? You would claim her if you had too. Above all else it sounds like Lauren wants to be free; I can understand that, she was enslaved to the Light for five years. You may forget it a lot of the time but to other Fae I'm just your pet. I mean nothing, you do own me in their eyes Bo, even if it's not like that in your head, that's what it's like for them."

"This is just a guess but I don't think Lauren wants to be owned by you, I think she wants to be able to make her own choices. The Lauren your describing is different from the one we knew, it sounds like she's finally standing up for what she wants and what she needs to do. You don't know why the break was called do you?" Bo shook her head, she still didn't understand why; Lauren had never offered an explanation beyond that she was unhappy.

"This is just a crazy though, but maybe she doesn't want to have to worry about Dyson anymore, maybe she doesn't want to be last in your life. Maybe she needs some time to rediscover herself, I can't even begin to imagine what five years of slavery would do her. But it probably messed her up really badly, and on top of that she lost Nadia, and after all of that, after she has a single moment of happiness, she thought she finally got the girl. Then you did what you did with Dyson and then you chi-suck her to save him, and afterwards, the look you gave him, it didn't exactly scream platonic."

Bo began to add more then to her list. She had lied to Lauren about where she was, she had brought other people to Lauren's apartment, she had kissed other people, she had ignored her girlfriend and made her the last priority in her life when she should have been her first. She had focused on herself far too much, she had been selfish has hell. Not only had she cheated, and even if it was healing she still had some emotion connection to him, she had cheated with the worst possible person. Then there was Tamsin, whatever was going on with her in her past life.

"I was a horrible girlfriend." Bo finally said out loud, admitting it to herself and to Kenzi.

"BoBo…"

"No I was. I cheated on her, more then once, with more then one person, I'm not talking about my feedings either, I lied to her, I was a selfish bitch half of the time. Not to mention that when I went home I brought you, don't get me wrong I loved having you along, but that was something that Lauren should have been with me for. There are so many I should have… so many I could haves. I don't even know where to start."

"Not to mention the whole mess with Dyson and Tamsin. I don't even know when the love triangle turned into a quadrilateral. I mean, how did Tamsin even fall in love with me! Well the her, in her previous life cycle did." Bo looked over to see Kenzi staring at her wide-eyed.

"Lil T was in love with you! Holy shit. When… How did this happen?" Bo sighed and shook her head.

"By the time I found out the thing with Taft had already started going down. Let's just say that she was drunk, I was in the bath, and she climbed into the bathtub with me, fully clothed, and told me that I was perfect. She didn't exactly say that she loved me, but it was kinda obvious." She saw Kenzi stare at her with the same wide-eyes before she took a breath.

"Whoa, sorry. I just have a bit of a hard time putting the Tamsin we knew with Lil T. I mean they're so different. So is, was, Tamsin an option?"

Bo shook her head. "No. I mean, I think she's amazing and I admire her, but no. I never loved her, there might have been some attraction but… it's long gone. Trust me, Lil T is to much like my annoying little sister now for me to ever consider her like that…" Bo sighed and shook her head. "I don't know what to do now…"

"Bo I'm going to say something, and it may not be something you like to hear, but do you think it's maybe time to make a choice? I mean between Lauren and Dyson, both of them have their feelings for you, but at this point aren't you just stringing them along? If you keep doing this all you're going to end up with is a bunch of broken hearts. This has been going on for years Bo, I was never going to say anything, but… it's time for the Ping-Pong game to end. And if you're not ready then just walk away and take some time and figure out what you want to do, because it is starting to get ridiculous."

Bo sighed and shook her head. As much as she wanted to say the choice was hard, as much as she wanted to say she needed to take some time, she didn't need to, and it wasn't. It was Lauren, it had always been Lauren, and it would always be Lauren. She loved Dyson, she had been in love with him at one point, but overtime the feelings had faded. When he had lost his love, she'd had to let her feelings fade and go away.

When she found out that Dyson had his love back it had been from Kenzi, her had never bothered to tell her, and when he did he told her that he would wait for her and Lauren to be done. He wanted to wait until Lauren died. The thought alone sent a chill down her heart, she wasn't sure she would be able to survive the loose of Lauren, the loose of Kenzi.

She had been sleeping with him again, but really she had just been angry and sad about loosing Lauren. She had been worried about her. Dyson was nothing more then a convenient source to feed her hunger, and to heal from. Oh God, something was wrong with her. She never would have thought of the people who love her and whom she loves in return like this.

Bo shook her head. She needed to talk with Trick about this, she needed to talk with someone about this. Something was wrong very wrong with her.

"Bo?" She could feel Kenzi poke her in the side.

"Sorry Kenz. I just got lost in thought." Bo shook her head before laughing a little and smiling. "You know, you're right. Seeing Lauren, seeing again her today, it just confirmed what I already knew. She's it Kenzi. She's my choice, she has been for a long time.

"You know what I said to her when we got together? 'It's time' there was more I wanted to add though, that I never told her. 'I don't care what you are. I just need you to be mine.' I wanted to say that to her again today. She said that because she's human and I'm Fae… " Bo took a breath blinking back tears. It was not the time for her to be crying, she had caused this mess. It was up to her to fix it. "But I don't care. I don't care that we're of different species, I don't care that the law says we're forbidden. I just want her, I want her to be mine, I want her to be my girlfriend, my partner, and eventually my wife. I want a family with her, I want kids and the white picket fence, I want it all, but I only want it with her. After I found out I was a succubus, I thought I would have t give up on the dream, but being with her, I realized that it was possible again. I want to be the one that she turns to when she's had a bad day, I want to sit through the conferences and award ceremonies where I have no idea what they're talking about half the time, I want to be able to point to her and say she's my partner. I want to be her support, I want her to know that she's safe with me, I want to be hers just as much as I want her to be mine."

Bo took another breath. "But if she needs space and she needs time I understand. I think I need it too. I need to look back on my life and make some changes. I need to grow up a little. I need to show her that I want her, and that she's the only one I want. She needs time to heal herself, to pick herself back up I understand that, and I will give her all the time she needs. I can wait, because she is worth it." Bo allowed her head to flop back against the couch.

"BoBo… I… you… I'm proud of you."

"Thanks Kenz. I think I know the first step in all of this. Dyson and I need to have a conversation that we should have had a very, very long time ago. If I want to show Lauren that I'm committed, that I'm willing to change, to become a little better, that I'm willing to grow up. I need to start following her rule again 'No Dyson', we should have talked more about my feeding" Bo found herself murmuring as she shook her head. "I owe him this much. I owe him closure; I owe him the chance to move on with his life, to find someone that can make him happy, that can actually return his feelings without the specter of another person looming over them. And I owe Lauren the knowledge that I have chosen her, and that I am willing to commit to her with no regrets. Your right, it's time for the triangle to go to bed, it should have been broken a long time ago."

Having the conversation with Dyson probably wouldn't change anything with Lauren, but it would give both herself and Dyson some closure on their relationship, hopefully allow it to settle into a proper friendship. If not, then it would at least allow them both to move on, whether it be painful for her or not, she had made her choice, she had made it a long time ago. She also needed to step back and take some time, to look back over their relationship. Her own actions with Lauren, as well as Lauren's actions with her, see if she could find out what needed to change, what she could do to change it.

She and Lauren also needed to settle down and talk, they needed to actually talk without jumping each other. They needed to talk about the break, about Taft, about Karen. It would be a long talk, it would more then likely involve some screaming and some tears, but it needed to happen. Even if it scared the shit out of her, she couldn't run from it, she couldn't run from commitment anymore. If she wanted to show Lauren she wanted the relationship she needed to make some changes, and one of the biggest ones was she needed to be more willing to communicate with Lauren, her wants and her needs, she couldn't lie to her anymore, she couldn't spare her feelings, especially if it was something that effected them either as individuals or as a couple.

Kenzi was also right about Lauren's freedom. It was time that she started to fight for it again, it was time she started to fight for the freedom of all humans, because Kenzi was right. To other Fae she owned Kenzi, or Kenzi was just her pet. They were wrong, they were so wrong, but that was still how it was perceived. She could fight to change that; she could try her absolute best to change them.

She could start by freeing Lauren, by fighting for her true freedom. Bo's heart ached to know that Lauren had resigned herself to a cage; that she had given up hope of ever being truly free. She had once told Lauren that nobody owned her, and it was time for her to start to fight for that again. She could not give up this time, she didn't know what conditions the dark were actually holding Lauren under, but it was more then likely much more then what she had said.

Bo sighed and shook her head, no she would have to allow Lauren to free herself, she would simply be there to help and support her every step of the way, in whatever way Lauren needed her. Just like she should have been from the beginning, just like she hoped to one day be able to do again.

Her train of thought was broken when she felt her phone vibrate against her thigh. She reached into her pocket and pulled the phone out. She could feel Kenzi's eyes on her.

She glanced down at the screen, it was a text from Dyson. It simply read:

I'm sorry I couldn't find anything. I'm coming home.

Bo sighed before unlocking the phone and pressing the little text button to reply to it.

Can you come over in the morning?

A few moments after she sent the text she felt her phone vibrate again. Bo looked down and quickly read the reply.

Do you want me to come over tonight? I can be there soon.

Bo sighed before texting back a quick reply

If you're sure. We need to talk.

A moment later her phone vibrated

I'll be there soon.

Just how close was Dyson? Bo sat herself up on the couch a little, she would need to prepare herself for this conversation, it would be a hard one, but is was one that they should have had a long time ago.

"It was Dyson. He texted me to let me know that he couldn't find anything, not that it surprises me, I guess I forgot to tell him that Lauren was back." Bo took a breath and glanced over at Kenzi, she had a look on her face.

"He's coming back?"

"Yeah. I asked him to come over when he got back, he said he would be here soon. He must have been traveling for a little while if he was close to our place."

"Are you sure it's a good idea to do it tonight? After he's been traveling and searching for Lauren all this time? Are you sure you don't want to sleep on this?"

"I don't think he's that far away from here, he was looking along one specific highway that wasn't to far from here. And as much as I would like to, sleeping on it won't change anything, my mind was made up a long time ago."

Bo could hear Kenzi snort a little. "The other day when you found that file you're mind sure didn't seem made up, you seemed to doubt that Lauren loved you, you thought your relationship had been built on a lie."

Bo shook her head before smiling. "I found a necklace when I was going through Lauren's desk drawer, it was while I was waiting for you to come back. She had gotten me a beautiful necklace, but what struck me the most was the note." Bo sighed a little as the memory came back.

"It said 'For giving me the freedom to love. And I do. Forever.' So no, I don't doubt Lauren's feelings for me, not after something like that. Lauren wouldn't write that to be romantic, she was never one for grand gestures, but this, the note. It spoke more to me then anything else. She loves me, and I can't doubt that now, not after I saw the note, not after what was on the necklace."

Bo smiled a little. "It was a ring. A plain simple silver ring, but I think I know what it meant. The ring is an unbroken circle, it means forever, or eternity. She actually had forever carved on the inside of it. That spoke volumes more then she could have ever said to me, to reassure me. She loves me, and in some small way I gave her back some freedom. I was so stupid to offer to claim her, the note said 'For giving me the freedom.' I helped to set her free, even a little, and if I try to claim her, it would destroy that. I would destroy any chance of an equal partnership that we could form. I would destroy any chance we have at a healthy relationship, and going into it our chances are already low."

She looked over at Kenzi who seemed to have some tears in her eyes, a small grin on her face. "That's sort of beautiful, who knew that the Doc could be so romantic."

Bo smiled a little in response. She wished she could have brought the necklace with her, but after the Gargoyle attack she had left it behind, she had put the necklace and not back in their respective places and left them behind. It was meant as a gift for her and she wanted Lauren to be the one to give it to her, even if she had already seen in, it would probably mean even more if Lauren were to give it to her.

Bo could feel Kenzi reach over and squeeze her knee. "For the record, I may be team Dyson, but I'm glad you're doing what makes you happy. I see the way you and the Doc look at each other, its as if everyone else fades away and the only two people left are you guys. It's sweet and sickly at the same time. And I'm proud of you, for finally starting to realize, for finally starting to grow up a little. Anyways try to keep the volume to a min, we still have Lil T in the house and Bruce has been through a lot, they both need there rest." Bo nodded before reaching over to squeeze Kenzi's shoulder.

"You're the best friend a succubus could ask for. Thank-you for calling me on my bullshit, for finally pushing me in the direction I needed to go."

Bo sat on the couch, fidgeting slightly; she had gotten a text from Dyson a few minutes ago saying that he would be there very soon. It was soon after she and Kenzi had finished talking, she was right, he must have been close after all.

Bo sighed as she glanced down at the phone again. How was she going to do this? How was she going to break this person's heart. She knew that Dyson was willing to wait, but that's not how she wanted their relationship to function, that's not how she wanted her relationship with Lauren to go. She didn't want to get with Dyson after Lauren died, she didn't want someone pinning after her for another 40, 50, 60 years, that was insane and crazy. And she added lifespan to the many things that she and Lauren needed to talk about.

Bo shook her head before smiling slightly, the more she thought about things the more things got added to the list of 'we need to talk about this'. Her feedings, Taft, Karen, the break, and now apparently lifespan were at the top of the list. Oh don't forget about Nadia, and apparently something had happened between the time Lauren ran away and being found by the Dark. The ever-expanding list keeps getting longer and longer, well wasn't that what ever-expanding meant. Bo laughed a little at her own thoughts.

The secret to any relationship is trust, understanding, and compromise. She remember Lauren saying to her, Bo smiled slightly at the memory before adding,Yes and communication, lots and lots of communication. Especially given the nature of their relationship, communication definitely needed to be added to that list, perhaps it needed to be first on the list.

Dyson and Tamsin. Another two things that needed to be discussed, although hopefully the talk with Dyson would deal with most of the former, and well Tamsin… Tamsin would have to be dealt with if she fell in love with her again or got her memories back and was still in love with her. But right now Tamsin was like a little kid in a grown body, there wasn't much to worry about.

A knock at her door interrupted her thoughts. Bo stood up, talking a deep breath, before she walked over to the door and opened it.

Dyson stood there with a smirk on his face. Bo could see him reaching out to her, most likely to pull her into a hug and to kiss her. Bo quickly backed out of range, as much as she would like to hug him, to tell him that she was glad he was okay, she couldn't do it right now, it could be taken the wrong way.

"Bo?" She looked over at Dyson's face, her looked confused.

"Are you hurt? Why didn't you tell me, I would have gotten here sooner? Or are you hungry?" Bo shook her head. No she wasn't. Her meal this morning and what she'd had with Lauren this afternoon, she was fine. More then fine actually.

"I'm fine Dyson." Bo broke eye contact for a moment before looking him back at him. "Do you want to come in? I meant what I said in my text. There's some stuff we need to talk about."

She could see Dyson smile at her a little before he reached out to grab her hand. She quickly pulled it out of his reach and started to walk over to the couch, she took a quick glance back and saw the frown that was marring Dyson's features. Bo took a small breath and steeled herself. This was a talk that they should have had a very, very long time ago. It needed to be done.

Bo quickly sat down on the couch before she gestured to the cushion across from her. She could feel Dyson sitting down next to her. She could feel him reaching out and attempting to pull her close, Bo quickly lifted her hand up. It was different from when she was with Lauren, normally when they sat together on a couch they would end up cuddling within a few minutes, and it felt natural, to hold and be held. Bo sighed before looking over at Dyson.

"What's going on Bo? You're acting strangely. Did something happen while I was away?"

"I'm not acting strangely Dyson, I just don't want to be held right now. I wasn't kidding when I said that we needed to talk. I saw Lauren today." She could here Dyson's quick intake of breath, she looked over at him, he looked like he was attempting to control his anger, or perhaps his possessiveness.

"Is she alright?" His voice sounded neutral, but there was a hint of genuine concern there.

"She's about as well as can be expected. She got taken by the Dark, actually that's another thing I need to tell you. I'm Dark Fae now, the Una Mens chose a side for me, apparently my blood is dark." She could see Dyson fighting the impulse to reach over and grab her hand.

"We'll find a way to undo it Bo. I'll do whatever it takes." She could see his hand reaching out for her, she gently reached out to grab it and put it back down at his side before letting it go.

"Dyson… thank-you. But that isn't the reason that I asked to to come here. We need to talk, about us." She could see Dyson starting to smile again. Her heart hurt a little at the thought that she would have to break that smile in a few moments, but it needed to be done, this needed to be done if she ever had any hope of a future with the woman she loved.

"Bo…" She cut Dyson off.

"When you gave up your love, you hurt me. You hurt me in ways that I don't think you could fully understand."

"But I have my love back now Bo. There's nothing stopping us from being together. There's no reason for you to hurt anymore. If you want we can be together again, or if you want me to wait, I can. I'll always be here Bo." She could feel him trying to take her hand in his own, she gently pulled it away.

"That's the thing Dyson. You have your love back and that's amazing and good for you. You were a huge jerk without it, but the thing is, when you lost it I had to let you go. I had to move on, we'll not move on really, it was more of having to forgive. You know that I'm in love with Lauren."

"And I said I was willing to wait."

"But that's the thing Dyson. I don't want you pinning after me for the next hundred years, its not some grand romantic gesture, its pathetic. I want you to be happy, and I want to be happy. No… I'm doing this wrong."

Bo took a deep breath. "I haven't been fair to you. I haven't been fair to Lauren. I've been playing with both your hearts, I've been bouncing back and forth between you two, when one hurts me, I run to the other. I can't keep doing that, I can't keep bouncing back and forth when I know who I want to be with and its time I show them that I want to be with them. It's time for this triangle to go to bed. "

She turned to face Dyson, she could see a look of confusion on his face. More then likely trying to figure out what she meant. "I love you, but I am in love with Lauren. She's the one who makes my heart sing, she's the one who makes me feel so much more, she makes me feel human again. I don't know how or when this happened but at some point she became my everything."

"Lauren's human, and your Fae Bo, she can't sustain you. She'll be dead in 70 years at best. "

"You don't think I don't know that. You don't think I'm aware that every time I have to feed from someone else her heart breaks a little more, I'm well aware of that. It breaks my heart too. I wish she could be enough for me, I wish she could sustain me alone, but she can't in that one sense. In every other way she is enough, she's the light to my darkness, she's the anchor to my humanity Dyson. Her love, I wish it was enough, because it filled me with joy I can't describe when I had her heart, but I don't anymore, so instead I want to fight for her, I want to show her that we're worth it, that she's worth it, because without her, without her I become less then what I could be."

"What about the dawning, when we we're in your dawning we we're married, we were going to start a family. We lived the perfect life.

Bo took a breath and looked over at Dyson. "When we we're in the dawning it may have been you who was with me physically but do you realize that you took on Lauren's personality? You were a doctor, you were a nerd, you were so much like she was, except it was you physically. I think if you hadn't been with me that day that it would have been Lauren I was married to, who I was having a kid with. Lauren took on your personality, and the fact that she gave up her love for me. It sent a message loud and clear, it was Lauren I wanted, the real Lauren. You know that she was what I was always looking for in a life partner? Her intelligence, her kindness, her warmth, her ability to be so caring and compassionate , even her odd sense of humour. They were what I was looking for in a partner, and when her personality transferred to you, the dawning sent that message loud and clear. She is who I want, she was what I wanted in my life partner."

"Bo. She's human and you're Fae. You're relationship is illegal, at best you'll get punished severely and Lauren will be executed. Do you really want to risk that? Do you really want to be with a human? They're gone in the blink of an eye."

"She's worth the risk. I love her too much to not fight for her. As for the laws, they're outdated, they're archaic, they need to change. I swear sometimes it amazes me how backwards the Fae are, for you guys love is blind to gender and race, but not to species. That makes no sense! And Dyson let's not even get started on the fact that you kept the fact that Lauren was missing from me after we got back, and the fact that you seemed to have never mentioned to Lauren that I was missing to begin with. I don't know how she found out but it wasn't from you. You knew that we we're on break, but she's still technically my girlfriend just as much as I'm still technically hers. That means we have a right to know if the other is in danger. You shouldn't have kept the information from her Dyson, she had a right to know, more of a right then you did actually."

Bo sighed and shook her head. She wasn't sure if this was actually the case, if they were actually on break or if they really and truly had broken up. Lauren still gave no indication either way, although the fact that she was even willing to talk was a good sign. Bo sighed and shook her head. She needed to focus on the present.

"What about the fact that we've been sleeping together, what about the fact that we technically got married." Bo shook her head, her came the part where she took blame and as for the Jumbee well… Dyson had the story backwards.

"I was using you. I was angry and hurt that Lauren ran without saying good-bye. I was sad and worried about her. I need a distraction and you were there, I needed someone I could trust to feed off of and you were there. I was being selfish I was being so selfish. I was essentially using you to try and fuck my pain away about Lauren. You were little more then a food source, and for that I'm sorry."

"As for the Jumbee's story? You have no idea how much her and Nicholas mirror me and Lauren. A human in love with a Fae, doesn't run when they find out what she is. They stay. Did you know that Nicholas took the bullet for her that day? They both died by the same bullet. They were a tragic couple, but they were soulmates. Lauren had taken the proverbial bullet for me… she had risked her life to help me gain control; she risked her life to bring me back when I lost control over my powers when I was starting to devolve. I wasn't kidding about Lauren being my anchor, my tie to this world. Her voice, her talking to me is what allowed me to come back that day, it was what induced me to fight for control."

She could feel Dyson standing up, starting to pace in front of her. "You're saying that you don't love me. That you want the human doctor. I don't understand. I'm Fae. I can sustain you. I love you and I thought you loved me. You used me and manipulated me. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say… Bo I need some time. I need some time to think about all of this. But I have to ask, are you sure? Because if you are, if this is what you want…"

Bo sighed before nodding her head slowly, the words tumbling out of her mouth. "I want her Dyson. I want the family, I want the kids, I want the dream I thought I had to give up on. I want her to be my girlfriend, my partner, I want her to be my wife. I want to proclaim to the world that she's my love. I don't want to hide and I don't want to run. I want her and I want to fight for her. Like I said before, I loved you at one time, but not anymore. I'm in love with Lauren and we may be going through a rough patch, we may never stand a chance together again, but I sure as hell won't give up on her without a long ass struggle because she's worth it. And part of this was we both needed to close this chapter of our lives, I couldn't leave it hanging anymore. You'll always be my friend, and at one point you were my lover, but now I can finally let you go fully. I can finally make up my mind, I can finally make a choice and stand-bye it, because for once in my life I'm sure of something. I'm sure that I'm in love with Lauren Lewis, I'm sure that I love her from the depths of my heart, and I'm sure that I love her unconditionally."

She could feel Dyson's eyes on her for a moment before he stepped back and started walking through the door. "Okay Bo. Okay. I… give me some time." Bo sighed and looked away as she could hear the door opening and closing.

Bo allowed herself to fall back against the couch, she was drained and exhausted, but she felt relieved. Relief that she had told Dyson that she didn't want them anymore, relief that he was finally, finally going to give up. He would no longer be the specter hanging over her relationship with Lauren.

This may have only been the first step, this may have only been one step forward, but it was a start. It was time she fought for her love, it was time that she showed her that things could be different this time. It was time for words to become actions; it was time that she showed Lauren how much she meant to her.

No Dyson and no Tamsin would be good places to start. She would need to grow up in her actions and her words, demonstrate that she only wanted Lauren that she had chosen Lauren. Trying to get Lauren and her into the same room without interruption so that they could have that long, long talk they needed to have without interruption and without jumping each other. To support Lauren in whatever way she needed, whether that be by leaving her alone or being at her side. She would have to let Lauren dictate when they got back together, if they got back together, she was the one who had called the break, she was the one to call it off.

Bo smiled a little as she allowed herself to drift into a light slumber on the couch. She would fight for Lauren and her to have another chance and to have another day. She wouldn't give up on them without a fight, even if she had to got against the entire world to do it. When they talked the first thing she would do it tell Lauren Lewis everything she had told Kenzi and Dyson tonight.

If they ever got back together the first thing they were doing was taking a bath, and then she was not going to let Lauren go for a very, very long time. She had some growing up to do first, she had some growing pains to undergo, but it would be worth it again if she got the chance to hold Lauren again, tell her she loved her.

It would be worth it if she could be Lauren's again.