Tsubasa: Shadows

WARNING Contains spoilers and yaoi!

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Disclaimer: Do I really have to say this? I am not CLAMP. You made me admit it. One day…

Rating may go up is asked.

Set just after Acid Tokyo pre Infinity

Ok lets get this story started!

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Fai lowered his head as he walked slowly down the hallway from his room to the kitchen.

The group of travelers had arrived, as usual, in a new world, but now everything was different. The Syaoran they knew was gone and replaced by another, and Fai had realized how close he was getting to his companions. He couldn't let them get any closer, Fai had to push them away.

He had to hate all of them.

He had to push away his true feelings.

Otherwise…they would get hurt.

Fai would try his best to prevent anyone else from being harmed because of him.

But…he was too weak. Fai couldn't bring himself to hate Sakura, and Kurogane refused to be pushed away.

Now that Fai depended on Kurogane for survival he couldn't exactly get away from the ninja.

If only Fai died in Acid Tokyo, then the magic in Syaoran's…no Fai's eye would die.

Fai found his head drift up to where his eyes used to be, but as usual, he only found the worn, black patch.

Before in any world Fai had always worn blue and white clothes, but after…Fai's eye was eaten by…Syaoran…he had always worn black. Even now, in this country called Ammka, Fai wore a black T-shirt with black jeans.

Fai was near the door of the kitchen, but before he opened it he took a deep breath and prepared to meet the rest of the group. It was strange being around a look-alike of someone who ate you eye, and that ninja will probably pester him about drinking.

Fai didn't ask for Kurogane to save him! He didn't want to drink Kurogane's blood to live! Hell, he didn't even want to live! But Kurogane couldn't grant him his simplest wish!

Discarding these thoughts from his mind for the moment Fai opened the door and walked into the kitchen. Sakura was at the stove making eggs. She was alone in the room so everyone else must have been in the dining room.

Hearing the door, Sakura turned around smiling brightly and said, "Good morning Fai-san! H-how are you feeling?"

Fai froze and the fake smile he had plastered onto hi face fell. Fai bent his head letting his blonde hair cover his eye knowing that Sakura referred to his recent vampirism and loss of eye. Soon as his ever-present mask slipped, it was snapped back on and Fai raised his head beaming at Sakura and lied, "I'm fine Sakura-chan. Don't you worry about me."

Sakura's eyes flashed and Fai knew that she knew he was lying, but she nodded, accepting the lie as usual, and turned back to her eggs.

Fai turned away and went back the way he had come, he didn't want to meet the other right now.

As he walked back to his room he heard the voices of Luke, their host, and Mokona.

Luke had been fascinated with Mokona from the start and the wizard was sure that Luke's curiosity in Mokona was the only reason that he let them stay.

Even now Fai could hear Luke asking Mokona questions, "What is that red gem on your forehead? Why are your eyes always closed? How can you see with them like that? How can you talk? Are you sure your not a robot? Are you boy or girl?"

"Mokona is Mokona!" chirruped the little white bunny-thing obviously not understanding half of the things that Luke said to it

Luke, who wasn't satisfied with Mokona's answer fired more questions which Mokona answered in the same way.

The voices faded as the vampire moved further down the hallway, headed toward his room.

"Oi Mage!"

Fai mentally cursed when he heard that ninja behind him. The vampire began to walk faster, wanting to get away from his "E."

Kurogane grabbed Fai's arm and said again, "Oi! Mage!"

Fai mentally cursed again realizing that he would have to face the ninja. "Yes, Kurogane? Asked Fai coldly, flashing his fake smile.

Fai noticed that Kurogane flinched when Fai said his full name. The wizard wondered why Kurogane would care. "You haven't eaten in two days.

Fai narrowed his eye, knowing it was true, and looked into Kurogane's blood-red eyes. Seeing those eyes made Fai feel a flash of blood lust. He hated this! He didn't want the blood but his senses made him feel this lust to drink Kurogane dry, but Fai forced himself to calm down. If he willingly drank it would make Kurogane think that he had won and that Fai had accepted hi fate, which he certainly hadn't. "So?"

"So…drink," said Kurogane using a small, silver knife to cut his wrist.

Fai glared at Kurogane, letting him know that this wasn't his wish, and stepped forward lowering his mouth to the wound licking the blood away. To Fai the blood was like a steak to a starving man; a glass of water to a man in a desert, but it was horrible to him at the same time. Fai didn't want to live off of others! Also, he didn't want to hurt Kurogane because…

NO!

NO! Fai couldn't let those thoughts surface! He had to ignore them! Fai pulled away from Kurogane feeling disgusted with himself.

Kurogane looked over at Fai and said, "You didn't take as much as you did other times…"

Fai glared at Kurogane angrily, and Kurogane gave him a this-wasn't-over-look before turning back towards the kitchen to the others.

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"Mage, the rest of us are getting ready to look for the feather. You coming?" asked Kurogane opening the door to Fai's room.

Fai turned away from the window he was gazing out of and muttered, "Yeah."

"Do you need to eat more?" asked the ninja.

"No. I'm fine," said Fai walking briskly past Kurogane.

Fai heard the ninja following him as the wizard set a swift pace towards the front door of Luke's house.

Quickly Fai and Kurogane arrived at the door where the rest of the group waited. The group moved out the door bidding farewell to Luke, who fired a few more questions at Mokona before wishing them all luck in their search for Sakura's feathers.

"Mokona, do you sense any feathers?" asked Syaoran.

The little white bunny, who sat in Sakura's hands, angled its ears and hummed for a few seconds. Then it said, "Mokona isn't sure, but Mokona feels a tiny presence in that direction." Mokona angled its ears towards the part of the city that Luke said festered more crime.

"Of course," growled Kurogane griping his sword as he lead the way.

The group entered the area made up of dark alleys on a high alert preparing for a battle.

Fai's attention slipped though as he heard a familiar voice inside his head, "Can Fai hear Chii?"

Fai closed his eye to respond, "I'm here Chii." Fai listened closely for an answer, but received none. A single tear fell out of the corner of his closed eye. So now Chii was dead too…

Fai was thrown out of his thoughts as he heard a scream.

Sakura!

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