A/N Hey people, well this is the sequel to Nightmares.
Wishes
Chapter 1
Wishes Never Come True
I felt two arms circle my waist, pulling me close against its hard body. I smiled as I placed my hands over his while staring into the baby's crib. I felt him nuzzle my neck and then I turned up to him.
"Jackson." I whispered and he lifted his head up from my neck. He placed a soft kiss upon my lips and then pulled me backward toward the bed. He put me on his lap and smiled once at me.
I looked back at the crib as Jackson kissed my cheek. "How's our baby?" He asked and laced his fingers with mine.
"You saw her, she's sleeping." I softly replied and leaned my head against his shoulder. I snuggled deeper into him as I kissed his neck. His hand around my waist tightened and he turned his head to kiss me.
I placed my hand on the back of his neck and smiled into the kiss. His thumbs circling the back of my hand as he places soft and small kisses on my skin.
He gave me one last kiss and soon we parted with smiles on both of our faces.
"I love you." I whispered and soon his smile was replaced with a frown.
"No you don't." He whispered back. He shook his head and released his hand fro my own.
"What?" I asked as I sat there completely confused with what he was saying.
He continued to shake his head. "You love Oliver. That's your baby with him." He said and I got up from his lap.
I gazed at him, completely confused at what was happening.
"This is not right you-" I started but soon was cut off from him.
"You broke your promise and didn't keep with us staying we were before. You don't love me, you love Oliver. "He got up from the bed and placed one last kiss upon my lips.
"I love you, but you forgot me." He said and soon walked out of the room.
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I shot up from my bed and soon realized that it was a dream.
It had to be a dream, I mean nothing like that happens in real life and I guess it has to do with me missing Jackson again. I've been having the same dream for a while and it really hurts whenever it comes to the end.
I love Jackson, but I'm with Oliver. I know I broke that promise between me and Jackson and it's hard for me already.
Everything seems to be coming in as dreams and I realized that not all dreams come true.
I shook my head and then realized that my baby was crying. I stood up from my bed and made my way toward the crib as I picked up my baby girl, Lauren Ann Truscott. I went back toward the bed as I slowly rocked my arms from left to right, trying to get her to calm down.
I gave birth to her on Thursday, February 14, 2008, Valentines Day. So many memories on this particular date and yeah, if I were to still be with Jackson, we would've been together for a full year, but I'm not with Jackson, I'm with Oliver.
Anyway, while giving birth to Lauren, I was given the option to give her up for adoption, but I couldn't. The moment I laid eyes on her and held her in my arms, I knew I wanted to keep her. My parents and Oliver's parents weren't too pleased with my decision, but Oliver too wanted to keep her which shocked me the most. I thought he wanted to follow his parent's decision until he said that he couldn't let go of a baby. Our parents agreed and so here we are now with Lauren.
It's been about 3 months since she was born so my little girl is almost 13 weeks old and she's getting big. I'm home schooled for the rest of the term since I have to take care about the baby and it's really hard on me. My teacher gives so much work and it's so irritating because I want to spend time with Lauren, but I have to do my work.
I stared down at Lauren once she finally stopped crying. She just seemed so perfect, but it still affected me that she wasn't a planned baby.
I sighed deeply and looked up. At the door, there stood Oliver with a side grin spread among his face. Ever since Lauren was born, Oliver and I held an innocent and pure relationship. We've gotten really close, but not close enough for me to actually love him romantically. I'm still in love with Jackson and I can't let go of him. Jackson's my first and only love and that's all I want. None of my feelings for Jackson subsided even if I'm not with him and somewhat with Oliver. I just want him back is all.
"Hey you." He said as he stepped into my room. His room. Our room.
"Hey." I softly replied and looked down at Lauren. She was taking another nap by now and I smiled.
He walked over toward me and sat down next to me on the bed. "How is she?" He asked as he placed his head on my shoulder and looked down at Lauren with me.
"She's great."
He smiled. "It's amazing how she looks almost exactly like you."
"She is our baby; she has to take looks from the prettier person." I joked and put my head on Oliver's.
"Well, I'm happy she came out that way. She's beautiful, just like her mom." He grinned and I felt his hand just behind me.
I felt a blush creep toward my cheeks. "Anyway, how was school?" I asked, trying to change the subject. The only person who has ever called me beautiful when I didn't want to look pretty was Jackson and I wanted it to stay that way. It's just weird being this close to Oliver.
He sighed and lightly shook his head. "It's hard."
I looked up at him and smiled. "You're almost out for summer, just one more week until it's over."
"Yeah, but still… finals and projects. It's like that for every single class. I hardly have time to stay home now because I'm either finishing a project or at work." He sighed once again. "Anyway, everyone misses you at school. They can't wait to see you next year." He stated.
"And the next thing I know, people are going to call me slut here and there." I replied.
"Don't say that." He rubbed my back. "There are other people in school who have babies and do you see other people calling them sluts? All of us want you to walk with us at graduation."
"Okay, okay. I have three months to think about it, just drop the subject, please?" I told him. He kissed my cheek and went back to staring at Lauren.
I missed school a lot since I started being home schooled. It was the only thing I could do, I mean my mom and Oliver's parents suggest that I do it which I didn't mind. It was a lot harder than I realized it would be and I wish I as back at school, but I'm just afraid of people talking behind my back about me, Oliver, and Lauren.
I haven't kept in contact with anyone except Oliver and Miley of course. Not even my skater friends or my cheerleading friends. Wow, I'm 100 percent most likely off the cheerleading squad anyway; I don't even know why I tried.
I lifted my head from Oliver's and got up from the bed.
"You want to hold her?" I asked him and he nodded.
"Yeah."
I gently placed her in her father's arms and Oliver stiffly sat there while he slowly rocked her.
I crossed my arms and stared at the two.
Oliver's acting responsible and doing whatever to help support what we have now. I'm happy with what he's doing, but I just feel utterly confused. Why stay with me when he knows I'm still in love with Jackson? I know he still has feelings for Miley but its still makes me wonder how long it will take him until he finally realizes that from the beginning that this isn't right. Sure I love him, but that love isn't as strong as the one I had with Jackson.
Jackson…
I sighed and continued to watch Oliver and Lauren as he settled down and kissed her forehead.
I shook my head.
Oliver's here and Jackson's in college. I have a baby with Oliver, but I can't forget Jackson. My life has been so confusing ever since I started dating Jackson and now that I'm with Oliver, it makes it even more screwed up.
I just wished that there was an easier way to put this.
My dreams came true when I got together with Jackson.
My nightmares came true when Jackson left me for college and I got pregnant with Oliver's baby.
And even if I wish Jackson is with me right now, my wishes will never come true.
Wishes never come true so all I have to do is stay here and watch days go by wondering how it would be like if Jackson was with me and Lauren was really his baby.
A/N There you go. Hope you liked this chapter; it was so hard to write. Anyway, thanks for reading. Sorry if it sucks, there were so many possible ways it could start so it was really hard for me.