Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.

Author Notes: I wrote this right after I read the fifth book last summer, and figured I'd post it here. The story is written like journal entries from different people's point of view. It's not the best thing I've ever written, but tell me what you think.

The After Math

Harry

Everything is different now and yet nothing is. I still get up, eat, and sleep but now that Sirius is dead everything has changed. When I wake up I wish that I hadn't. I'm never hungry anymore, but the worst part is sleeping. I see his death over and over again every night until I want to scream. I know this is my entire fault, if I had only listened to Hermione. She knew it was a bad idea to go and try and rescue Sirius. I think Uncle Vernon likes me better like this. I don't talk anymore or defend myself when Dudley makes fun of me. I guess I deserve it. Everybody I ever get close to gets hurt or killed. My parents were killed because of a prophecy made about me. Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Neville, and Luna all were injured because they followed me. And Sirius, he died because of my stupidity. He gave me a magically mirror so I could talk to him any time I needed to, but I forgot. If I had just checked in the mirror I would have never been tricked by that treacherous house-elf. I would have never gone to the Ministry of Magic and Sirius would still be alive. I'm so stupid. If the wizarding world is depending on me to defeat Voldemort they might as well give up now.

Hermione

I can't go to headquarters with Ron until after my vacation with mom and dad in Germany. So far it has all been rather fascinating. I got to visit the actual site of a giant rebellion that happened in the 1300's, but I can't quit worrying about Harry. He seemed so depressed when we left Hogwarts and he didn't even go to the end of the year feast. I'm going to write to him as often as possible. It can't be good the way he is isolating himself. I sure wish he would confide in Ron or me about how he feels. I can't shake the feeling that he blames himself over Sirius's death.

Ron

Why does Harry even have to go back to his bloody aunt and uncle? He was angry enough being cut off from the wizarding world last summer, and mom is just about going nuts worrying about him. I can't blame her though, Ever since Sirius was killed Harry's had this dead look in his eyes. It's kind of like apart of him died with Sirius or something. I don't know. I hope he'll be all right. I'm going to write him to see if Dumbledore had told him when he can come over.

Lupin

I feel empty inside like I'm hollow. I want to scream and through a fit, but I have to keep myself together; others are depending on me. No mater how much I'd like to break down and scream I need to be calm for Harry. Sirius was my best friend, my last childhood friend, but he was Harry's godfather. I have to help him get through this. I've talked to Dumbledore and he seems to think Harry will be fine, but Dumbledore wasn't the one holding Harry back after it happened, trying to force him to leave the room, Dumbledore didn't see the look on Harry's face when he realized that Sirius wasn't coming back. He wasn't listening to Harry screams. I wish I could talk to him, not just small talk but really talk. Maybe I don't just want to talk to Harry to make him feel better but to have kind of a, well, funeral or something to honor Sirius. His name was never cleared of murder so we can't even give him the funeral he deserves. He was a great man but the world is going to remember him as a murderer. Not as the hero he was. How that thought haunts me. I wish things could have been different. I don't blame Harry for what happened but it's weird. I'm the last Marauder. Wormtail stopped being a Marauder when he betrayed Lily and James. I've been left alone again, except this time Sirius is never coming back. I don't even have that hope. Alone.