Author's note's: Okay, first things first, this is a birthday fic for Gaara-kun 'cause he's so cool and gets fics written for him on his birthday like that. This is a Gaara x Haku twoshot (two chapters…that's it…one Gaara POV and one Haku POV) It's not a pairing you see a lot since in the storyline because Haku died -( and what not but I LOVE THIS PAIRING! So I had to do a Gaara birthday fic with it. It's AU and…Haku and Neji are brothers. Yep. I'm writing another fic now with them as brothers called "Such a Perfect Surprise"…look for that soon if you like this (its gonna be a lot longer then this). Anyway Happy January 19, 2007 everyone! (It's Gaara Day!)

You can review if you want…constructive criticisms only please…tell me how I can improve if you don't like the fic. On with the story!

Gaara's Smile

By Super Sexy Ninja Jun Jun

- Chapter one -

…I'm not quite sure what this feeling is…

My name is Sabaku Gaara and I am fifteen years old. I've lived avoiding human contact, fluidly and alone. That is until two years ago. My family and I had always been distant but after my father's unexpected murder I was left with his business for reasons I'm still not sure of. Now I am a fifteen year old boy dealing with the usual crushes and zits plus a multi-million dollar music producing company and label. Needless to say I have a lot on my mind.

I started going to a public school of my own choice. I wanted to learn to open up to people and grow close to them and the easiest way was to get out of my huge sanctuary of a home and into Konoha High School. I was tired of being alone. I wanted to make friends. But I didn't know how and it was hard. But I did make friends eventually, slowly but surely I made real friends.

The first boy to speak to me, after nearly a month at the school, was Hyuga Haku. A boy as antisocial and rich as I am. He liked my music and I liked his warm smile. I'm known to write songs on occasion…a lot of them sad or angry…the feelings I hold in come out when I write. I met other people too. Naruto, Sasuke, Sakura, Neji (Haku's older brother), Kiba, Hinata. For the first time in my life I felt welcomed. I'd never felt like that before…

My mother died giving birth to me and my father blamed me. I was beaten often when he was alive and my siblings were barely allowed with me at all. But things are different now, better. Temari is protective of me and Kankuro teases me. I'm part of a family. It's a small one but it's my family.

…I can't stop looking at him…

But Haku is like my family too. We've grown really close. We're both really quite and calm and from the start I liked him a lot. He was kind, caring, friendly, sensitive, sweet…

…And gay like me…

Now before I met him I had not told anyone that I was gay but that, like everything about me, seemed to be easy to tell him.

…I want to ask him…

In fact, as I sit here surrounded by friends talking to me, wishing me happy birthday…right now I feel like…

…I want to be with him…

I hear Naruto shout, "Let's get this party started!" as he flips on the stereo and Fall Out Boy floods the basement of the Sabaku mansion.

'I'm good to go and I'm going nowhere fast what's worse is I could be taking you there with me

I'm good to go but it looks like I'm still on my own

I'm good to go for something golden though emotions I've been going through have failed…'

I sit up slowly, gathering up all my courage, eyeing Haku standing alone across the room.

…Yeah, let's get this party started…

covers face is it okay? I like it. Um…the song they were listening to was Saturday by Fall Out Boy (when they were newer and not as many people knew about them I did…so…yeah…) I thought it fitted a party they would throw for Gaara. He's punk and emo and all. I hope you all liked it as much as I did writing it.

Songs I listened to writing this: "Saturday" by Fall Out Boy, "Please Please Please" and "Shut Your Eyes" by the Shout Out Loads

Best Wishes and Much Love Minna-san!