Bilbo still keeps all the little clothes guarded. Sometimes I caught him up watching them and with a smirk on his face, but then, in a matter of seconds, I think he realizes what has happened, and that smile soon turns into a waterfall of tears, and then I'm there to hold him and say that it'll be fine. When even I do not believe it.

It happened a month ago.

- Thorin, I think there's something wrong. – Bilbo said as he ran his hand over his belly.

- What is it? - I asked worried.

- I do not know, but .. It hurts a lot. I am afraid. - I pulled him into my arms and ran my hands through his hair.

- Hey, it's okay, it'll be fine. Come, let's go to the hospital.

When we got to the hospital, Bilbo leaned on me so he could better balance, since the stomach was weighed, and the pain was almost unbearable.

We were attended quickly by Dr. Henderson, who led Bilbo into a room, and I couldn't enter. I had to wait outside, and it made me mad, because it was my husband and son who was there. It was my family and I needed to know what was happening. But I decided to calm down, I sit down and waited for news.

I sat in the chair for what seemed like days, and I was getting quite impatient until I saw the doctor coming towards me.

- What happened? Is Bilbo okay? And the baby?

- Easy, boy. - He said and sighed. - I need you to be strong, okay? For your husband.

- What are you talking about? - I started sweating.

- Turns out .. It was very sudden. We were examining him and all seemed fine, until his water broke. So we had to make the birth as soon as possible, because he was also losing blood. Well, Mr. Durin, as I said at the beginning of the pregnancy, It was a high-risk pregnancy and he was lucky to have gotten to the seventh month. We had to make a quick cesarean section and when we removed the baby, He.. He only managed a sigh before he died. But, if that comforts you a bit, Bilbo will soon recover. - The doctor ended up giving me a sad look.

I just collapsed. I fell to my knees in the middle of the hospital and could not stop the tears that was falling down on my face. My God! My son was dead and I didn't even been able to meet him. But.. what about Bilbo? Does he already knew? And how he was dealing with all this? I needed to see him.

- Can.. Can I see my husband now? - I asked wiping the tears.

- Yes, of course. Follow me, please.

I followed the doctor until Bilbo's room. The doctor stopped at the door and let me alone. I think he knew we needed to be alone.

When I entered the room, Bilbo was there, his eyes completely bloodshot and sobbing. Then I went up to him and hugged him tight.

- Shh, easy now, my love. It's alright. - I said as I passed my hands through his hair. I wish I had that whole belief in what I had just said.

- Thorin.. Our baby. Our Anthony.. He.. He.. - Bilbo could not finish the sentence because it was cut off by a sob of his own, followed by several more tears.

Seeing that scene, I couldn't stand anymore and let my tears come out again. I remember we wanted that baby so much.

I sighed remembering the incident.

30 days and looked like it had been yesterday.

- Love? - I said coming into our room.

Bilbo was lying in bed playing with his cell phone.

- Hi, honey. - He answered me. I was happy to see that his eyes were not red.

I smiled and went to the bed giving a kiss on his forehead. He laughed a little and hugged me.

- I missed you. How was it? - He asked me.

- I missed you too. - I said giving him another kiss, but this time on the lips. - It was okay. Peter said I can stay at home with you until you're better.

- This is great. - He said with a sigh.

- Hey, what was that?

- It was nothing. I just remembered Tony suddenly. I tried to distract myself all day. I go out with Ori to buy some clothes, and everything seemed fine. But now, I don't know, I just remembered him..

I sighed and ran my hand across his face.

- You know, when he was born, I could see him for a few seconds, but they don't let me hold him. - He suddenly looked at me and continued. - You didn't see him.

- No, I didn't.. See, it's hard for me too.

- He was beautiful. - Bilbo said with a smile.

- I bet he was. - I said when I saw his smile fade.