Where were you?
You were caught inbetween worlds, neither here nor there,
Hardly enough flesh to keep you warm
Where was I?
I was the laughter heard at night,
The giggles and whispers from one to another
While you were the tears no-one heard
Where was I?
I was learning the chant of the witches.
I was dancing with satyrs and kissing monsters
While your heart beat, a bird caught in its fluttering bone cage,
Almost ready to fail
You were the silence inbetween
You were the space between a breakfast skipped and a lunch purged
You were the food wasted, the lies spoken
To all
I was the midnight snacks, secret binges and the second serve of Auntie Jean's noodles
We were complete opposites, North and South, Sun and Moon, Day and Night,
And yet
You were there for me
But where was I
When you needed me?
I was twirling my hair as I bargained with Chimera
While you slept in the hospital bed,
And had sugar-water pumped into you,
Expanding you, trying to make you a real-girl
Why would they do it to you, when you were almost a dead-girl?
They will give you meals and watch you force it down
And they will weigh you
Every day
And then every second day
And then every week
Every other week
Every month
And soon
You will slip back into your old habits
And soon
We will lose you again
But this time
We will lose you for good.