Summary: Yugi doesn't love Yami. Yami doesn't love Yugi. In fact, Yami's going out with Kaiba! So Ryou, Bakura, Malik, Marik, and Jounouchi try to play matchmaker. However, they didn't get what they bargained for when they realize why Yugi's so changed. Y/Y, hints of B/R and M/M, remembered noncon Yugi/Pegasus. Please R/R, this is my first fanfic ever so be nice!

/hikari to yami/

/ /yami to hikari/ /

thoughts

Yugi's POV

Yugi shivered. There was a draft next to the bed he was lying in, or rather chained in, and he couldn't move. Bile rose in his throat as he heard footsteps in the hallway.

Oh, God! He's coming… Don't let him hurt me again! Yugi bit back a terrified wimper. Pegasus hated it when he cried or complained, and somehow Pegasus always knew his every move.

He heard an amused voice next to him, cool and collected. "Oh, Yugi Boy, I wish you wouldn't make irritating noises like that. You see, now I'm going to have to punish you!"

Punish you… Punish you… Punish you… The voice echoed again and again and again until all Yugi could see was red, dripping, crawling, oozing, raining blood. He screamed in horror.

All he could feel was the pain, so deep, so intense, so much! It felt like his soul was bruised, like his insides were decaying right before him, like he was fading into a sharp point of dispair.

Vaguely he winced as the fresh welts stung him… It was going to happen again, God didn't help him, YAMI didn't help him! Pegasus was pushing into him, grunting. He felt so dirty, so used, unworthy, and-

"Yugi! Wake up!" Yugi's eyes snapped open and he automatically swallowed a low moan. This was Yami. He was home. Ya, home. Remember that place? He asked himself sarcastically.

He focused on Yami's concerned face above him, red eyes glinting worriedly. The red reminded Yugi of blood, but he forced back the memories, all of them, until all that was left was the wild beating of his heart.

/I'm fine, Yami. It was just another dream./ He sent to his darker half.

/ /Will you be okay? Do you want me to stay with you?/ / Yami asked.

Yugi smiled wanly. Sleeping next to Yami always reassured him, and the dreams came less when he was around. For some reason Yami had always made Yugi feel save and loved, even though he knew that Yami probably didn't care about him, that Yami, too, probably felt that he was just a broken doll, not good for anything.

/Sure, Yami. Thank you./ He replied, and Yami curled up next to him, heating and protecting him with his body. Yugi's eyes slipped shut, and sleep came, mercifully dreamless.

Yami's POV

When Yugi fell asleep Yami retreated to his soul room in agony. This is all my fault! He thought angrily.

He should have known that Yugi would never willingly take off the Millinium Puzzle, even after Yami had gotten his own body. But noooo, he had assumed that Yugi simply wanted time to himself, maybe to romance Anzu, who Yami had thought Yugi had a crush on.

Because Yami hadn't bothered to make sure everything was alright, Yugi might never have a simple crush again, or even be able to sit next to a man without flinching in fear. Yami silently padded down the hallway to Yugi's soul room, the door closed.

He could remember when Yugi had left that door open, and when the floor and shelves had been littered with cards and games. He turned the handle to discover that Yugi's soul room was locked. Well, that had never presented a problem to Yami, and he soon entered silently.

The once whitewashed walls were gone, replaced by mirrors. Blood-soaked mirrors. When he had first rescued Yugi from Pegasus that blood had been fresh and bright, oh, so bright, but now it was dry and brown.

Pegasus had hurt Yugi in more ways than one. The physical pain, the rape, had probably hurt his little light less than the words. Pegasus had done his best to convince Yugi that he was worthless, that noone cared about him. Pegasus had probably done more, but Yugi refused to tell Yami more than he had to, and Pegasus certainly wasn't talking.

Yami sighed, tears shimmering unshed in his eyes. He saw the old Yugi in his minds' eye, giggling happily, innocent amethyst eyes sparkling. His aibou had been beautiful and innocent. Yes, the innocence was gone, stripped away as it had never been, but the beauty was still there.

Yugi was perfect, an angel… Yami shook his head angrily to clear the thoughts. Yes, the hikari might be lovely, but inside him was another story. He had to help Yugi get better, not frighten him away.

He gave the soul room a second glance; only a few items had returned from the once crowded space.

He picked up a packet of photos and smiled when the first photo was of himself and Yugi the week before… before Pegasus. They were both smiling and Yugi was gazing up at Yami with a cute pout on his face. Yami tucked that picture into his pocket and saw the next one.

It was of himself and Seto set against the setting sun, so dark he could barely make out their faces set in a kiss. He frowned. Seto and he had not had a chance to talk, probably since this picture was taken.

I can deal with THAT when the opportunity presents itself. He thought.

The next picture was of two couples, Ryou and Bakura and Malik and Marik. Both pairs had gotten together. Bakura had his arm around Ryou's waste and Ryou was leaning into him. Marik was, well, being Marik.

Typical of him to grope his boyfriend right in front of the camera. Yami laughed inwardly, but took that picture too.

Yugi should not be seeing such crude behavior. He set the rest of the photos down and went to sleep, glad that at least he could protect Yugi from his dreams.

Yugi's POV

God, I hate Mornings! Yugi groaned inwardly. On top of the fact that he had only gotten about three hours of sleep, Yami had not seen fit to wake him up until ten minutes before it was time to start walking.

"Hey-Yug? Are ya listening?" Asked Jounouchi, leaning down in concern.

Yugi jumped a little and went through the conversation in his head. "Yes, Jou, I'm glad that your new cards gave you the edge over Kaiba. Congratulations!"

Jou smiled, a pleased grin lighting up his face. "Ya, but it was lookin' real bad there for a while, then I played Red-Eyes in defense and-" Yugi tuned his friend out.

As grateful as he was that Jou had been waiting to walk him to school, he wasn't looking forward to the first day back from summer vacation. He hadn't really kept up touch with his friends for the last few months, and as far as they all knew he had been on vacation the entire time.

Even a month was too long… He shuddered to remember the thirty-one days spent at Pegasus's Castle. Only Yami knew what had really happened, and he had been lucky that Yami had rescued him in the first place. He shouldn't have bothered. I'm not worth it anymore.

TBC