I Saw You Standing There
(This is really short. Hope you enjoy it! J )
There you are. Exactly like you've been there before. I guess I never noticed. I never noticed how your hair falls just over your shoulder like a white waterfall. Or how brightly you glow when you're dancing in the rain. Or how regal you look standing there, your beautiful face turned up to the heavens in worship. I saw you standing there exactly as you had stood there before, but it's different now. I'm different now, but exactly the same. The sway of your hips, which never appealed to me before, calls to me. The gentle upward curve of your lips in a small smile. The way your muscles move together in a liquid fluid motion. I never really noticed. Not how blue your eyes are. Two cobalts sparkling brighter than any sapphire could. So long have I been blinded to your beauty. So long caught up in the gaze of another. If but given the chance, I'm sure I could make your heart soar. But you seem so high above me that I should not even the pleasure of being your friend. I am painfully aware that I shall never hold you in passion, nor should I feel the silken petals that are too fair to be called lips. I remember that night when I stumbled onto you floating above the lake. The silver moonlight causing your bare body to glow. Your long white hair streaked with silver, tumbling down your back. Water crystals glittering like diamonds rolling down your body. I was blind then. Too blind to see the mystical beauty that is you. But I'm not blind now. Now you turn to me, ever so gracefully, your hand stretched out for mine. With the wind blowing your hair around your body, your hand outstretched, your face set in a slightly amused smile, you truly have become the Goddess. The Goddess of my heart. My body cries out for you. My heart calls out to you. My spirit yearns for you. But I'm nothing other than a lost soul weighed down with sin. What would a Goddess want with me?
"Are you okay Rogue? It is unusual to see you so unworried about the approaching weather," Ororo says jokingly. "Usually you are afraid that you'll ruin the finery that Remy has lovingly bestowed upon you."
I take her hand and smile brightly.
"Maybe Ah's growin' up sugah," I say quietly.
Maybe I'm growing up. But maybe I'm still the lost tormented little girl that I was when I first got here. The one that thought she had to prove a point to everyone. What would a Goddess want with me?