Author: tourniquetkid
Rating: PG-13 for language
I know that the spacing is a little unorthodox but they are all Faith thoughts...In all honesty I wanted to make the chapter seem longer than it is...
The fun in losing (control)
Ch.1- catalyst
There's that high that you get, right before you stake a vamp, knowing that he's dust and you win.
It's better than sex (or at least the sex I've been having).
Don't get me wrong Xander's a cutie, but what can you expect from a first time driver?
(Lots of starts and stops, before missing a turn, and then eventually running out of gas…)
Staking just gives you this feeling of complete control over the universe.
You are her mistress and she wants to please you.
That's the part that B gets off on.
She likes to think that she controls her life.
She refuses to see that Angel is fucking with her mind.
He has that wounded puppy routine down but he'll turn on her and her world will fall apart because she built it all around him.
As for Xander and Will, he'll keep waitin for B until he can't contain it anymore, then he'll call Cordelia over for a fuck.
Will is gonna live vicariously through B till it kills her.
Staying that close to danger but never actually touching it.
Ask me again why I'm not begging to be a Scooby.
Their dysfunction is not what I need. I'd rather be at the cemetery, blowin off steam, listening to B ramble about how she hates math, or whatever little thing she's off on at the moment.
She's afraid of her universe collapsing, and I'm just too explosive for her to handle.