Hey Leah lovers.. :) I'm back. You guys lovee me, right? So... I've had this idea for a while and now I'm going to put it on paper!... or er... the computer web site thing.. :D. Go ahead, read it. It's awesome. :) I hope.. enjoy! Oh and if you don't review I will come to your house and kill you... jk. But I will withhold chapters.

FYI: the following is a dream seqance formed with memories.. :)

Sam's arms were wrapped all around me and my mind was clouded. I didn't remember what was going on or what had happened... but at the same time I knew. I knew but I couldn't remember until I raised my head to stare into his beautiful eyes. Everything flooded back to me and I cringed. He was leaving in a month. He was going away to college and I would be here, alone, for my senior year. "I love you." I whispered, cuddling to his side to hide my face from him.

"I love you." He mumbled back, kissing the top of my head.

"But... Sam." The memory of that morning when I woke up in his arms for the first-and last- time faded out and I was standing on the beach in a light rain in front of him. His face was drawn and his eyes hard, but somehow misty.

"No buts, Leah." He muttered, taking a step back from me.

I grabbed his arm. "Sam!" I yelled back at him. "You love me! I know you do."

He closed his eyes and crossed his arms across his chest, shaking my hand off. "Leah sometimes its not enough."

"But Sam you said we could try this! I can handle the distance, Sam. Don't do this, Sam. We can work through this." I said, nearly sobbing. "Sam, I'll be there next year. I'll come and be with you. It's only a year.. not even a full year! Nine months, Sam! Just give it a chance. Please Sam."

He shook his head. "Leah. It's not the distance. I'm not going. I'll be here, but Leah I can't be with you."

"Sam what are you talking about? What has changed in the past week? Nothing at all has changed, Sam! I'm the same girl I was before, and your the same guy!" Trears were mixing with rain as they trailed down my face. The rain poured down on us, but he didn't even look cold.

"No, Leah. I'm not the same guy I was five days ago." He told me, glancing over to my house in the distance.

"Why aren't you going to school, Sam? What happened?" I asked him as my body was pelted with ice cold rain and I let out a shiver.

"Leah you need to go inside." He told me, frowning down at me.

"I'm not done with you, Sam! What's going on? You love me, I love you, what's the problem?" I asked him, feeling my insides turn inside out.

"Leah? What are you doing out here? It's freezing." Emily called from the door. She was standing there, frowning at me, obviously seeing my tears. "What's going on?" She asked me, approaching us.

I glanced at Sam. He was staring at her with this look in his eyes.. nothing I could discribe. Love, adoration, worry.. "Nothing...Em... I'll be back in in a minute." I told her, nodding her back into the house. When she was gone I turned to Sam, eyes cold as ice. "Emily? You are leaving me for my cousin? I guess Paul was right about you. He told me to stay away from you.. I should have listened. Goodbye Sam." I said, turning away, tears welling up in my eyes again.

"Leah, it's not like that." He said, grabbing my arm and pulling me back to him. "I can't control this..Lee I wish I could explain but I can't. I never wanted to hurt you, Leah, believe me."

I chuckled darkly. "Oh, sure, I believe you." With that I ran in the house, slamming the door behind me. I slid down the front door, sobbing uncontrollably.

"Seth shut up, I don't care! I need to see her." I was jolted out of the heartbreaking memory sleep had brought by someone yelling.

"Just leave, Sam, she doesn't want to see you! She's sick for heaven's sake!" Seth yelled back at him.

"I have to talk to her, Seth, move over." Sam growled. I heard a loud bang and then Sam opened the bathroom door and came in. I'm sure what he saw was a funny picture.. Me in my tee shirt and pajama pants, lying on the bathroom floor in front of the toilet. I'm sure I must look frightful but I didn't really care. I was starving and cold and I felt like I was going to puke.. again.

"Leah." He mumbled, frowning down at me.

"What?" I growled back, feeling my stomach turn angrily.

"We need to talk."

"Now isn't the best time, Sam."

"No... Leah we need to talk." He said, sitting down beside me. His face was grave.

"What do you want?" I begged him. I just wanted him to leave. I didn't want to see him. I never wanted to see him again.

"Leah... Emily told me you were sick... I think we may have a problem."

"What are you talking about? I'm running on fitful sleep here! Do you have to give it to me in riddles?"

"Leah... The condom broke."

My blood ran cold. "Were you planning on telling me?"

"I didn't find out until after you left.. and then I didn't see you... and then... I didn't think.."

"Get out." I growled at him.

"Leah." He begged.

"Sam just get out."

"Leah please..."

"Sam just leave me alone! Just leave! Go. Go play around with Emily."

"Leah please don't do this."

"Look whose saying that now! Just go home Sam. Scratch that. I don't even care where you go. Just get the hell out of here."

He started at me for a moment before standing up and walking away without another word.

I stood up, wobbling on my legs and walked to the mirror. My hair was awful and my eyes were puffy and red framed with dark circles.

How long had it been? I didn't know. Time had been irrelevant. I've been practically deep for so long now. In a state of shock and depression were time meant nothing to me. I ran upstairs and found my phone. It was September 23. It was... June 20. That was the night... In my madness and depression I hadn't noticed.. I'd missed four months. I tore my tee shirt up and let out a sob at the tiny bump-indention really. I am pregnant with Sam's baby. Oh my God.

So thats chapter one.. I don't know if I like it.. you tell me. :) So quesion. This is a serious question for those of you who LOVE leah like me. Did I miss something? Because when I saw Leah in Eclipse... I just didn't ever imagine her so... I don't even know how to describe it. So if you know what I'm talking about pleeasee tell me (in a review) so I can feel better about myself.. :D. And BTW if I don't get reviews I won't think anyone likes this story... and I won't update like ever. HEHE. evil laugh...

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