A mistress. That's what I was. That's what I am. That's what I will always be. Some people look down at me, wondering how I can ruin a relationship and not even care. The truth is I do care, slightly. I was cheated on a few times, so I know the pain. The feeling deep inside of you that makes you feel worthless. The feeling that makes you want to know how you could be better, if you could be.
Some people call it a crime, sleeping with married men. The way I see it, it's not a crime or whatever you want to call it. It's making someone feel happy, appreciated. It's knowing that I can make someone feel immense pleasure.
I know I've disappointed my family and my friends. I won't forget the look on my mother's face when she was looking at a wizard tabloid and saw a picture of me and the head of the Department of International Magical Cooperation in an intimate embrace. That wasn't supposed to happen. I don't intend to cause the wife pain.
I've tried to stop. I really have, but it's difficult. When I see a two people together it makes me wonder if they're happy. That's why I've tarnished my reputation, to bring joy. It's an odd way to be happy but when I feel the rolls of bliss coursing about their body through mine, it makes me feel whole. It makes me feel like I've done some good, even though I've done bad at the same time.
When I walk into a store, I hear whispers. Some of the women in the lingerie department give me looks, like they expect me to buy the most revealing pieces. Sometimes it just amazes me how quickly people can assume things.
I've always been able to put up with mockery. It doesn't affect me like it affects some people. I guess I've just realized that people only do it because they're insecure or because it makes them feel better about themselves. Yet, they judge me. People who poke fun of me think they're better than me? Some people would argue that they are. I say not. I think we're about the same because no matter what a person does, they still have feelings.
To sum up whom I am, I'm Cho Chang and I love to make others happy, whatever the price might be.
Author's note: This idea has been in my head for awhile. I know I've sort of jump around on this but I wanted to give different views. Reviews truly do brighten my day ;)