Hey Guys, this is my first fanfic, so go easy on me. I've had this idea running in my head for a while so i said I'll just go with it. I'm probably going to update every 1 to 5 days, so don't think im going to abandon this story, i really hate it when authors do that, because sometimes they have really awesome stories. Anyways, thanks and Review!

Chapter 1

I can't believe she's did this. She might be out of her freaking mind. She was once. Not surprised if she went back to that insane daze again.

"Katniss.." my mother sighs again. "Stop arguing with me. Just go upstairs and get some sleep. Tomorrow is your first day, and I don't want you to be late."

"You don't even care! If you did you wouldn't have brought us back, with only 1 year of high school left!" I say stubbornly.

It's her fault we are back here. I didn't want to come back, but Prim was overjoyed, and I couldn't say no to Prim's big blue eyes. I don't even want to listen to what she says; I run to my room and slam the door as hard as I can.

I know it's childish of me to slam the door, but how does she want me to walk through those halls without me breaking down into tears? Walk in down through town without imagines of explosions flood my brain? Prim and I did everything for her, and not once did she take our opinion. Moving to District 4 was her idea, moving so many apartments and house when we were in district 4. I just wanted to settle down, and when I told her this, she said we are moving back to district 12.

From all the districts she picked 12. I mean I love my home town, but the memories just keep haunting me.

The only reason we moved to district 4 was because mother couldn't handle the memories. District 4 is beautiful, and I loved the beach there. The beach was probably the only good thing there.

After I moved to 4, I met a guy. Of course if I told anyone this, they would probably say: "It just had to do something with a guy." His name is Kevin. Tall, Dark hair, with out of the district brown eyes. Something made me fall for him, we dated, I became his girlfriend, and after 1 week he told me he loved me. Loved me. That fast. I was surprised, and I didn't know what to say. The word "Love" means so much to me, but he threw them at me like a toy that could be replaced. I mean what are you supposed to say when someone you've dated for 2 weeks tells you he loves you. I just smiled at him, and didn't say anything.

3 months later, everything fell apart. We fought, and he took a punch in the face. He cheated on me after I didn't say I love you back. Claimed it was because I didn't say it back. From that experience I learned never to trust anyone I don't know well, I put walls over myself, and the experience with mother didn't help either. I remembered my father saying that love is a strong word and nobody should be throwing it around.

Falling on the bed, I avoid falling asleep. My eyelids are heavy but I don't want any nightmares tonight. I'm already in a nightmare while awake; I don't need another one when I'm asleep.

I turn on my IPod and put the volume high, trying to keep out the memory of going to school tomorrow. I start to sing "Rolling in the deep" by Adele; - high note - nailed it. I smile to myself as the song finishes. Another song starts, but this one is old – recorded by father – its starts:

Deep in the meadow, under a willow a bed of grass, a soft green pillow Lay down you head, and close you sleep eyes And when again they open, the sun will rise.
Hear it's safe, here it's warm
hear the daisies guard you from every harm
hear your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
hear is the place where i love you.
Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A clock of leaves, a moonbeam ray
forget your woes and let your troubles lay
and when again it's morning, they'll wash away.
Hear it's safe, hears its' warm
hear the daises guard you from every harm
Hear your dreams are sweet and tomorrow bring them true
hear is the place where I love you.

Tears already streaming down my face, I'm already crying because of a song, what kind horrid things am I going to face tomorrow?

I fall asleep hoping I wouldn't get any nightmares, but of course my hopes were blasted.

Okay So that's chapter 1. All reviews are appreciated. If there is anything you guys don't like please tell me, I'm writing this fanfic for you guys. So Thanks and I hope you enjoyed this chapter.